It's Going Somewhere

So my neighbor's YouTube stuff is getting somewhere.
He even got a couple of new subscribers tonight. 

We made 4 short video and a long video. 
Long as in under 10 minutes, but too long to be a "short."

The one we made 4 days ago is rising, too. 

We're making a bunch of teasers for his video course. 
We're going to sell his e-book and audiobook
to get some money for equipment for his video course. 

So that's exciting! I'm happy for him. 
He's starting to enjoy it. 

And if he can make some money with it, even better. 

That's what I'm trying to aim for.
To set something up for him so that he can have that. 
He's in his 60s and harder for him to get a job now. 

Trying to apply online for work is a fkn nightmare. 

If I can set something up for him, he would share with me. 
That's not what it's about, but he would. 

But I think it would be awesome to have something set up
that starts paying out... 

I'm learning while setting it up. 

And then I can use some of the code on my site for my stuff, too. 

I don't know if I wrote about it, but I'm setting up a template library, too. 

The plan is to sell the code I'm building. 

I think I mentioned before what kind of code I already have. 
It's going pretty well. 

And he got 2 subscribers tonight, too. 

The last two nights I've had a lot of anxiety, 
maybe part of why I've been writing more. 

Maybe trying to get some stuff off my mind. 

 It's not like I can talk about the things that bother me, to anyone. 
Or with anyone. May as well write about it and try to get it out. 

Every time I try to trust someone 
I should have been able to trust and respect... 
AND THEY TURN AROUND AND ARE A POS, 
IT'S HARD TO TRUST MYSELF
WITH WHO TO TRUST. 

Does that make any sense?

At this point I do not expect any commitment, 
BUT I WON'T BE PUT ON "STANDBY."

UNTIL I'M "NEEDED." FK THAT.

Beat my high score on Tetris twice this week... 
Sometimes I get bad anxiety and play a bunch of it. 
With something playing in the background, a documentary
to listen to while I'm playing Tetris....

I've found some new tools to use and test out. 
Kind of excited about it. 

Really tired. 
My brother's coming by to bring his stuff here. 
He came by to help me clear out a space for his stuff. 
He's going to keep it here for the time being.