The Other Migraine Story

Glad to be back home, now.
It's been a frustrating day.

First, there was a guy being racist at the bus stop.
Hating on "white people."
Calling us "soulless crackers."

Then, he got on the same bus.
Saying whatever he was saying at the back of the bus.
He had a bike with him. 
And he was going one stop.

Felt relieved when he got off the bus.
Then, bumper to bumper traffic. 

Was stuck on the parkway for a while...

A guy got a call on the bus saying he'd be late.
He was already on the bus when I got on the bus. 

He said he had to take the train after the bus.

So the guy wasn't answering the door when I got there.
I wanted to turn around and go home.
I didn't. I guess he forgot I was coming today. 

Well, his domain expired before I could get into his account. 
And still couldn't get in.

So I made him a new account.
And had to make him a new email address.

And when I was even trying to get onto his wifi, 
we had to call his internet company
to reset the password for his wifi.

So it was a BS day resetting passwords.
And his site is down because his domain expired.

So when his domain's grace period is over, we'll register it, again. 
And I'll have to make him a new site.

A LOT OF BS ALL OVER AGAIN. 
HE WANTS TO MAKE VIDEOS FOR HIS SITE.
BUT HE WANTS SOMEONE ELSE
TO BE IN THE VIDEOS.
BECAUSE HE SAID HIS ENGLISH ISN'T GOOD.

I told him to hire someone from his Church to do it.
I told him to do that 5 times now.

I don't want to make the videos.
I'm not a video person. 

I'll work on the site, like I said I would. 
I just don't want to overload myself.
In general, not just with his stuff.

WITH EVERYONE AND ANYONE'S STUFF...

AFTER TODAY, I'LL PROBABLY GO TO BED EARLY. 
I'M JUST REALLY TIRED AND SAPPED OF ENERGY.

HAVEN'T BEEN EATING MUCH, EITHER.

MY HEART'S TAKING A "BEATING"
See what I did there? 

I thought that up earlier and found it amusing.

That's the "fun" part of being "crazy."
I CAN AMUSE MYSELF. 

That's what I don't get about people
WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO WAIT.
BECAUSE I GUESS THEY CAN'T AMUSE THEMSELVES.

But today was a bunch of BS.
I told him a bunch of times
that his domain was about to expire.

Granted, he doesn't know about this stuff.

But trying to explain things can get kind of aggravating. 
When I have to keep saying it.

It bugs me to have to repeat myself. 

A friend drove me f*cking bananas.
He kept saying I was "mumbling"

I could hear myself say it, 
but I had to repeat it like 6 f*ckng times.
And got so mad that I shouted it FFS.

"Hear me NOW?!"

Granted I was on some meds...
Maybe they "incapacitated me" more than I realized.

However, it'd be cool if they heard me THE FIRST TIME.
AND NOT HAVE TO SAY IT 6 TIMES.
OR MORE.

It was to the point I didn't even want to bother
TO SAY IT AGAIN. 

It was an "everyone f*ck off" day.
I got so aggravated trying to get into accounts
and have to change passwords AGAIN.

And his domain is on "grace" and after that is over, 
then we can get the domain again... 

I'm just f*cking burnt out.

Hopefully, we won't keep getting these issues.
Going forward. 

And when he hires someone else, 
maybe I'll show them how to sign into WordPress
(when we get his site re-set up).
I was hoping that I wouldn't have to re-do everything...

Even thinking about all that work ahead...
Just makes me want to go to bed.

It's already dark outside. It's 6pm!
May as well be 11pm...


And on Monday, they want to talk about splitting the group.
Because it's getting bigger.

And we'll see what group I end up with...
Maybe I'll be pushed out. 

And those 2 ladies, who wanted to learn to knit. 
I was trying to confirm a place to meet.
I suggested to meet at the college
and they didn't get back to me.

I'm not chasing anyone to teach them for free.
If they changed their minds, they could have at least said so.

So we'll see what happens on Monday...

Traffic's fooked tonight, too. 
I can see a sea of red tail lights on the highway. 
I did a Nelson laugh because they're stuck in traffic
and I'm not. Ha! Ha!

