Defending Disinterest (Part 2)

I should be sleeping. I tried. 

I was about to go to bed... I was tired.
I still am... 

But.... Mr Curiosity.... 
"Didn't understand"
WHEN I EXPLAINED IT
A SECOND TIME. 

I TRIED. 

GAVE HIM THE CHANCE TO STOP HIS CRAP....
BUT???? HE WENT FULL FKTARD. 

TRIED TO TELL ME I WAS WRONG....
THAT HE "NEVER"
ASKED ME ABOUT MY S*X LIFE.

AND DEFENDED HIMSELF:
"DID I ASK FOR DETAILS?
DID I ASK THIS OR THAT?"

BUT.... WHAT.... DID HE ASK?

IF I EVER HAD TENDER S*XUAL EXPERIENCES?

I posted it, the full convo, so my friends could see.
AND SOMEONE TOLD ME HE WAS GASLIGHTING.
I KNEW IT, BUT... CONFIRMED.

That's how the "argument" started. 

ABOUT HIM ASKING ME THAT....
AND DENYING IT.

It wasn't "confrontational"

NOT EVEN CLOSE.

IT WAS MORE LIKE THIS:

Is that a "confrontation"? 
OR??? AN ANALOGY?

And it continued... Actually.

TRIED HARD TO GASLIGHT ME. 

I BLOCKED THAT FKER. 

NO POINT. HE DIDN'T "UNDERSTAND."

I EXPLAINED IT TWICE, ACTUALLY.
NICELY. 

WITH AN ANALOGY. 

I COULD HAVE..... RIPPED HIM ONE.
DIDN'T. 

MY LAST WORDS TO HIM:
WOW. OKAY. DONE.

BLOCKED. 

HE CAN TRY THAT SH*T WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
IT DIDN'T WORK WITH ME.

FOR A REASON: I SAW THAT SH*T.
THAT'S WHY.

IT MIGHT WORK ON SOMEONE 
WHO DOESN'T SEE THAT SH*T. 

HE TRIED TO DO IT SUBTLY. 

AND THEN DENIED IT. 

It started when he asked me if I get "lonely and scared"
WTF IS THAT TO ASK SOMEONE?

IF I HAD SAID YES? "OFFER."
A "REASON" TO "OFFER."

HE WAS ASKING CERTAIN QUESTIONS
WANTING CERTAIN ANSWERS. 

HE DIDN'T GET THE ANSWERS HE WANTED.

IT BLEW UP IN HIS FACE, AND HE GOT MAD.

TOTALLY GOT DEFENSIVE.... 
THE TACTICS... WOW.

JUST... WOW.

WHEN I SEE THAT SH*T????

I WANT TO SLAP THEM THROUGH THE SCREEN!
"WAKE UP!"

HE WAS TRYING TO ACT LIKE HE "UNDERSTOOD" ME.
" I SYMPATHIZE" WITH THE "HURT"
BECAUSE: "YOU ISOLATE YOURSELF BECAUSE XYZ."

EXCUSE ME? I ISOLATE MYSELF....
BECAUSE I DON'T "NEED" TO BE AROUND MOST PEOPLE.

WHY DO I NEED TO BE "TOLD" WHY I CHOOSE ANYTHING?
I ALREADY KNOW WHY! 

I'M THE ONE MAKING MY CHOICES! RIGHT?
WOULDN'T I BE THE ONE WHO KNOWS WHY????! 

That's fkd up. 

I see sh*t about people that they can't see in themselves. 
THEY DON'T LIKE IT.

THAT'S WHY MY "EXPLANATION"
WAS CLASSIFIED AS "CONFRONTATION."

I WAS SUPPOSED TO ARGUE WITH HIM...
HE WAS SUPPOSED TO "WIN" THE ARGUMENT.

AND HE CAN TELL HIS "NARRATIVE."
I DGAF WHAT HE SAYS. 

I KEPT THE PROOF OF HOW HE ACTED. 
ALL 22 SCREENSHOTS. 

The decent people I've met... Cool folks!

That guy? Not so much. 

I was supposed to "cooperate"
WITH HIS STRATEGY. 
I WASN'T. 

I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO "CONFRONT" HIM.

AND HE FOUND THAT "STRANGE."

I FOUND THE WHOLE FKN THING "STRANGE." 

AND IF I WAS A MALE....
HE WOULDN'T HAVE ASKED ME....
ANY OF THOSE QUESTIONS.

HE LITERALLY WENT AS FAR AS TO "TELL" ME
THAT I WAS MAKING IT UP. FFS.

HE WAS TRYING TO "PRODUCE" A "CONCLUSION"

LIKE HE WAS "TOLERATING" ME.

WTF?

TO TRY TO "MAKE ME" FEEL "BAD"
ABOUT "MAKING STUFF UP."

