The Second Corner

I had a thought about something.
A neighbor was moving out and he left a lot of things
and said to everyone to take anything they wanted.

He worked at a retail store and was giving away his old work shirts.
I took them.

But I was thinking, wondering, how long would it take
if I showed up to the retail store wearing a shirt
before they realized I don't actually work there lol.

And then people start bets on it.
Less than a day, less than a week,
less than a month, less than a year?

It'd just be funny to me pretending to be a new employee.
And seeing how long it takes for them to figure it out.

I remember a video about a Japanese show
where the guy had to spend like a month or something
in a little room and all he could eat
was whatever he could win in sweepstakes lol.

I forget why, but he resorted to being mostly naked
during his time in the little room.

It was like a "survival" type real tv type show.
I forget what it was called.

Anyway, they transported his little room
into the studio in front of an audience.
And when they took the walls away,
he was basically shocked and naked.


That would be shocking. Being completely alone
and without human contact and then all eyes on you.
All eyes were on him the whole time.
It was a TV show.

I think that moment was what made me think about it.

Well the first corner went well. I started the second.
The first row has back to back corners.

I was going to watch a movie while working the second corner.
For whatever reason, it doesn't want to load.

Sometimes I just listen to videos while knitting or crocheting.
I did a whole series like that, just listening to it
as I knit or crochet.

All people ever really needed was stuff to listen to and read.
Okay, movies and shows are nice.

But I bet people listen to music while they work.
I had a radio I used to bring to work.

When I worked with my ex, we'd listen to my cassettes at work.
Retro 90s stuff.

90s stuff is almost vintage. What's considered vintage?
40 years?

Antique after 60 years?

DANCE MIX '95.

I had a couple of other ones, 97' was okay.

Once, I found a huge box of cassettes by the side of the road.

I'm going to buy another walkman. The ones I had aren't working.

Once, I accidentally dropped it, but it felt in a weird way.
Or landed in a weird way. It landed right on the jack
and bent the jack lol.

I'd go through so many headphones, too.

When I was a kid I had headphones that had a radio in them.
I freaking loved those things. 
I was so sad when they stopped working.

When I was a kid, I wanted a tv watch lol.
This was way before texting even.

And the bus terminals used to have little TVs in the waiting areas.
They'd be personalized little units attached to the seat.

Then we got cellphones.

It used to cost per text. Wild.

A high school my school went to for their space exhibit thing.
They had a messaging system we could type to
another computer in another room.
And I remember it being one of the coolest things ever.

And then someone introduced me to mIRC.
There was another one, too, I forgot what it's called.

These were before the yahoo chats rooms.

Anyway, a female contacted me about the dude.
So I contacted him to tell him
AND HE ACCUSED ME OF TAKING HIS THINGS.
I WAS DEMANDING THAT HE COME GET
ALL OF HIS THINGS TF OUT OF HERE.

AND WHAT DID HE WANT TO DO?
BE DISMISSIVE ABOUT IT 
AND REFUSE TO COMPLY
WITH A SIMPLE REQUEST

AND YOU'D THINK I WOULDN'T HAVE
TO EVEN REQUEST THAT.

BUT IT'S LIKE ANYONE STEALS FROM HIM
THAT IT'S ME?

AND WHO WOULD BENEFIT
FROM HIM THINKING THAT ABOUT ME?

GIRLS WHO CONTACT ME ABOUT HIM?
GIRLS WHO LITERALLY THREATENED ME.

But I'm not on anyone's radar?
Had to eliminate the competition, right?
AND CALL ME CRAZY TO DO THAT LOL.

BUT TALK ABOUT MY REACTION TO THEIR ACTIONS
AND NEVER EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE ANYTHING
THEY EVER DID TO ME
AND ACCUSE ME OF THINGS I NEVER DID
OR EVEN WOULD DO.
BECAUSE THAT SEEMS TO WORK THE BEST.


It's like they'd only believe me if there was proof
and even with proof I'm still 'crazy'
SO WHY LISTEN TO ME?

HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU EVEN TELL ANYONE?
SHOULDN'T IT JUST BE ONCE?

IDEALLY.
AND IF I WAS TAKEN SERIOUSLY,
ONCE IN MY LIFE.
BUT PEOPLE WHO WANTED ME OUT
HAD TO LIE AND MANIPULATE.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE
EVERY TIME YOU FEEL A TYPE OF WAY
OVER SOMEONE DOING SOMETHING F*CKING IMMATURE.
OR ACCUSING YOU OF STOOPING LOW.
FOR AN EXCUSE TO STOOP LOW?

THEY'D RATHER TRY TO GAS LIGHT AND DENY.
TRYING TO MAKE YOU LOOK CRAZY.

NOT ACKNOWLEDGING THE FACT
THAT I WOULDN'T BE SAYING ANYTHING
IF THERE WASN'T A REASON TO BE SAYING IT.