They're up to 17 people, I guess. 
And potentially 3 more members.

They said they had to split before.
I haven't been with them for a full year, yet. 

I think they'll keep the original members together.
I don't know where that'll leave me.

I guess if they push me out, then I'll be a "home knitter."
Then I can drop the stuff off and just not go to meetings.

It just seems like today...
That it's been one thing after another...

The bonus things today:
I found another pair of shoes.

I keep finding shoes, everywhere.
And I'm talking about Adidas and Nikes... 
Good condition... 

Also that guy was moving out and he left stuff.
By the elevators and said to just take whatever.
Because he was moving back to his country.
And he wasn't coming back.

I guess he got fed up with the BS here.

A few things I need to do tomorrow
so I hope tomorrow's a better day.

The racist guy, today. 
When he got off the bus, he thanked the "soulless cracker"
driving the bus.

Before the drivers got that door thing...
There was a driver who said something rude.

He said "Common sense would tell people
to move to the back of the bus."

So I said: "Common sense would tell people
not to be rude to their passengers."

He heard me say that and knew it was directed at him. 
FOR BEING F*CKING RUDE AF.

But instead of letting it go, he got p*ssed.
And kept trying to mouth off to me.

I had my son with me.
I had to tell the guy to just drive the bus.
And we were getting off at the next stop.

He even mouthed off at me
AFTER I GOT OFF THE BUS.

HE WAS REALLY RUDE.
I HAD AN EMPTY PLASTIC CUP.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I THREW IT AT HIM, 
BUT I THREW IT AT HIM. 

BECAUSE HE COULD HAVE JUST
SHUT THE F*CKING DOOR, 
SHUT HIS F*CKING MOUTH.

BECAUSE WE WERE ALREADY OFF THE BUS.
BUT HE FELT THE NEED TO CONTINUE.

If it was a full cup, I wouldn't have thrown it.
And I shouldn't have done it in front of my son. 

But at some point, they got "doors."

Everyone on the bus heard the guy mouthing off.
NOBODY SAID ANYTHING.

IF YOU WANT TO BE A RUDE POS,
TO THE PUBLIC AT LARGE, 
DON'T GET A JOB DEALING WITH THE PUBLIC.

NOBODY NEEDS THAT BS.

Then, he'd probably gone home that day
to b*tch about how I reacted to his BS
AND PROBABLY LEFT HIS BS OUT.

ABOUT IMPLYING PASSENGERS
HAVE NO COMMON SENSE.

AND EVEN IF THEY DON'T...
YOU COULD HAVE CHOSEN
TO KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!

But it's different when someone implies
THAT YOU LACK COMMON SENSE.

THE SAME THING HE DID.
BUT DIFFERENT WHEN SOMEONE ELSE DOES IT.

That's what p*ssed me off with the spying and stalking sh*t.
BECAUSE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT
IF I DID THAT.
IF I DISREGARDED HIM IN HIS HOUSE.
IF I SMASHED A FAMILY HEIRLOOM OF HIS.

IF I DID ANY OF THE SAME SH*T
THEY FELT ENTITLED TO DO TO ME.

It's only different when I do it, though.
It'd totally be WTF. FROM ME.

YET WHEN ANYONE ELSE DOES ANYTHING???

Like if I was the one who interjected into their conversation
with threats etc...

CALLING ME A HOME WRECKER
AND TRYING TO C0CKBLOCK ME...

SHE CHEATS ON HIM ALL THE TIME
AND TRIES TO ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED. 

EVEN WHEN SHE "APOLOGIZED" TO ME
SHE TRIED TO PLAY IT OFF LIKE IT DIDN'T HAPPEN.

LIKE SAYING SORRY WAS "ENOUGH."
NO. NOT F*CKING DOING THAT AT ALL.
IS MORE THAN ENOUGH.

That sh*t's what I got.
All he said was "wow."