IF IT'S TO STOP BEING FRIENDS....
LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ALL LIKE:

"I STILL WANT TO BE FRIENDS."
IT WASN'T ABOUT BEING MY FRIEND.

IT WAS ABOUT WHATEVER TF HE WANTED.

HE WANTED "CONTROL."
TO TRY TO "DESTABILIZE" ME.

IT DIDN'T WORK.

HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING...
AND DENIED IT. 

HE KNEW THAT I KNEW, TOO.
WHICH IS "STRANGE." RIGHT?

WHY WOULD I "ACCEPT" HIS VERSION
OF WHO HE WAS TRYING TO "TELL" ME THAT I AM?

THIS IS MANIPULATION. IT'S GROSS. 

NO. I KNOW WHO TF I AM. 
"ISOLATION" GAVE ME THAT "GIFT."

MAYBE THAT'S WHY I "ISOLATE."
BECAUSE "FEW" ACTUALLY KNOW ME?

AND BECAUSE I'M ALLOWED TO?
IF I WANT TO?

HMMM.

IT'S JUST.... FKD UP. 
BEING "TOLD" WHY I DO THINGS.

I'M NOT GOING TO PARTICIPATE IN THAT SH*T.

NO POINT.

"REFRAMING."
THAT'S WHY HE HAD TO TRY TO "REFRAME"
HIS OWN BEHAVIOR. 
AND MY "RESPONSE" TO IT. 

FKN DISTURBING, ACTUALLY. 

I DO NOT "NEED" THAT SH*T.

I DON'T NEED HIS "AGREEMENT"
ABOUT HIS BS TO KNOW IT'S BS.

HE TRIED TO "DISTORT" MY JUDGMENT. 

AFTER OTHER FKTARDS DOING THAT SH*T....
I KNOW WHAT THAT LOOKS LIKE.

EVEN WHEN THEY TRY TO DO IT "SUBTLY."

BUT... I KNOW WHY HE DID THAT. 

TO TRY TO GET ME TO "QUESTION" MYSELF.
BECAUSE HE WANTED TO TRY TO MAINTAIN HIS "IMAGE"
OF HIMSELF... 

AS "JUST CURIOUS."

NO. IT WAS MORE THAN THAT.

RESENTING THIS FKER, AND THE OTHER FKERS... 
ISN'T HELPING ME.

HE THOUGHT I WAS "STUPID."
MY INTELLIGENCE WAS A "THREAT."
THAT'S WHY HE WANTED ME TO DOUBT MYSELF
AND MY OWN JUDGMENT. 

WHEN YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH....
YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO BE AROUND FKERS LIKE THAT.

HE COULDN'T "MANAGE" ME.
HE TRIED.
FAILED.

I "ISOLATE" BECAUSE I DON'T "HAVE TO" BE
AROUND ANYONE
IF I DON'T WANT TO BE!!!!!

WELP, HE FKD HIS CHANCE. 
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT HE DID WITH IT.

I EXPLAINED IT TWICE to him. 
Shouldn't have had to. At all. 

I DON'T NEED TO "WIN" AN ARGUMENT
I WASN'T TRYING TO HAVE.

HE DID. THAT'S WHY HE KEPT GOING. 

SO YOU CAN SEE WHY THIS SH*T IS BS????
WHY IT WOULD ACTUALLY P*SS ME OFF?

I WILL GET TO SLEEP... EVENTUALLY...

I am TIRED. I need to sleep....
BUT I AM TIRED OF THAT SH*T. 

NOT NEEDED.

I KNEW IT WAS A RISK TO EVEN POST IN THAT GROUP.
I KNEW THERE WAS GOING TO BE AT LEAST ONE PERSON
I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO BLOCK.

AT LEAST ONE.

"WAS JUST CURIOUS...." 

SHOULD HAVE BLOCKED HIM BEFORE HE WENT FULL FKTARD.

My friend said that dudes will pretend to sympathize...
SOME OF THEM, NOT ALL OF THEM....
"I CAN FIX HER."
WHO SAID I WANT ANYONE TO "FIX" ME?
And he then said that it isn't to actually "fix" you....
It's because he thinks he's such a gift to women
that he CAN. SO HE THINKS.

"SOMETHING TERRIBLE MUST HAVE HAPPENED TO HER
TO TURN HER OFF OF S*X..."

OR MAYBE.... SO MANY EGO TRIPS
THAT I'M ON "VACATION" FROM ALL OF THAT.

ON PURPOSE. 

TURNED OFF.... BECAUSE.... THAT.... IS... GROSS.
ACTING LIKE YOU'RE 14......
WHEN YOU'RE OVER 40....

YEAH.... THAT.... IS... A... TURN OFF.
NOT SORRY ABOUT IT.

BECAUSE: FK THAT.
THAT'S WHY.