Tried & Failed

The part that bugs me is that he wanted me to feel "worthless"
or whatever bs insecure sh*t he feels. 

Wanting that, and doing that because he wanted that... 
THAT'S NOT SOMETHING I STAND FOR. 

I TOOK TOO MUCH SH*T ALREADY
THAT I SHOULDN'T HAVE FKN HAD TO. 
SO WHY WOULD I TAKE ANY MORE?
DO I HAVE TO? NO? SO WHY WOULD I?

It could have "gone somewhere."
Because... It was "supposed to."
THAT WAS MY ONLY FKN INTENT. 
TO MAKE PROGRESS, 
AND HELP HIM MAKE PROGRESS... 

BUT HE HAS TO CHOOSE TO. 
IF HE'S NOT, HE'S NOT. 
HE CAN PROGRESS IN BURNING HIS WHOLE LIFE
TO THE GROUND. 

NOT MY JOB TO PREVENT THAT. 
OR EVEN TRY TO. 

The point is, the chance for it to have gone
WHERE IT COULD HAVE GONE... 

WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIME.

THAT'S THE TRUTH HE AVOIDED. 
AT ALL COSTS.

AND HE ALLOWED IT TO CONTINUE. 
WHEN HE NEVER HAD TO LET IT FKN START.

HE COULD HAVE JUST CHOSEN
TO NOT FKN DO XYZ.

TO JUST NOT. That's pretty much it. 

To even do that once, and then again, and again?
SHOWING ME THERE WAS NO INTENT
TO FKN JUST NOT?

HE ALLOWED OTHERS TO 'INTERFERE' TOO. 
AND THAT WAS A CHOICE, TOO. 

I COULD HAVE DONE THAT, TOO. 
WHEN OTHERS WERE JEALOUS
OF THE FACT I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM... 

AND WERE TELLING ME TO JUST DROP HIM ETC. 

I COULD HAVE. 

I COULD HAVE DONE HIM THE EXACT WAY HE DID ME. 
DID I?

AND I WOULD BE THE B*TCH IF I DID.

BUT YET THE PEOPLE WHO I TOLD HIM
WOULD DO HIM OVER... 
JUST LIKE THEY ALREADY HAVE.... BEFORE... 

HE WANTED TO TRUST THEM OVER ME. 
WHO NEVER WOULD HAVE... 

BUT CANNOT COME CRYING BACK TO ME
"YOU WERE RIGHT, SHOULD HAVE LISTENED..."
YOU ALREADY TURNED YOUR BACK!
WHICH CAUSED ME TO TURN MINE!

IF YOU HADN'T, WOULD I HAVE? WOULD I?

THE TRUTH YOU REFUSE TO SEE OR ACKNOWLEDGE
IS STILL THE TRUTH!

But how long am I supposed to be/stay there
TELLING YOU OVER AND OVER
AND NOT ACKNOWLEDGING SH*T TO ME OR YOURSELF?

WHY WASTE MY TIME ON THAT?
JUST TO SAY I WAS THERE WHEN NOBODY ELSE WAS?

BUT WHAT HAPPENED?
TRIED TO BREAK ME!

YOU CAN'T BREAK SOMEONE WHO REFUSES
TO BE BROKEN BY SOMEONE
WHO INTENTIONALLY TRIES TO DO THAT SH*T. 

ALL THAT SH*T DOES IS P*SS ME OFF
AND CAUSES ME TO LOSE RESPECT FOR YOU. 

ME LOSING RESPECT FOR YOU... 
IS WORSE THAN ME JUST BEING P*SSED AT YOU. 

AND BEING EXPECTED TO JUST "GET OVER IT"
WHEN I SHOULDN'T BE
BEING PUT THROUGH THAT SH*T
IN THE FIRST PLACE... 

NO! FK YOU FOR JUST EXPECTING THAT FROM ME!
GET OVER YOURSELF FOR THINKING
THAT I FKN SHOULD. 

YES I CAN GET OVER IT. 
BUT I DON'T HAVE TO
AND NEVER HAD TO
STAND FOR THAT SH*T. 
SO I DON'T.