I told him before, to change his password on his thing.
Because I had a feeling someone was reading our messages.
I WAS RIGHT THE WHOLE TIME, 
BUT DID HE LISTEN TO ME?
OR DID HE LISTEN TO HER PROJECTING HER SH*T ONTO ME?

TELLING HIM THAT I'M PSYCHO.

For what? Kicking him out?
WHICH I HAVE A RIGHT TO DO?

No. If I was psycho...
I would have done something psycho.

FOR BREAKING MY MIRROR
AND THE THOUSANDS OF INSULTS, 
SLAPS IN THE FACE ETC.

AND FOR HER TRYING TO COME AT ME
ANY TIME SHE FELT LIKE IT.

EVEN DEMANDING MY # FROM HIM
TO TEXT INSULTS AND BS TO ME
AFTER I KICKED HIM OUT.

F*cking audacious.
"WOW" sums it up?

But I'm supposed to be "cool"
with an "apology" 
FOR HER INTERJECTING!!!

BUT DID SHE STOP DOING IT?!

OR DID I KICK HIM OUT
BECAUSE HE KEPT LETTING HER DO IT?

AND FOR PLAYING IN MY FACE?

IT'S LIKE THEY GET ALL SHOCKED
WHEN I'VE ALREADY TAKEN WAY TOO MUCH
AND THEY KNOW THEY WOULDN'T LIKE IT
IF I DID THAT SH*T TO THEM, 
BUT OKAY TO DO IT TO ME?
THEN SAY "SORRY" LIKE IT NEVER HAPPENED?

How about instead of saying ANYTHING TO ME, 
YOU JUST DON'T?

JUST LIKE INSTEAD OF SAYING ANYTHING TO YOU, 
I JUST DON'T.

SHOULD WORK BOTH WAYS?

A mutual understanding and agreement.

AND IF HE EVER WANTS TO TALK TO ME AGAIN, 
SHE NEEDS TO MIND HER F*CKING BUSINESS.
BUT WILL SHE?

WHY WOULD ANYONE WHO GETS THAT JEALOUS
ACTUALLY MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS?

Y'know like SHE EXPECTS ME TO MIND MINE?
AND STAY OUT OF HER CONVERSATIONS?

AND YES, I tore him a new one for smashing my mirror.
Besides, his next 6 years of bad luck... Enjoy that.

And the thermos... That p*ssed me off, too.
Like bad enough he did that, 
but I had to clean that up...

But I'm not petty enough to clean it up
with the clothes he left here
and refused to come get for 7 months.

TO PREVENT ME FROM MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE
LIKE I WANTED TO.

HE COULD HAVE JUST GOT ALL HIS STUFF.
INSTEAD OF MOVING IT OUT, WITH MY BROTHER'S HELP.

THEN ACCUSE ME OF STEALING?
7 months after?

WHO WAS AROUND YOU? 
WASN'T ME, AFTER YOU LEFT ALL YOUR STUFF HERE
LIKE I HAD TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR IT
UNTIL YOU GREW A PAIR TO COME GET IT.

There's a story a friend told me.
He said he went to a gathering of some kind...
And he wore a shirt with a pear on it
and it said "grow a pear."

He thought he was being funny, 
but it turned out that there was a guy there
who was born with only one nut...

But my friend didn't know.
Someone told him and he felt like a d*ck. 

What are the odds though?

One time, I got a lotto ticket for him, for his birthday.
He was off by 1 or 2 numbers. 
He thought he'd get something for it, 
because he was so close.

He ended up getting $120. Better than nothing. 
Would have been cool if he actually won big. 

My mom said I should play specific numbers
on the pick 3. I'm thinking about it.

Once it was 070 and that was my class number in college.

Pretty sure we had to write our class number
under our names in the top right corner...

There was a real trick proof we had...
HE HAD TOLD ALL OF US
TO WRITE THE EXAM IN BLACK INK ONLY.

HE SAID IF WE WROTE IT IN BLUE, 
HE WOULDN'T READ IT.
AND WE WOULDN'T GET THE GRADE FOR IT.

I saw a girl in my class using blue ink.
AND I PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE REMINDED HER.
I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT I DIDN'T.

