TO MAKE ANYTHING UP TO ME ETC.
There should not be anything
to "make up to me."
I even gave him the chance to do that
and he acts the way he always acts.
I gave him the chance NOT TO ACT LIKE THAT.
Towards me, period.
He could have just done what I had asked.
The first time that I asked.
AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO ASK
HIM TO GET HIS THINGS OUT OF MY HOUSE!
You'd think he'd want to TAKE RESPONSIBILITY
FOR HIS OWN THINGS.
BECAUSE THEY ARE HIS THINGS.
But he expected ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE
FOR HIS STUFF.
AND TRIED TO GASLIGHT ME
ABOUT WEARING A HOODIE OF HIS
THE NIGHT I KICKED HIM OUT.
WHICH I WASN'T.
But he's trying to gaslight me about that.
BECAUSE THAT'S AN "IMPORTANT DETAIL."
I MUST HAVE TAKEN IT
BECAUSE I WAS "WEARING IT." FFS.
Every time I BRING UP ANYTHING
HE ACTS THE SAME DAMN IMMATURE BS WAY.
INSTEAD OF WHAT?
TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT?
LIKE AN ADULT?
He has a pile of stuff, it's there.
I'd rather not have to throw it out.
BUT OBVIOUSLY
YOU'D BE P*SSED AT BEING FALSELY ACCUSED
INSULTED, TOO MANY TIMES
NOTHING LEFT TO SAY BETWEEN US.
Sorry won't earn any reconciliation.
He had TOO MANY TIMES
TO BE "SORRY."
AND WHAT? GROW TF UP!
But STILL LITERALLY REFUSES TO.
Can't force someone to grow up.
BUT YOU DON'T
HAVE TO
DEAL WITH THEM ANYMORE!
Sure, wish them well etc...
But you don't have to be
IN ANYONE'S LIFE.
ESPECIALLY ANYONE
WHO DOESN'T VALUE YOU ENOUGH
TO GROW TF UP.
I don't want anything more to do with the guy.
For what? That sh*t?
I want to "try to talk to him" for that sh*t?
Just trying to give back to him
WHAT HE GAVE TO ME
HE HAS TO ACT LIKE A TW@T ABOUT IT.
Just take your stuff, dude.
Don't say ANYTHING OTHER THAN:
"I'M COMING TO GET IT X DAY."
"AT X TIME."
Anything other than that,
GFY!
Screwed his chance at making anything right with me
to be in my life, at all, anymore
due to how he acts and keeps acting.
Unfortunate, considering... A lot.
Disappointing, yeah.
But he's the one choosing to act like that.
Instead of having an actual conversation.
AND ANY ATTEMPTS
TO JUST F*CKING TALK
LIKE WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO
HAVE DONE THE WHOLE TIME...
BUT DUE TO MANY OTHER REASONS
AND HIS SH*T ATTITUDE...
MAKES TALKING IMPOSSIBLE.
WHY DOES THAT ONE BASIC THING
BE SUCH A HASSLE ALL THE TIME?
Would you want to be with anyone
who makes it a f*cking hassle just to talk to them?
No? Probably not your idea of a normal
cohesive, mature, "relationship."
Platonic or otherwise.
Therefore, I've come to the conclusion.
HE'S JUST NOT READY
TO BE A SOLID PERSON.
And that's not MY FAULT.
AND I WON'T BE GASLIT
INTO THINKING THAT IT IS MY FAULT.
Into thinking that it's MY FAULT
THAT I'M NOT WILLING
TO BE SPOKEN TO THAT WAY,
TO BE TREATED THAT WAY,
TO PUT UP WITH ANY BS.
Because IT SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN
A FKN HASSLE TO TALK, PERIOD.
Yet it was, and why was that?
BECAUSE IT WAS ME REFUSING TO?
WELL, NOW, YEAH. I AM.
BECAUSE THERE ISN'T ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT!!!
All the conversations he refused to have?
COULD HAVE HAD THEM.
TOO LATE TO HAVE THEM, NOW.
Because WHEN I WANTED TO,
WHEN I BROUGHT THINGS UP...
THAT'S WHAT I GOT, EVERY TIME.
A FKN HASSLE ABOUT IT.
No more hassles about talking, dude!
And WHEN I MOVE ON,
HE STARTS FEELING BAD...
SAYS: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
AS THOUGH I'M SOMEONE WHO MATTERS TO HIM?
Did I matter when it was a hassle to talk about anything?
NO? OR IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN
A FKN HASSLE
ALL THE DAMN TIME.
But no, don't try swinging around in my direction
AS THOUGH NOTHING FKN HAPPENED
WHEN WE BOTH KNOW IT DID.
AND A REASON I KICKED YOU OUT.
A REASON I STOPPED TALKING TO YOU.
But are you telling anyone what that reason is?
