FOMO

Someone once told me that he has FOMO.
I don't know why he told me that, but he did.

One of the most egotistical dudes I've ever met in my life!

What blew my mind.... If he realized he was going to miss out....
ON ME AND BEING IN MY LIFE....
HE COULD HAVE TREATED ME BETTER!

It's been on my mind that he knows I COULD BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

IF SOMEONE THINKS:
"SHE MIGHT BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE! 
BETTER MAKE A MOVE!"

12 YEARS LATER?
WHEN YOU HAD WHATEVER ELSE GOING ON?
WANTED TO PLAY GAMES?

"YOU'RE WRONG!" ABOUT WHAT?
ABOUT HOW TOXIC PEOPLE PLAY GAMES
AND I WASN'T DOING THAT?
AND HOW YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO TREAT ME LIKE CRAP?

PRETTY SURE I'M RIGHT ABOUT THAT.
AND SOMEONE DIDN'T LIKE IT.

WELP, DON'T HAVE TO LIKE IT!
I DIDN'T LIKE THE EMOTIONAL ABUSE!

IF I HAVE TO CALL THAT SH*T OUT.... FK YES. I WILL.
I DGAF WHO LIKES THAT OR NOT.

THE POINT IS....
THERE SHOULD BE NOTHING TO CALL OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THAT IS THE POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO I WANT TO CALL SH*T OUT????????????? NO?
NO! I DON'T FKN WANT TO! NEVER WANTED TO!

JUST DOESN'T WANT TO SEE ME WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
I'M ALLOWED TO BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE!

I'M ALLOWED TO BE IN MY OWN LANE!
I'M ALLOWED TO BE APPRECIATED....
BY SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO APPRECIATE ME!

BUT YOU DISCARD ME AND TRY TO COME BACK AROUND.....
WHILE PROBABLY STILL DEALING WITH SOMEONE ELSE....
NOT READY TO CHANGE ANYTHING... 
OR WANTING TO....

ENJOY YOUR OPTIONS! LOL!
HOPE THEY WON'T DO YOU LIKE I WOULDN'T HAVE!
FAIR!

MISERABLE WITHOUT ME? IS THAT MY PROBLEM?

THERE WAS NO "REGRET." NO CHANGE.
IT WASN'T BECAUSE HE WANTED ME TO FORGIVE HIM... 
OR WANTED TO "TALK."
BECAUSE HE HAD THAT CHANCE. 
TO SAY WHATEVER.
BUT RAN AWAY.... AGAIN.

BECAUSE THAT'S EASY TO DO.
PROJECTING AND RUNNING IS EASY.

ADMITTING TO YOUR BS ISN'T, I GUESS.

"I CAN JUST GET WHAT I WANT.... 12 YEARS LATER."
NO. YOU CAN'T.

SHIPS SAIL.

IF THEY SAILED 12 YEARS AGO..... THEY LEFT PORT!

Wanted me "back" because they were not getting something
FROM SOMEONE ELSE.
THAT THEY COULD HAVE HAD WITH ME.

"DON'T TALK TO A***, OR I WILL XYZ!" 
WHATEVER. COOL. 

GOT MAD BECAUSE HE COULDN'T PLAY WITH ME ANYMORE.
WHY WOULD I LET HIM?

ALREADY DID THAT.

"I'LL JUST BLOCK YOU AGAIN!" DO IT!
SO YOU CAN LEAVE ME TF ALONE!

SINCE YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANTED!
SINCE YOU WOULDN'T JUST LET ME MOVE ON!

BEING LEFT TF ALONE LOOKS A LOT LIKE "PEACE."

YOU KNOW? LIKE HOW I LEFT HIM ALONE?
LIKE HE WANTED?
AND I GAVE HIM THAT?

WANTED MY ATTENTION? FOR WHAT?
BECAUSE YOU'RE GOING THROUGH IT?
DOES THAT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME? NO?

Someone said:
It's not because he regrets it.
His phone is dry.
CLEAR SIGN he's not worth your time.

"I'M GETTING FKD AROUND? I'LL TRY A*** AGAIN..."
ON FKN ROTATION OR SOME SH*T... 

LIKE I WAS GOING TO UNSEE THAT SH*T.
NOPE. DIDN'T UNSEE IT.

I DGAF IF HE EVER REALIZES ANYTHING ABOUT ME.
OR ABOUT WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN.

IT DOES NOTHING FOR ME NOW.
IT WOULD HAVE MEANT SOMETHING 12 YEARS AGO.

BUT NOW?

REALLY SO ARROGANT TO THINK I WOULDN'T BE DONE?
THAT I WOULD CHASE YOU?

WOW.

DIDN'T LIKE ME TELLING THE TRUTH!

THEN FKN GET OVER YOURSELF!

WHY WOULD I WANT YOU AFTER THAT BS?
WHY WOULD I BE BEGGING YOU TO COME BACK?
WHY WOULD I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING HONEST?
ISN'T HONESTY WHAT YOU WANTED?
YOU JUST DON'T LIKE IT WHEN IT'S TOO HONEST?

WELP, I'M NOT GOING TO SUGAR-COAT IT WITH BS!

YOU CAN CHOKE ON THE TRUTH FOR ALL I CARE!
IF YOU'RE THE ONE PUSHING ME TO TELL IT!

SHOULD I BE GENTLE WITH THE TRUTH?
SO I DON'T HURT YOUR FEELINGS?
LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS?
DID YOU CARE ABOUT MINE? NO?

WELP? WHAT DID YOU WANT?
CANDY CHANCES?
SPINKLES OF BS?
FORGIVENESS FROSTING?

WELL... FORGIVENESS REQUIRES A REAL APOLOGY.
NOT HALF OF ONE.
OR A QUARTER OF ONE.
OR A FAKE ONE TO TRY TO GET SOMETHING FROM ME...

LIKE ACCESS TO ME THAT YOU WANTED...
FOR SOME REASON....
THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE ENTITLED TO...
THAT YOU DIDN'T APPRECIATE OR VALUE... 

AND WHEN I DIDN'T TRUST HIM ENOUGH TO GIVE THAT TO HIM....
HOW DID HE ACT!

MAYBE THERE ARE REASONS I DON'T TRUST THE GUY ANYMORE!
PROBABLY BECAUSE I ALREADY TRUSTED HIM!

RIGHT?

IF I COULD HAVE TRUSTED HIM....
HE WOULD HAVE GIVEN ME REASONS TO.
HE WOULD HAVE TREATED OUR CONNECTION
AS SOMETHING FKN SACRED. 
AND GREW WITH ME.

THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN HARMONIOUS... 
WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ANY REASON NOT TO!
RIGHT?

SHOULD I HAVE LIED?
AND SAID I TRUSTED HIM WHEN I DIDN'T?

AND TO GET MAD AT ME FOR NOT TRUSTING YOU.... 
AND TO PROJECT ON ME AND DISCARD ME AGAIN....
FOR NOT TRUSTING YOU... 

WHAT DOES THAT SAY?
THAT I SHOULD TRUST YOU? NO.

But.... Why come back around out of FOMO?

"A*** MIGHT GET MARRIED ONE DAY!
THEN I WON'T STAND A CHANCE!"

WELP, YOU HAD CHANCES AND WASTED THEM!
RIGHT?

WASTED YOUR CHANCES AND GOT MAD AT ME FOR IT!

SOUNDS LIKE SOMEONE I'D LOVE TO RECONNECT WITH! RIGHT?

WOULD YOU?