There was a guy in one of the other classes.
I found a cool website with some law stuff, 
so I printed it out and put it in his locker.

He was like "I have a girlfriend"
At the time, I was seeing someone.
It wasn't about that, but he assumed. 

Fast forward to the grad party...

I was the only one sitting at our table with no date.
So the guy stood up and poured me a drink.
Was nice of him. 

The guys got roses for their dates.
It was totally awkward.

Then, fast forward to after we graduated...

I was walking home from somewhere.
I heard someone calling my name, 
I turned around to see him, but didn't recognized him at first.

He got to be a cop, was in his uniform, in his squad car.

I'm probably not cut out to be a cop, honestly. 
I couldn't pass the damn PREP test.

Firstly, it's a timed test.
I forget how much time you get to do it, 
but let's just say 10 - 15 minutes.

The first part went okay.
Gotta climb over a wall, and a few other things...

But there's a machine. You have to "bring" the two parts together.
TO LIFT THE WEIGHT UP.

It's supposed to be like "putting someone's hands behind their back"
and the weight was the "force of resistance."

I really tried to do that part, but the worst part
was my shoes kept slipping on the floor. 
Like I couldn't grip the floor with my feet
to give myself more leverage to do it.

And I was running out of time to complete the test
so I called it.

When I became a janitor at the college, 
I was given the P building to clean.
Where I had all my classes...

That building has a gun range. 
And the cops are allowed to use it.

I wasn't allowed to go in there.
Another janitor got to clean the gun range.

He was the grandfather of a friend. 

Well, it's a story that goes with it.

The guy who trained me as a janitor, 
his son's ex was dating my friend.

They have a son together. Same birthday as me.

And him and his mom, his son's ex...
Lived here. Upstairs.

I found out because I was on my way home, 
after work and my friend was getting off the bus, 
same stop, and then he was going to my building 
and he was staying with his girlfriend, 

my co-worker's son's ex. 

She got so f*cking jealous. Unreal. 

My friend told me a story about taking her out. 
They went to a pub together for drinks.

My friend was being polite to the waitress. 
His girlfriend took it as flirting. 

AND SHE POURED A WHOLE PITCHER OF BEER
RIGHT IN HIS LAP.

And one time, she found a hair in her bed
AND TRIED TO SAY IT WAS MINE
IMPLYING THAT HE AND I HOOKED UP.
IN HER BED FFS.

1) I had shaved my head - I had no hair.
2) It was a blond hair, I'm not blond.
3) It was her own hair. 

Freaked out on me for nothing.

It wasn't until LONG after that...
One time, and they weren't together.

Anyway, he accidentally overdosed...
Many years ago. I think back in 2011.
Maybe even before that.

He told me he got a chick pregnant
and she had twin girls. 
I never met her.

He was finally happy, in his life
THEN STUPIDLY TOOK TOO MANY DRUGS.

Before, when he was doing drugs...
I TOLD HIM TO BE CAREFUL WITH IT.

He had an apartment near where I went to school
for grade 5 and grade 6.

It was the only time I was ever in that building, 
but I think about the time I visited him, there, 
when I happen to be in the area, passing by.

I never met his dad, but his dad had gotten out of jail. 
While we were working together. 

His dad went to jail for pushing a guy out a window
on the 13th floor.
For touching a kid. 

I know of a guy who needs the same done.
AND I REALLY WISH I COULD DO IT MYSELF. 

But 10 years? 12? Or more?
It'd be 1rst degree because I thought about it millions of times.

And my friend got abused while his dad was in jail. 
He told me that he never told ANYONE other than me.

The only reason I'm writing about it
is because he has passed away and it won't affect him. 
And I'm not using his name. 

But more to explain why his dad was in jail. 

He ended up getting a place with a guy we worked with.
Near here. I was only ever in that building, once. 

But for whatever reason, the toilet, tub, and sink were pink. 
It made me laugh. The thought of them feeling "pretty"
in a pink bathtub. 

My folks' place doesn't have a tub. Only shower. 
It's not a huge place, more "long."