OR ARE YOU PRETENDING
TO BE THE CARING DUDE
ANYONE CAN TALK TO?
THAT IT WAS NEVER A HASSLE TO FKN
TALK ABOUT ANYTHING?
AND EXPECTED ME TO LIVE LIKE THAT FFS.
What was it that I wanted? Really?
1) TO BE ABLE TO TALK,
UNINTERRUPTED
WITHOUT PEOPLE
WHO SHOULDN'T BE
IN MY BUSINESS, TRYING TO BE IN IT.
2) TO BE SPOKEN TO WITHOUT ANY INSULTS.
Basic respect right there, y'know?
Just to be fair to me
BECAUSE I DON'T DO THAT SH*T.
SO WHY DO THAT SH*T TO ME?
Just basic respect and maturity 101.
JUST THAT.
IS THAT TOO MUCH TO WANT?
I really don't think it's too much to want.
SO WHY DO I GET TREATED LIKE
He could have just done what I had asked.
The first time that I asked.
AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO ASK
HIM TO GET HIS THINGS OUT OF MY HOUSE!
You'd think he'd want to TAKE RESPONSIBILITY
FOR HIS OWN THINGS.
BECAUSE THEY ARE HIS THINGS.
But he expected ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE
FOR HIS STUFF.
AND TRIED TO GASLIGHT ME
ABOUT WEARING A HOODIE OF HIS
THE NIGHT I KICKED HIM OUT.
WHICH I WASN'T.
But he's trying to gaslight me about that.
BECAUSE THAT'S AN "IMPORTANT DETAIL."
I MUST HAVE TAKEN IT
BECAUSE I WAS "WEARING IT." FFS.
Every time I BRING UP ANYTHING
HE ACTS THE SAME DAMN IMMATURE BS WAY.
INSTEAD OF WHAT?
TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT?
LIKE AN ADULT?
He has a pile of stuff, it's there.
I'd rather not have to throw it out.
BUT OBVIOUSLY
YOU'D BE P*SSED AT BEING FALSELY ACCUSED
INSULTED, TOO MANY TIMES
NOTHING LEFT TO SAY BETWEEN US.
Sorry won't earn any reconciliation.
He had TOO MANY TIMES
TO BE "SORRY."
AND WHAT? GROW TF UP!
But STILL LITERALLY REFUSES TO.
Can't force someone to grow up.
BUT YOU DON'T
HAVE TO
DEAL WITH THEM ANYMORE!
Sure, wish them well etc...
But you don't have to be
IN ANYONE'S LIFE.
ESPECIALLY ANYONE
WHO DOESN'T VALUE YOU ENOUGH
TO GROW TF UP.
I don't want anything more to do with the guy.
For what? That sh*t?
I want to "try to talk to him" for that sh*t?
Just trying to give back to him
WHAT HE GAVE TO ME
HE HAS TO ACT LIKE A TW@T ABOUT IT.
Just take your stuff, dude.
Don't say ANYTHING OTHER THAN:
"I'M COMING TO GET IT X DAY."
"AT X TIME."
Anything other than that,
GFY!
Screwed his chance at making anything right with me
to be in my life, at all, anymore
due to how he acts and keeps acting.
Unfortunate, considering... A lot.
Disappointing, yeah.
But he's the one choosing to act like that.
Instead of having an actual conversation.
AND ANY ATTEMPTS
TO JUST F*CKING TALK
LIKE WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO
HAVE DONE THE WHOLE TIME...
BUT DUE TO MANY OTHER REASONS
AND HIS SH*T ATTITUDE...
MAKES TALKING IMPOSSIBLE.
WHY DOES THAT ONE BASIC THING
BE SUCH A HASSLE ALL THE TIME?
Would you want to be with anyone
who makes it a f*cking hassle just to talk to them?
No? Probably not your idea of a normal
cohesive, mature, "relationship."
Platonic or otherwise.
Therefore, I've come to the conclusion.
HE'S JUST NOT READY
TO BE A SOLID PERSON.
And that's not MY FAULT.
AND I WON'T BE GASLIT
INTO THINKING THAT IT IS MY FAULT.
Into thinking that it's MY FAULT
THAT I'M NOT WILLING
TO BE SPOKEN TO THAT WAY,
TO BE TREATED THAT WAY,
TO PUT UP WITH ANY BS.
Because IT SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN
A FKN HASSLE TO TALK, PERIOD.
Yet it was, and why was that?
BECAUSE IT WAS ME REFUSING TO?
WELL, NOW, YEAH. I AM.
BECAUSE THERE ISN'T ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT!!!
All the conversations he refused to have?
COULD HAVE HAD THEM.
TOO LATE TO HAVE THEM, NOW.
Because WHEN I WANTED TO,
WHEN I BROUGHT THINGS UP...
THAT'S WHAT I GOT, EVERY TIME.
A FKN HASSLE ABOUT IT.
