I had a good time tonight. I went to see a movie and for once it was a real date. He was so sweet, a real gentleman. I'm not used to that kind of attention, but it felt good. I'm not going to get into details because that sort of stuff belongs in my journal. I feel like I've known him for a long time and he told me that there is something about me. I hope this is a good thing. It feel like a good thing. I've waited for this for so long, but I'm scared that I'll mess it up somehow. I'm scared to tell him what I have to tell him. I'm scared that when I tell him, he'll change his mind.
I'm going to give it time. I know that I should tell him soon, but I'm scared to tell him. Nobody seems to understand. Will he understand? How do I tell him something like this? I know it;s important that I don't keep it from him like some secret. It's not a secret. I don't want him to think that I'm lying to him by keeping it from him.
He told me to give it time. I told him that I'm in no hurry. I have all this stuff to figure out and when I get a few things straightened out, I'll be able to move forward. I want to. I like this guy. I don't know what it is, but I think there is something there. Maybe I'm just rushing into things like I always do. It;s just hard not to sometimes. When you get a chance that you want to take, it's hard not to take it. Sometimes I make the mistake of going to fast and taking it to extremes. Maybe it's because I'm an emotional person and when my heart is in one place, my head is in another.
I'm going to give it time and see what happens.
5 comments:
oooooooooH!
That was a great post. How exciting for you!
You know, there is a difference between feeling excited and jumping too fast. Right now, you are just excited. That's it! That is a GOOD feeling. You're not jumping into things.
I feel very positive for you!
This thing you have to tell him....
Best to say this type of thing if it is getting serious. Unless it is being a parent...then you tell them up-front.
No, I told him that I have a kid and he seems fine with it. What I have to tell him is that I live with my ex boyfriend. I told him I had a room-mate but I didn't tell him the history about it and who this guy is. How do I tell him something like this? I'm scared he'll change his mind about me. It might be too much for him to accept although this is a temporary arrangement. How can I get him to understand that there is nothing to worry about?
Yes, this is a very exciting time for me and because this is a good feeling I have been happy. I just hope this feeling will last longer than it usually does.
Hey!
I see. I honestly though it was worse than that!
I don't really think that it is as much a big deal if you explain it properly. You aren't cheating or anything, so it is not like that.
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