IF ANYONE NEEDS TO WAKE TF UP,
AND REALIZE SOMETHING.

THEY NEED TO WAKE TF UP.
IT'S NOT MY FAULT IF THEY DON'T WANT TO.

BUT THEY CAN 'NOT WANT TO' TF AWAY FROM ME.

How hard was it to come get all his stuff himself?
He could have. I told him to come get it a thousand times.

IS IT MY FAULT HE REFUSED TO?
TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HIS THINGS?
LIKE A MATURE, RESPONSIBLE PERSON MIGHT DO?

THAT WAY HE SURE AS HELL COULDN'T DARE SAY
THAT I TOOK ANYTHING I NEVER DID.

WHY TF WOULD I?
TO BE IGNORANT?


But it's like sending me messages about him.
ME. Why did she contact me?
How did she connect him to me?

And he says: don't you think it's strange this (whoever)
just contacted you about me?
And not me directly?

WELL YEAH.
THAT'S WHY I TOLD YOU ABOUT IT.

AND SOMEONE CALLING THE COPS ON HIM
ON CHRISTMAS.
BUT THAT HAD TO BE ME,
SOMETHING I WOULD DO, RIGHT?

WHOEVER PUT IT IN HIS HEAD THAT IT WAS ME...

*CALLS THE COPS*
"IT MUST HAVE BEEN A***."

*STEALS FROM M****
"IT MUST HAVE BEEN A***."

BUT YOU GET TIRED, AFTER A WHILE
OF MAKING THE SAME POINTS OVER AND OVER.

I SHOULDN'T EVEN HAVE TO MAKE THE POINTS AT ALL.

IS IT ME THAT IS THE ISSUE OR THE GIRLS CONTACTING ME?
BECAUSE THEY WOULDN'T CONTACT ME
FOR NO REASON, RIGHT?

THEY'D MOVE ON LIKE I DON'T HAVE AN ISSUE WITH.
BECAUSE WHY EXPLAIN THE SAME THINGS
TO THE SAME PEOPLE
AND EVERY TIME YOU TELL THE TRUTH
YOU GET TREATED WORSE THAN THE LIARS?

IF SOMEONE IS DOING SOMETHING F*CKING IMMATURE
THEY ARE BEING IMMATURE.

PEOPLE DON'T SEEM TO LIKE TO LOOK AT THEMSELVES
AS BEING IMMATURE. 

BECAUSE IT'S NEVER THEM, RIGHT?
IT'S ALWAYS ME BEING "OFF MY MEDS"
WHICH PISSES ME OFF!

THAT IS THE IMMATURITY THAT IS INSULTING.
COULD HAVE JUST LISTENED.

WHY LISTEN? THAT WOULD MEAN
CONFRONTING YOURSELF!

IF YOU DID CONFRONT YOURSELF
YOU WOULDN'T BE TALKING TO ME
LIKE ME UPSET WITH YOUR IMMATURITY
IS BECAUSE I'M CRAZY.

WHAT'S CRAZY IS THAT YOU'RE NOT UPSET
AT YOUR OWN IMMATURITY.
AND THAT YOU COULD HAVE SEEN
EXACTLY WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT
HAD YOU JUST LISTENED.

INSTEAD OF TREATING ME THE INSULTING WAY
THAT I WAS BEING TREATED.

AS THOUGH I'M SOMETHING I NEVER WAS.

BUT I'M CRAZY BECAUSE THAT'S BS?

BULLSH*T IS BULLSH*T!
BECAUSE HOW HARD IS IT TO TAKE SOMETHING 
I 
SAY INTO CONSIDERATION?
SO WOULDN'T THEY IF IT'S NOT HARD?
why go out of their way to further insult me?
Because it's pretty insulting
to your own intelligence to act immaturely.

If you're insulting your own intelligence,
HOW IS IT SOMETHING I'M DOING TO YOU?

BUT MAKE UP SOMETHING I SUPPSEDLY DID.
OR LISTEN TO SOMEONE ELSE ABOUT ME.

BUT WANT TO TALK ABOUT BEING TREATED FAIR?
FAIR IS BEING MATURE ENOUGH TO ADMIT
TO BEING IMMATURE.
INSTEAD OF 'PLAYING VICTIM'
OR TRYING TO TURN IT AROUND 
LIKE I SOMEHOW MADE YOU ACT IMMATURE.
BECAUSE PRETTY SURE THE WAY YOU ACT
IS A DECISION.

IF YOU'RE NOT MATURE ENOUGH TO ADMIT
TO BEING IMMATURE, YOU'RE NOT MATURE.

AND THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.
WHATSOEVER.

BUT ONLY SO MANY TIMES I'M EVEN GOING TO SAY IT.
BECAUSE I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO.