Almost Caught Up

Been writing offline a lot.
I'll add those soon.
I have internet again now.
So I'll do that.

They are on the other computer.
I have to transfer them to this one so I can do that.
Maybe this weekend...

I started working on my main project again.
I feel pretty good about that, actually.
I made a lot of progress on it.

Last month, I got a lot of views out of nowhere.
Every now and then, that happens.

Maybe when I vent lol. I dunno.
It caught me by surprise hahaha!

A big surprise.

Over 40,000 views in one month?
When does that ever happen?
Weird.

People trying to "dig dirt" on me or something?

Wouldn't be surprised about THAT.

Most people try to paint me as something...
They "have to" dig to try to see if whatever bs they heard
was something...? Idk.

Probably wouldn't be hard to find this blog, 
if someone wanted to dig for it...

ALL THE CRINGE FROM MY PAST. OKAY.

If they want that, they can have that, but...
WHY THEY'D WANT THAT... IDK.

What are they going to do?
"I believed some BS about you that someone told me"?

PROBABLY NOT!
"SORRY ABOUT THAT! SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN TO KNOW YOU!
MYSELF!"

Welp, shouldn't listen to BS, but.... 
DIDN'T FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF IF IT WAS TRUE...
BEFORE YOU BELIEVED IT.

Here's an example:
I had a coworker who was born a bio female.
HE INTRODUCED HIMSELF TO ME AS A MALE.
DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF IT.
I THOUGHT: HE'S A COOL DUDE.
So he told me the truth....
He said: "Before you hear it from anyone else..."
I hadn't heard anything from anyone.
BUT EVEN IF I HAD... I WOULDN'T HAVE BELIEVED IT.
I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE PULLED HIM ASIDE HAD I HEARD ANYTHING
ABOUT HIM.

BECAUSE IF ANYONE WAS TALKING ABOUT HIM AT WORK, 
HE HAD A RIGHT TO KNOW.

NOT BECAUSE I "NEEDED" TO BE IN SOME DRAMA.
BUT HE HAS THE RIGHT TO TELL ME THE TRUTH.
HIMSELF.

LIKE I HAD A RIGHT TO TELL PEOPLE THE TRUTH MYSELF.

IF ANYONE HAD COME TO ME. THEY DIDN'T.

But... DO YOU GET WHY I SAID THAT?

IF YOU DO, YOU'D WANT TO TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF, TOO.

"WHAT?! WHAT KIND OF BS IS THAT?"
MOST OF THE TIME, PEOPLE DON'T KNOW WHO'S TALKING
ABOUT THEM
AND WHAT THEY ARE SAYING.
BUT IT'D BE NICE TO SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT YOURSELF!

RIGHT?

HOW SOMETHING INNOCENT TURNS INTO SOMETHING.

Why would I care if my coworker was born a female?
HE ALWAYS WAS WHO HE INTRODUCED HIMSELF AS.
To me.

SHOULD I "CARE" ABOUT THAT? WHY?

WHO FKING CARES????!!! STUPID FKN THING TO "CARE" ABOUT!

BETTER ! THINGS! TO! CARE! ABOUT! THAN! THAT!

ANYWAY.... I USED THAT AS AN EXAMPLE
BECAUSE HE WANTED TO TELL ME BEFORE ANYONE SAID ANYTHING.
THEY HADN'T, BUT... 

HE SURMISED THEY PROBABLY WOULD. SO HE DID.
AND WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY?

I JUST SAID.... "NOBODY TOLD ME ANYTHING OR SAID ANYTHING.
I'M GLAD YOU TOLD ME. THANKS FOR TELLING ME."
AND HE WAS KIND OF SURPRISED I HAD THAT REACTION.
LIKE HE WAS EXPECTING ME TO BE WEIRD ABOUT IT
OR SOMETHING.

NOT EXPECTING ME TO BE "COOL" WITH THAT "FACT."
SO WHAT? A FACT IS A FACT.
AM I SUPPOSED TO JUDGE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING?
OR... ARE... FACTS... JUST... FACTS?

"OKAY. NOW I KNOW." JUST THAT.

WHO CARES? WHY SHOULD I? 
About that???? Really???

I saw a video of.... Two dude gang members were caught "together"
IN BED...

AND FELLOW GANG MEMBERS....
BE@T THEM. BOTH.

JUST FOR.... GETTING CAUGHT... "TOGETHER."

SHOULD I FKN CARE IF HOMIE DIGS HOMIE? NO?
"COOL. NOW I KNOW." JUST.... THAT.

