There's A Lot I Didn't Choose

I didn't choose to be discarded.
I didn't choose the "pretending."
I didn't choose to be "played with."
I didn't choose to have my time wasted... 
A lot I didn't choose OR SIGN UP FOR.

DID I SIGN UP FOR 12 YEARS OF SILENCE?
TO BE BLAMED FOR IT TOO?

FOR MY REACTION?

FOR WHAT EXACTLY?
WHAT DO YOU HONESTLY EXPECT FROM ME.....
AFTER DOING ALL THAT? TO ME?
REPEATEDLY?

IT'D BE LIKE TAKING MIRROR SMASHER BACK
AND LETTING HIM BUST OUT MY WINDOWS TOO!

IF HE HAD SMASHED OUT MY WINDOWS....
I'D HAVE TO FKN DEAL WITH THAT SH*T.

HOW DO YOU.... PUT SOMEONE THROUGH......
THE THINGS THEY PUT ME THROUGH........
AND EXPECT ME TO FKN BE OKAY WITH THAT SH*T?!

"I SH*T ALL OVER A***! MAYBE SHE FORGOT!"

IF I WAS SO TOXIC.... WHY IS MY LIFE BETTER?
THAN WHAT IT WAS?
WHEN I WAS TRYING TO CONNECT
WITH SPECIFIC PEOPLE?

BECAUSE I'M NOT PLAYING!
OR BEING FKN PLAYED WITH!

THAT'S WHY!

I'D RATHER BE HAPPY!
THAN WASTE TIME PLAYING 
WITH PEOPLE WHO THINK I WAS EVER FKN PLAYING!

FK THAT!

Why would I want a dude to DRAG ME THROUGH BS?

ALREADY DID THAT?

WHY WOULD I WANT TO GO BACK?