One night, my mom felt someone tapping her on her foot, 
to wake her up. 
Thought it was her husband, but he was sleeping. 
It freaked her out.

The time I heard the "voice" in my ear...
THAT freaked ME out.

Never heard anything like it before
and nothing like that ever happened, to me, like it before. 
I mean RIGHT. IN. MY. EAR.

The voice sounded "ancient."
Like "deep" "gutteral" "ancient."
Man's voice.

"Wake up!" Like annoyed with me.
BUT NO MISTAKING IT.
IT WAS NOT MY IMAGINATION. 
NOBODY CAN CONVINCE ME THAT IT WAS.
IT WASN'T. IT WAS REAL. 

When you hear it, RIGHT. IN. YOUR. EAR...
You'll know. It's real. 

There was only one other person in the place, 
but it definitely wasn't his voice
and he said he hadn't said anything. 
Or heard anything.

I definitely heard it.
It was right in my ear!!!
There was no NOT hearing it. Y'know?

That only happened ONCE.
BUT it still happened.

And I saw something in my room, once.
I got a huge migrane, 
like the worst I ever had.

For migraines, I try to sleep them off.
There's a migraine story...
Which I'll get to right after this part...

So I woke up, and I saw like a shadow sitting on my bed. 
I thought it was the guy living with me, but it wasn't him
because under the door, I saw the bathroom light turn on
and he was going into the bathroom. 
When I looked back, the shadow thing "faded out."
Was the first time and only time I saw one. 

Speaking of "grow a pair"
The minister of Immigration told Pierre to grow a pair.
About getting his security clearance.

The thing is this:
There are 11 names tied to interference. 
PIERRE won't get the security clearance
because if he does, he can't name the people
listed and can't do anything about them. 

So he wanted to get the documents to the RCMP
TO INVESTIGATE...

BUT they handed over REDACTED documents.

Then, a Lib MP wanted to vote against this tax break thing...
But got 'threatened' with 'consequences.'

Also, the NDP was saying that unless the Libs
include seniors and people with disabilities in the $250 thing, 
they won't back them. 

And people are saying they aren't even sure what the NDP
is going to do because Jag has said that he was tearing up
the agreement they had with the Libs...

Then like taped it back together. 
People don't believe him. 

And the Conservs are saying:
"If you have confidence in your own plan, 
call a carbon tax election."

THEY WON'T. 

AND SMALL BUSINESSES ARE GOING TO SUFFER
BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO RECONFIG
THEIR PRICING SYSTEM. 

And the $250 cheques are coming out
RIGHT A HUGE TAX HIKE. 

And someone was saying that on like $85 on groceries
she was like "I'd save $2 off $85."

A tax break on diapers for 2 months?!
What about the other 10 months?

THEY ARE ACTING LIKE THEY ARE BEING
F*CKING GENEROUS!!!

A guy who owns 3 dollar stores...
He has 3K+ items in his stores. 
And it'll cost him $4K+ just to take the GST off.
FOR 2 MONTHS.

IT'S GOING TO BE A NIGHTMARE FOR ACCOUNTANTS.

AND THEY ARE SAYING THAT THE PROVINCES
ARE SAYING IT'S STUPID. 

It's all about trying to make themselves look good.
And everyone just has to worry about the "details" later.
And everyone against it is "horrible."

25 billion dollars. 

AND THEY ARE TRYING TO BLAME THE CONSERVATIVES
FOR JASPER BURNING!

WERE THE CONSERVATIVES EVEN IN OFFICE?
FOR THE LAST 10 YEARS?

They literally try to blame HARPER.
If anything, we need him back. 
Get JT tf out. 

Okay, before I go on another tangent, 
there's another migraine story.

I had one of the worst migraines.
I tried taking advil or tylenol and I couldn't keep it down. 
I couldn't keep water down. 

I told a friend and he suggested crushing it up
and snorting it, lol. 

I did it and it worked.
I only did it because I needed relief really badly. 
And every time I tried to take it, I'd puke it up.

So that's the other migraine story.