It's Crazy

I don't know why, but on the 22nd, 
I got over 300 views.
Usually, it's around 40 - 60.

And that is way more than I started with.

Sometimes it's something I wrote, I dunno...

I got a reply to a comment I made on a video...
"That's very well put."
I can't remember wtf I wrote.
Let alone what could have been "well put."

I tried to find my comment on the video, 
but there were close to 2k comments...
Scrolling through them just to find mine...
JUST TO SEE WTF I EVEN WROTE...
I GAVE UP LOL. 

It's going to be really hard to pare down my books...
Maybe I'll just make a list of the ones I have, now.
Just to have a record of the ones I've kept...

Because if they have copies at the library...
Then I could just borrow those copies.
And not have to bring them with me.

As it is, I have a wool-valanche to bring with me...
My brother's going to be like "Wtf!"

And he can bring some home with him
for his soon-to-be step-daughter.
Something for her to fart around with.
Kept me out of trouble, for the most part.
And it actually feels good to finish something
And even better if you can make some money with it...

I was around her age when I learned how to knit.
Was 12 when I learned how to crochet...
Back before we had Youtube
so I had to try to make sense out of photos
or diagrams in a book...

TALK ABOUT FREAKING FRUSTRATING, THOUGH.
TRYING TO TEACH YOURSELF FROM A BOOK...

I found one of the books I'd been looking for
that I could swear that I had somewhere.
I found it today...

So ALL the books that I have...
I have to pare it down...
I really want to keep them all, 
BUT, I can't take everything with me.

I'd only like to make a couple of trips at the most.
Furniture first because it's heavy...
Then the wool-valanche, because it's lightest...
Mostly air between the wool LOL.

Then, if I can have only 2 boxes of books, at the most...

The kitchen stuff needs to be sorted...
I have to pare down a lot of that stuff, too.

Because I don't need all of it.

I'll have more counter space in the new kitchen, 
AND I'll have more cupboards...
But just because I'll have that
DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE TO BRING EVERYTHING
FROM HERE TO THERE.

THE LESS THE BETTER.
SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT AGAIN...

BECAUSE THIS SUCKS.
IT'S EXHAUSTING AND OVERWHELMING...

I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF
THAT I FORGOT I HAD SOME OF IT...

I FEEL LIKE A "HOARDER."
And everything is everywhere.

I'm really not as bad as the people on the show...
I can admit I let stuff go and slide for a while, 
BUT I KNEW I HAD TO DO IT
AND THAT I WOULD.
AND I DID.

BECAUSE WHO ELSE IS GOING TO DO IT?
No such thing as a dish fairy or a laundry fairy, 
or a "sort your stuff for you" fairy...

Not even a "make your back stop hurting" fairy...
I really felt it, trying to sleep last night...

Every time I tried to turn over
to my other side, my back hurt like a b*tch.

I need a damn massage after this move.
Also, I should make a dental appointment...

I've been to the dental program at the college.
It's pretty cheap, or it was back then...

And they just need people to "practice" on. 
They didn't hurt me at all... It was okay.

It's just kind of strange in the room...
Because it's set up like cubicles would be, 
but each one has a dentist chair etc...

I'm glad they stuck me in the P building
when I first started as a janitor there...

Then they put me in the E building 
when I went back to work there...

Not my idea of a "fun" job...
Scrubbing college toilets...
Honest work for honest pay, though.
As they say: A job's a job.

But that's something I've gotta do...
Sometime soon...

I'd like to get my teeth cleaned, 
like really cleaned...
By that dental brush thing they use...

And they have a tool that sprays water, 
and another that has suction...

My mom's getting dentures soon.
I'm happy for her.
That's something she's wanted for a long time...

She was on a waiting list for over 3 years ffs.
Just to get her teeth pulled out ffs.

And yet their "dental care plan for seniors"
is supposedly helping people...

BUT IT'S LIKE THEY'D RATHER WAIT
UNTIL SOMEONE GETS A SERIOUS INFECTION
BEFORE THEY ACTUALLY APPROVE THEM
FOR ACTUAL "TREATMENT" OR WHATEVER...

A guy I was talking to, on the bus...
He had no fingers on his hands.
And he had a leg amputated...

I asked him if it was frostbite...
He said he got blood poisoning
from an infected tooth...

THAT CAN HAPPEN! 
DON'T THINK IT CAN'T TO YOU...
BECAUSE HE PROBABLY THOUGHT
THAT IT WOULDN'T HAPPEN TO HIM...

TAKING CARE OF YOUR TEETH IS IMPORTANT.
BECAUSE, YES, INFECTIONS
CAN POISON YOUR BLOOD
AND YOU COULD DIE.
HE ALMOST DID.

Anyway, I have to eat something...
Because if I don't, I won't be able to sleep
and I'd be even hungrier when I wake up...

AND HANGRY...

I put the blue light bulb in the standing lamp I have...
I'll have to "adjust" to it.
Forgot I had it and was thinking about blue bulbs lol. 

I guess my forgetfulness read my mind lol. 

Anyone remember the "muppet" on sesame street
called "Forgetful Jones"?


I have so many things to arrange...
Packing and transferring my insurance, 
and everything else...

But once it's all done, it'll be a relief. 
I'll probably be done packing everything
before we actually have to move anything.
I just want to try to make it as easy as possible.

Last thing I wanna do is make anything harder
than it has to be... Especially for anyone helping me.

The necklaces I wanted to sell aren't gold
so the guy didn't want to buy them from me...
I have some rings here, I might sell...
I dunno... I just want to have enough
to pay for a few things before all THIS stuff.
Y'know? Less on my mind...

And my friend has to get this gazebo tf outta here.
Not sure why he gave it to me.
I was going to give it to my folks...
But my step-father didn't want it...

So it's just been here...
For too long lol. 
Taking up space...

That's how I feel about my existence...
I'm just "taking up space."

It'd be cool to have a light that I can switch colors...
At night I can turn it to blue, 
or if I need to see stuff, back to white light...

I just don't like it screaming at my eyeballs...
How bright white light is...

I made myself something to eat before bed...
Can you guess what it is?

Psssst! It's ghetto pizza lol... 
Exactly what I had yesterday
and the day before that....

Pretty much for the last 4 days...

Getting tired of it...
But that's what I've had to do...
Try to make $20 stretch as long as it could...

I'm going to miss being so close to Walmart...
But I have a plan to "save" money...

There's a "community fridge" thing
next to my new building...

Where people can just open it up
and just take some food out of it...

Which is nice to have...
It actually burned down, once...
The wooden hut thing the fridge is in...

I've had one fridge almost explode on me...
Well not ON me, but it was my fridge.

It was making the loudest sound...
Even from my bedroom I could hear it.
It was BAD.
When the guy finally came to look at it...
He was asking me how long it'd been doing that...
Making that sound... It had been months...

The guy said I was lucky that it didn't explode
and catch on fire.

Those towers, in London...
That burned down...

Supposedly was caused by a fridge exploding...

I remember hearing about it
and seeing footage about it.

All the people who were displaced from that...

But a lot of people joined together to support them.
Which was great to see.

Anyway, I better force myself to eat this...
And then go to bed...