To Your Face

When someone SAYS TO YOU, TO YOUR FACE
THEY WON'T DO XYZ, ANYMORE... 
AND CONTINUE TO DO IT...

You do not owe them another chance. 

You don't have to trust them, again. 
After trusting them the FIRST TIME, 
NOT TO DO XYZ.

When someone's too prideful and arrogant
and IGNORANT
TO ACKNOWLEDGE SOMETHING... 

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BOTHER WITH THEM. 

I don't either. No matter who doesn't "like it."
AM I ALIVE FOR ANYONE TO "LIKE IT"?

IT'S NOT THAT I LET HIM GO AT HIS WORST. 
HE LET ME GO SO I LET HIM.
IF HIS LIFE GOT WORSE AFTER THAT, 
HOW IS THAT MY PROBLEM?

He tried to break ME. Not just my heart. 
I AM NOT COOL WITH THAT.
THAT'S NOT COOL TO ME.

It's way more than "bleeding on someone
who never cut you..."

I can handle that sh*t. 

It went way beyond that. 

AND I THOUGHT IT WOULD STOP. 

BECAUSE IT SHOULD HAVE. 
IT SHOULDN'T HAVE STARTED. 

WAS NO REASON FOR IT. 

Of course things got harder for him. 
WITHOUT ME MAKING THINGS EASIER. 

MADE IT TOO EASY. 
WAS MY MISTAKE. 

When someone's making things EASY for you, 
DO NOT MAKE SH*T HARD FOR THEM. 

HARD TO TALK TO YOU. 
HARD TO GET THROUGH TO YOU. 
HARD TO JUST COMMUNICATE. 
OR BE ON THE SAME PAGE... 

WHY DO THAT?

Why push someone to their limit?
TO SEE HOW MUCH THEY'LL TAKE?
TO SEE IF THEY'LL "BREAK"?
TO SEE IF THEY WERE FOR REAL?

AND WHEN YOU REALIZE THEY WERE REAL... 
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE DONE THAT?
TO THE POINT THEY DO NOT WANT 
TO HAVE ANY MORE TO DO WITH YOU?

AND THAT IS THEIR CHOICE
SO YOU CAN'T ACT LIKE A SH*T ABOUT IT.

IT'D BE LIKE ME TRYING TO ACT LIKE A SH*T
TO ANYONE WHO WALKED AWAY FROM ME... 
JUST FOR WALKING AWAY FROM ME... 
For having their reasons for doing it, or would they have?!

Would I have walked away?

I won't get a FULL, REAL, HONEST apology. 

BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO "REFLECT"
ON HIS BS. 

HE WANTED ME TO GET "USED TO" HIS BS.
WANTED ME TO THINK THE ISSUE
WAS MY REACTION TO HOW I WAS BEING TREATED. 

I DON'T ACCEPT THAT. 

ACCEPTING THAT SH*T ISN'T "LOVE."
"LOVE" IS SUPPOSED TO BE SHOWN. 
THAT'S NOT "LOVE."

SHOWN BY NOT BEING LIKE THAT. 

Felt "immasculated" by what? The truth?

SORRY THE TRUTH FEELS "IMMASCULATING."
BUT HOW DOES THAT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME?

I'M THE ONE TELLING IT, 
SO I'M THE ONE "IMASCULATING" HIM?

NOT THE TRUTH? OF WHAT HE DID?
DOESN'T WANT TO ADMIT HE'S BEEN WRONG?

The times I let him back into my life, it was games and bs. 
I'd be letting myself down by letting him let me down, again. 

Wants me to be "blind" to everything he was doing, 
LITERALLY IN MY FACE... 

It comes down to not being on the same level. 

IF WE WERE ON THE SAME LEVEL, 
IT WOULDN'T HAVE GONE LIKE THAT.

IT WOULD HAVE BEEN SIMPLE, 
AND EASY FOR ME, TOO. 

WITHOUT ANYONE MAKING ANYTHING FKN HARD
FOR ME
JUST TO FKN DO IT. 

I'm not waiting for an apology, this time. 

I DON'T NEED ANY FAKE APOLOGIES. 
I DON'T NEED ANY BS. 

I DON'T NEED TO TAKE ANY MORE RISKS. 
ON THE SAME PEOPLE, 
FOR THE SAME SH*T.