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The reason I'm DISAPPOINTED AF....
Is because I knew him a long time ago.

I HAD A GOOD VIEW OF HIM.
I THOUGHT HE WAS A DECENT DUDE....
AT SCHOOL, HE HAD TREATED ME DECENTLY.

When I met him....
I was in a relationship.
I DIDN'T HIDE THAT FROM HIM.

HE KNEW THAT. I WAS HONEST ABOUT THAT.

REMEMBER? I WAS PREGNANT IN HIGH SCHOOL!

YEARS.... AFTER THAT RELATIONSHIP ENDED....
I THOUGHT BACK TO PEOPLE.....
I THOUGHT TREATED ME DECENTLY.....

BECAUSE.... ALL I WANTED.....
AT THAT TIME......
WAS TO JUST......
BE TREATED......
DECENTLY.....

JUST THAT.

NOT THE FKN STARS AND MOON OR ANYTHING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!

JUST TO BE TREATED DECENTLY.

BY SOMEONE I TRUSTED.....
TO JUST TREAT ME DECENTLY.

THAT WAS WHY I REACHED OUT TO HIM.
INITIALLY.

AFTER SCHOOL.

BECAUSE I THOUGHT:
HE WAS A DECENT DUDE!

THOUGHT A FEW DUDES WERE DECENT! RIGHT?
TRUSTED! RIGHT?

LIKE WHEN MY EX AND I BROKE UP....
I THOUGHT.... ABOUT MIRROR SMASHER....

I HAD FORGOTTEN THAT HE HAD TREATED ME HORRIBLY.
HE FKN DID!

AND THEN..... HE DID AGAIN!

UNTIL I BECAME UNWILLING TO FKN DEAL WITH HIM!
BECAUSE WHY WOULD I ANYMORE?

JUST BECAUSE I THINK A DUDE IS XYZ......
DOESN'T MEAN HE ACTUALLY IS!

IF THE DUDES I THOUGHT WERE DECENT....
WERE DECENT DUDES......

THEY WOULD HAVE JUST BEEN FKN DECENT!

AND THAT'S ALL THEY HAD TO BE TO ME!

JUST THAT! RIGHT?

BUT? WHAT HAPPENED?

WHY WOULDN'T I BE DISAPPOINTED?
WOULDN'T YOU?

I'M SAD, YEAH, BUT IT'S NOT LIKE IT WAS UP TO ME!

IT WAS UP TO THEM TO CHOOSE TO JUST....
BE FKN DECENT!

RIGHT?

So..... In high school.... 
Yeah, I was curious. That's why I thought about HIM.
I WANTED TO GET TO KNOW HIM BETTER.

WANTED HIM TO JUST BE DECENT TO ME...
LIKE I THOUGHT OF HIM.... AS A DECENT GUY.

HOW WAS BEING DISCARDED FOR 12 YEARS SUPPOSED TO FEEL?
GOOD? GREAT?

AND 12 YEARS LATER YOU DON'T GAF HOW THAT FELT?
AND HOW EVERYTHING THAT LED UP TO IT FELT?
HOW FKN DISLOYAL THAT WAS?

AND YOU WANT ME TO TRUST?
AGAIN?
12 YEARS LATER?

12 years...... I was 12 years old......
When I won that CD that he "BORROWED" from me....

WHEN WE WERE 16. I WAS 16.

DRUM AND BASS.

COULDN'T EVEN GIVE MY CD BACK LOL!

BUT.... WHAT HAPPENED?
DIDN'T LISTEN.

SHOULD I BE SURPRISED? I WAS! VERY!
MAYBE THAT'S WHY IT FEELS THE WAY IT DOES!