My neighbor came over tonight and told me
that a couple of other neighbors had a warrant on them.
They were on the run from another city.
SA of minors. Both of them.
Never would have thought that.
It's often the ones you never would have thought.
Been blindsided to such a degree you wouldn't believe.
If I wrote it, you'd be sick.
It's that bad.
Imagine my surprise?
You wouldn't want to go through that sh*t. I've had to.
I've had to push pure driven rage aside to try to live a "decent" life.
DESPITE THAT SH*T.
NOT EVERYONE HAS THAT TYPE OF SELF-CONTROL.
IN A SITUATION I'D BEEN RIGHT TO LOSE MY SH*T.
AND I'M NOT IN JAIL.
BECAUSE I HAD TO CHOOSE.
SOME WOULD LET THAT RAGE MAKE THE CHOICE FOR THEM.
BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN FORGIVENESS.
IT MEANS MERCY. THAT'S WHAT.
IT MEANS RESTRAINT.
THE KIND OF RESTRAINT NOBODY KNEW I HAD.
IF I WAS CRAZY, I WOULD HAVE "GONE CRAZY" OVER THAT.
DEFINITELY PUSHED TO THE BRINK.
AND YOU NEVER KNOW HOW STRONG YOU CAN BE
UNTIL YOU FKN HAVE TO BE.
BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I COULD HAVE CHOSEN WRATH.
RAGE BEYOND MEASURE.
"I'D BE LIVID" WAS WHAT SOMEONE SAID TO ME.
WHO WASN'T IN MY SHOES.
BECAUSE IF THEY HAD BEEN, THEY'D DONE SOMETHING.
AND I PUSHED FOR SOMETHING TO BE DONE.
BUT IT WASN'T UP TO ME TO DO IT.
I LOOKED CRAZY FOR WANTING SOMETHING TO BE DONE.
IMAGINE THAT?
WHILE WHAT? THAT PERSON IS FREE?
AND THANKFULLY SOMETHING DID HAPPEN...
NOT TO HIM, YET, BUT KARMA IS A THING.
WHAT HAPPENED WAS THE PERSON I WANTED OUT OF THERE...
GOT OUT OF THERE. IS OUT OF THERE.
AWAY FROM THERE.
LIKE AN ANSWERED PRAYER FOR ME.
TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.
IF I HAD UNLEASHED HELL....
THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON ME...
WHILE I CAN UNDERSTAND IT.
I KNOW IT.
THAT STILL WOULD HAVE BEEN ON ME FOR DOING IT.
EVEN WHEN PEOPLE COULD SAY IT WAS "JUSTIFIABLE."
BECAUSE I'D HAVE TO TAKE WHATEVER WAS COMING TO ME FOR DOING IT.
I KNOW THIS. SOME SAY IT'D EVEN BE WORTH IT.
BUT GETTING TO BE FREE IS GETTING TO BE FREE.
SO THAT IF ANYTHING CAME UP, I COULD BE THERE.
I COULDN'T FROM INSIDE OF ANYWHERE. RIGHT?
WHAT USE WOULD I BE THEN?
ANYWAY, THAT GOT TOO PERSONAL... JUST A BLURB
TO ILLUSTRATE A POINT OR A FEW.
ABOUT CHOICES.
ABOUT STRENGTH, ENDURANCE, FKERS HIDING IN BROAD DAYLIGHT.
VERY CLOSE TO HOME. TOO CLOSE.
NOT KNOWING UNTIL SOMETHING COMES UP.
THEY DON'T WEAR TAGS: "I'M XYZ."
AND THE COPS BROUGHT ONE OVER TO OTTAWA
FROM ANOTHER CITY THEY WEREN'T WANTED IN.
WHY WOULD WE WANT THEM HERE? WHY?
COULD HAVE LEFT THEM THERE, NOT BROUGHT THEM HERE.
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE THEY DONE THAT?
SURELY NOT JUST ONCE TO EVEN DO IT AT ALL.
TO ALLOW THAT SAYS SOMETHING, THOUGH.
BUT... IT SHOWS THAT THEY GOT IN HERE...
IF THEY DID A RECORDS CHECK...
THEY MIGHT HAVE SEEN THEY HAVE A WARRANT.
THEY'VE BEEN HERE FOR MONTHS...
MAYBE CLOSER TO A YEAR.
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