It Gets Old

Trying to "break" someone comes at a cost. 
The cost is being SEEN AS SOMEONE WHO DOES THAT SH*T.

I'VE HAD PEOPLE WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO BE
IN MY LIFE DOING THAT SH*T. FAMILY DOING IT. 

IT BUGS ME THAT PEOPLE ARE SO DAMN MISERABLE
THEY WANTED TO TRY TO MAKE ME MISERABLE. 

They don't realize ALL THE SH*T I OVERCAME, THOUGH. 
OVERCOMING SH*T IS WHAT I DO.
I GOT GOOD AT IT. 

SO HOW WOULD I NOT OVERCOME THIS, TOO?

Being underestimated gets fkn old. 

Like I said, people who try to do that sh*t...
IF I DID THAT SH*T TO THEM... 

PEOPLE WHO TRY TO BREAK PEOPLE
WOULD BREAK FKN EASILY. 

BUT PEOPLE WHO OVERCOME SH*T GET HATED. 
BECAUSE A LOT OF SH*T I OVERCAME, 
A LOT OF PEOPLE MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO. 

Tried to "strip" me of my "strength" and "dignity."

WHEN YOU KNOW HOW TO SUPPORT YOURSELF
THE "SUPPORT" YOU COULD HAVE GOTTEN
FROM PEOPLE WHO REFUSED TO... 

DOESN'T HIT LIKE IT MIGHT HAVE
IF IT MATTERED MORE
THAN THE SUPPORT YOU CAN GIVE YOURSELF. 
EMOTIONALLY, MENTALLY... 

IT DOESN'T MATTER AS MUCH TO ME
AS THEY THOUGHT IT MATTERED TO ME
AND THAT'S WHY IT NEVER AFFECTED ME
THE WAY THEY WANTED IT TO. 

It would affect THEM though, 
THE WAY THEY WANTED IT TO AFFECT ME. 

I KNOW THIS. 
AND I DGAF IF THEY KNOW I KNOW THIS OR NOT.

BUT EVEN KNOWING THIS... 

NOTICE HOW I NEVER WENT THAT FAR?
I NEVER DID THAT SH*T TO THEM?

BECAUSE WHAT?
BECAUSE I NEVER NEEDED TO?
NEVER WANTED TO?
HAD NO REASON TO?

And then imagine going that far.... 

AND BLAMING THE PERSON YOU DID THAT SH*T TO?

NOPE. THAT SH*T WAS THEIR CHOICE.

LIKE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN MY CHOICE, 
HAD I DONE THAT BS TO THEM, RIGHT?

But what happens when you pull your energy all the way back?
SO FAR BACK THEY CANNOT "AFFECT" YOU.

NO POINT IN TRYING TO "CLEAR" MY NAME. 
OR TRYING TO "DEFEND" MYSELF, MY CHARACTER... 
JUST NO POINT.

WHO AM I DEFENDING MYSELF TO?
TO PEOPLE WHO FKN WANTED ME TO!!!!!

BECAUSE IT'S SOMEHOW SATISFYING
TO WATCH ME TRY TO!

SO WHY GIVE THEM FKN ANYTHING?

But what happens when they realize
THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABOVE IT, 
AND COULD HAVE HAD MY BACK
LIKE I COULD HAVE HAD THEIRS.... 

THEY HAD THE CHANCE TO FK OFF WITH THAT SH*T.
TO NOT EVEN TRY. 

BUT BEING ME, THEY WANTED TO TRY TO
"MAKE ME LOOK BAD"
TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES. 

IF YOU CAN'T JUST NOT TRY TO BREAK SOMEONE, 
IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO SEE SOMEONE "HURT..."
WHY WOULD THEY WANT TO BE AROUND YOU?

AND AT THIS AGE, WHY WOULD THEY BE LIKE THAT?
THAT'S TEEN SH*T.

AT THIS AGE, YOU DON'T EXPECT THAT SH*T. 
BUT SOME PEOPLE NEVER CHANGE
BECAUSE THEY DON'T WANT TO. 

IT WOULD HAVE TO TAKE
FOR THAT TO BLOW TF UP IN THEIR FACES
FOR THEM TO RECONSIDER BEING LIKE THAT. 

AND I'M NOT WAITING FOR MY "JUSTICE."
MY "JUSTICE" IS NOT DEALING WITH THAT SH*T.
AND MOVING FORWARD WITHOUT ANYONE. 

BECAUSE FK ALL OF THEM.