WTF? WHY TF WOULD I FKN CARE ABOUT THAT????!!!!
OF ALL THINGS TO CARE ABOUT???????
THAT??????!!!!!!
WHY?

It's NONE OF MY FKN BUSINESS IF HOMIE DIGS HOMIE!
SO WHY TF WOULD I CARE?

If it was my business, maybe... But IT'S NOT!

GOING TO BE@T SOMEONE?
OVER SOMETHING?
THAT HAPPENS TO BE?
NONE?
OF YOUR?
BUSINESS???????

BOTH OF THEM! 
FOR WHAT????????
DIGGING EACH OTHER??????
WHO.....????? TF?????????? CARES?????????!!!!!!!!
WHO?????

Here's another example.....
I have a neighbor.... Who is flamboyant af.
HE DRESSES AS A FEMALE, OFTEN.

IDGAF THAT HE DOES IT.
THAT'S HIS THING.

BUT ONE TIME.... I WAS ON FB....
AND SOMEONE.... WAS FILMING HIM....
DOWNTOWN.... DRESSED.... AS HE WAS....
COMMENTING.... ETC.

TRYING..... TO... HUMILIATE HIM.... ON FB LIVE.
WTF IS THAT SH*T???????????
WTF..... IS..... THAT....... SH*T???????
TO DO THAT?
WHAT IS IT?

I FELT BAD FOR HIM.
WTF IS THAT TO DO?

TRYING TO..... "HUMILIATE" HIM?

THE ONLY TIME I DO HUMILIATE PEOPLE
ARE PEOPLE WHO FKN DESERVE IT.

WHO ARE TRYING TO HUMILIATE SOMEONE.

ONE OF MY NEIGHBORS WAS GETTING ARRESTED...
AND THE COPS WERE BEING ROUGH WITH HIM
FOR NO FKN REASON.

HAD HIM ON THE GROUND.

THEY JUST DO THAT SH*T BECAUSE THEY CAN.
THEY DON'T ACTUALLY HAVE TO DO THAT SH*T.

THEY COULD HAVE JUST PUT HIM IN THE CAR.

SO I SHOUTED AT THEM:

"YOU REALLY NEED TO DO THAT?"
"I SEE YOU!"
"I'M WATCHING YOU!"
"I SAW IT ALL."
"YOU THINK NOBODY SEES YOU? I DO!"
"SOMEONE'S WATCHING YOU! UNDERSTAND THAT?"
"IF YOU'RE GOING TO DO THAT JOB, 
DO IT WITH RESPECT."
"IF YOU CAN'T, THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU."
"GET HIM OFF THE GROUND, BIG BOY."
"I'M WATCHING YOU."

JUST HECKLED TF OUT OF THEM COPS FOR ACTING LIKE FKTARDS.
IF YOU'RE A COP, DO YOU NEED TO BE A FKTARD? NO. YOU DON'T.
IF YOU'RE A COP, YOU NEED TO BE A COP. NOT A FKTARD TOO.

YES, I WILL FKN EMBARRASS TF OUT OF PEOPLE WHO NEED THAT SH*T.
IF THEY ARE DOING IT TO SOMEONE ELSE.
IF THEY NEED A WAKE-UP.
BECAUSE: FK... THAT.... SH*T.

WHATEVER HE DID... IS WHATEVER.
DO YOU HAVE TO DO SH*T YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO? NO?
THEN? WHY TF ARE YOU DOING IT?

DO COPS NEED TO BE ASSAULTING PEOPLE?

NO? THEY DON'T?
THEN? WHY? TF? ARE? THEY? DOING? THAT? SH*T?????

BECAUSE PEOPLE LIKE THE FKTARDS I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH
GET TO BE COPS.

THAT'S WHY.

COPS SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO BE COPS. NOT FKTARDS.

WE HAVE TOO MANY FKTARDS.....
FOR FKTARDS TO BE COPS.

OKAY? JUST THAT.

IF I GOT TO BE A COP, LIKE I ONCE WANTED TO BE....
I WOULD HAVE TO WORK WITH FKTARDS LIKE THAT!
OH WHAT FUN! NOT! FML!

SUCH FUN TO JUST BE IN THIS PLACE.... FOR NOW....

ANYWAY....

Because I'm in here, anything they said about me "could be true" lol.

Whatever. Not like I "care" what they say. They'll always say whatever.

Even in PRINT, they'd twist my words, too. Probably. 
It's still early. I need to try to sleep again soon.