What I really REALLY want

What I really need is decent sleep. 
But what I want is... Consideration. 

My brother was up all night Sunday night, 
and he slept like all morning. 

I had a group meeting on Monday that I missed. 
One, I forgot about it. 

HAVING PEOPLE CONSTANTLY AROUND ME, 
IN MY SPACE ALL THE TIME, 
IT'S A DISTRACTION. 
MAKES IT HARDER TO THINK. 

So I was here, waiting for my brother to get up, 
he got up at like 2pm. 

If I had remembered about the meeting, 
I would have had to leave here at like 10:30. 
It takes me a while to get to the other side of town
for 1pm... 

It takes like an hour and a half. 
LONGER WHEN THE BUS DOESN'T SHOW UP!

BEEN IN A LOT OF PAIN, so when I do lay down, 
it's just laying there, in pain... 

THINKING, AND REMEMBERING
THINGS I FORGOT ABOUT
WHEN I'M TRYING TO SLEEP
AND WAKING UP TO REMEMBERING THINGS.

AND BEING P*SSED OFF THAT I FORGOT
AND WHY I FORGOT. 

NOT GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP.
HAVING SOMEONE IN MY SPACE 24/7... 

But could he have not slept until 2pm
IN CASE I HAD ANYTHING TO F*CKING DO?
LIKE IF I AM WAITING FOR HIM TO GET UP, 
AND HE KNOWS THIS, 

WHY SLEEP AS LATE AS POSSIBLE?
JUST TO KEEP ME WAITING FOR YOU?

I AM NOT A F*CKING HOTEL!
THIS ISN'T A VACATION, DUDE.

HAVE A "BREAK" AND FO.
AND IF YOU'VE BEEN SOMEWHERE A WEEK, 
ISN'T THAT LONG ENOUGH FOR YOU?

HOW LONG DO YOU EXPECT ME TO PUT MY LIFE ON HOLD?
FOR YOU?

WEEKS?
JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT A BREAK?
FROM BEING SOMEWHERE YOU DON'T WANT TO BE?

AND GUESS WHAT?
MY FOLKS HAVE A BREAK TOO!

NOW IT IS MY TURN!

What bugs me is BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF.
IF I HAD NO PLACE, HE WOULDN'T BE UP MY @SS.
HE'S ONLY UP MY @SS
BECAUSE I HAVE MY OWN PLACE.
AND I'M TOO FKN NICE. 

OTHERWISE, WOULD I HEAR FROM HIM?

IF HE WANTED TO BE OVER THERE, 
HE WOULD BE!

Anyway, as THE OLDEST SIBLING, 
EVERYONE FKN COUNTS ON ME. 

THE CURSE OF THE OLDEST SIBLING. 

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For some reason I started seeing Carney's posts on my feed. 
For the most part, I've tried to ignore them... 
AND HAVE HAD TO REMIND MYSELF
THAT REACTION, 
EVEN IF I HAVE SOLID POINTS TO MAKE... 
CAN COME AROUND AND BITE ME IN THE @SS. 
SOMEHOW. 

It just really f*cking bugs me that all they seem to want to talk about
ARE OUR NEW DEALS WITH CHINA, 
AFTER CALLING CHINA CANADA'S BIGGEST THREAT
JUST LAST YEAR FFS.

YOU THINK THEY STOPPED BEING A THREAT?
YOU THINK THEY COULD NOT TURN ON US?

YOU THINK THEY DON'T HAVE WEAPONS?

They have a thing that doesn't need explosives to fire. 
It requires energy, electricity. 
It can fire at Mach 7. 

Mach 7 is... Fast.
So fast that it's the speeds of some supersonic jets.

It's not just about oil and electric cars... 

BUT WHAT BOTHERS ME
ARE THE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T AFFORD
THE FKN ELECTRIC CARS AREN'T BEING THOUGHT OF. 

THE PEOPLE WHO ARE CHOOSING HEATING OVER EATING... 

DO THEY GAF ABOUT ELECTRIC CARS?

There are around 85,000 homeless people in Ontario.
People freezing to death and dying in tent fires...