No more hassles about talking, dude!
And WHEN I MOVE ON,
HE STARTS FEELING BAD...
SAYS: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
AS THOUGH I'M SOMEONE WHO MATTERS TO HIM?
Did I matter when it was a hassle to talk about anything?
NO? OR IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN
A FKN HASSLE
ALL THE DAMN TIME.
But no, don't try swinging around in my direction
AS THOUGH NOTHING FKN HAPPENED
WHEN WE BOTH KNOW IT DID.
AND A REASON I KICKED YOU OUT.
A REASON I STOPPED TALKING TO YOU.
But are you telling anyone what that reason is?
OR ARE YOU PRETENDING
TO BE THE CARING DUDE
ANYONE CAN TALK TO?
THAT IT WAS NEVER A HASSLE TO FKN
TALK ABOUT ANYTHING?
AND EXPECTED ME TO LIVE LIKE THAT FFS.
What was it that I wanted? Really?
1) TO BE ABLE TO TALK,
UNINTERRUPTED
WITHOUT PEOPLE
WHO SHOULDN'T BE
IN MY BUSINESS, TRYING TO BE IN IT.
2) TO BE SPOKEN TO WITHOUT ANY INSULTS.
Basic respect right there, y'know?
Just to be fair to me
BECAUSE I DON'T DO THAT SH*T.
SO WHY DO THAT SH*T TO ME?
Just basic respect and maturity 101.
JUST THAT.
IS THAT TOO MUCH TO WANT?
I really don't think it's too much to want.
SO WHY DO I GET TREATED LIKE
THAT WAS EVER TOO DAMN MUCH TO FKN WANT?
You push someone away too far and too long
THEY DO NOT WANT TO COME BACK
OR BE BACK IN YOUR LIFE,
PERIOD.
I've reached that point with people.
I do not want to be back in their life.
BECAUSE EACH TIME THAT I WAS,
THEY TREATED ME
THE EXACT WAY
THEY WOULDN'T WANT TO BE TREATED.
NOT ONCE, NOT TWICE.
But they'll miss MY EFFORT.
THE TIMES I KEPT TRYING
FOR MORE BS, I GUESS,
BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I GOT FOR ANYTHING.
ALL THE TIME AND EFFORT ETC
THAT I PUT IN...
I GOT THAT.
Does that make me WANT TO PUT THE TIME
AND EFFORT IN, ANYMORE?
TO HAVE IT WASTED?
For people WHO NEVER APPRECIATED ME?
Because if they DID APPRECIATE ME,
WOULD THEY HAVE TREATED ME - EVER
THE WAY THEY TREATED ME?
Nope!
Appreciate people who ARE MAKING AN EFFORT
TO BE IN YOUR LIFE
OR THEY WON'T WANT TO BE IN IT ANYMORE!!!!
Because they would know
that I have a RIGHT NOT TO WANT TO BE
IN ANYONE'S LIFE, PERIOD.
BEING IN ANYONE'S LIFE IS MY CHOICE.
Walking away is a choice, too.
AND IF YOU PUSH ME TO DO THAT,
YOU PUSH ME TO DO THAT.
AND HE PUSHED ME TO DO THAT.
All he had to do WAS NOT DO THAT.
That shouldn't be hard to understand.
You push someone away too far and too long
THEY DO NOT WANT TO COME BACK
OR BE BACK IN YOUR LIFE,
PERIOD.
I've reached that point with people.
I do not want to be back in their life.
BECAUSE EACH TIME THAT I WAS,
THEY TREATED ME
THE EXACT WAY
THEY WOULDN'T WANT TO BE TREATED.
NOT ONCE, NOT TWICE.
But they'll miss MY EFFORT.
THE TIMES I KEPT TRYING
FOR MORE BS, I GUESS,
BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I GOT FOR ANYTHING.
ALL THE TIME AND EFFORT ETC
THAT I PUT IN...
I GOT THAT.
Does that make me WANT TO PUT THE TIME
AND EFFORT IN, ANYMORE?
TO HAVE IT WASTED?
For people WHO NEVER APPRECIATED ME?
Because if they DID APPRECIATE ME,
WOULD THEY HAVE TREATED ME - EVER
THE WAY THEY TREATED ME?
Nope!
Appreciate people who ARE MAKING AN EFFORT
TO BE IN YOUR LIFE
OR THEY WON'T WANT TO BE IN IT ANYMORE!!!!
Because they would know
that I have a RIGHT NOT TO WANT TO BE
IN ANYONE'S LIFE, PERIOD.
BEING IN ANYONE'S LIFE IS MY CHOICE.
Walking away is a choice, too.
AND IF YOU PUSH ME TO DO THAT,
YOU PUSH ME TO DO THAT.
AND HE PUSHED ME TO DO THAT.
All he had to do WAS NOT DO THAT.
That shouldn't be hard to understand.
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