Mostly Disappointed

Today was a nice day.
Had lunch with my friend, and we went for a walk afterward. 

The weather's decent today, too. 

Sunny, warm.... 

We walked to Parliament Hill.
Talked a lot... 

It was nice! I had a nice time!

We have some things in common.
It's nice just to chill and have a nice time.

We ate, and then we went for a walk.
Was nice!

A lot of the area has changed a lot.

There's a visitor center underground. 

The last time I'd been there, there was a lot of construction.
But it's built now.

Lots of tourists around... 

I don't go out a whole lot these days.
It was nice to be out and have some company.

I also picked up the rocks that I found a month or so ago.
They were still where I stashed them. 

Surprisingly. 

Mostly, nothing gets left alone. Not even a bag of rocks.

But the bag was there, so I got it today.

Anyway, I have to push a bunch of past stuff aside...
Because... I have some things to do...
Things to concentrate on and focus on that need my attention. 

Progressing day by day, just like before...
When I had to get over all of it the first time. 

I guess I still had to get stuff out.
I think it's mostly out. Thanks for bearing with me.

That sh*t was disappointing because I didn't see it coming.
NOT FROM HIM.

Did I see it coming from anyone I trusted? No!
Because I trusted them!

To just be decent!

Anyway, I'm not going to get into it again.
I already got it out. It helped. 

Why hold that in?

Would it do me any good to do that?

TO PRETEND I FEEL AWESOME ABOUT ANY OF THAT?

Just a bunch of questions I keep asking myself:

1) Why does it take being embarrassed by a downgrade?
2) Why does it take karma?
3) Why does it take over a DECADE?
4) Why do people think I'll be there after being discarded?

Among other things... 

Why do people try to affect me so much?
WHY DO THEY THINK I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE?

BEING LOYAL AND CONSISTENT.....
MAKES PEOPLE THINK THAT, MAYBE... 

Anyway, yeah, I was upset about it all.
BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK HE'D DO ME LIKE THAT.

"I'LL JUST TRY TO HAVE MY CAKE AND EAT IT TOO"
"A*** WILL BE THERE, SHE WANTS ME!"

WANTED! NOT ANYMORE!

THE MOMENT SOMEONE LOOKS DIFFERENT TO ME....
FOR TURNING ON ME....

THEY DON'T GET THOSE "FEELINGS" FROM ME.

NO MATTER HOW I ONCE FELT.
OR SAW THEM... 

Mostly disappointed. Angry? Yeah, I was infuriated!
It's been insulting!

If I did that sh*t?! Really?! 

They'd feel that sh*t from me.