Too Much Of It

There isn't any reason why anyone would give my number
To anyone I don't know.
Manipulation. 
Projecting stuff at me.

That's blocking their own potential. It really is.
BECAUSE THEY COULD BE FOCUSING ON THAT
INSTEAD OF TRYING TO DO ANY BS TO ME.

WHY DO THAT? TO TRY TO THREATEN ME?

JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE DOESN'T WANT ME
TO GET OR HAVE SOMETHING.

BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT IT WAS ABOUT, FOR THEM.
GETTING, HAVING.

That's why they don't want me to get or have something.
BY TRYING TO CAST ILLUSIONS ABOUT ME.
BECAUSE THAT'S ALL THEY CAN TRY TO DO.

She could have just stayed out of it.
BECAUSE NOTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME
HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER, PERIOD.

She MADE it her business by getting into it.
MINE. MY business.

All because I have potential. 
YEAH, EVERYONE DOES.
SO WHY WAS IT A THING THAT I DO, TOO?

So people have to try to change the perception about me.
"change how we look at things, the things we look at change."
Projections to change how I'm being looked at.

People think it's funny. Unless it happens to them. 
BUT THEY DO IT TO PEOPLE
WHO WOULDN'T DO IT TO THEM.

People want me to just be angry to mess with my creativity
so that I'm focused on that BS
so that I won't focus on what I'm focused on.

THEY HAVE THE POTENTIAL NOT TO BE LIKE THAT
YET THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE CHOOSING.

I saw a video about a case
WHERE THE EX GIRLFRIEND
WAS READING HIS EMAILS AND MESSAGES
BETWEEN HIM AND THE GIRL HE WAS SEEING AFTER HER.

Then she, being the ex told her ex's girlfriend's ex who wanted her back.
IF THE POSSESSIVE EX BACKED OFF
AND JUST LET HIM BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
EVEN IF HE WAS HAPPY WITH SOMEONE ELSE...

AND THE EX WHO WANTED HER BACK
HAD BACKED OFF AND LET HER BE HAPPY...

THAT GUY WOULDN'T HAVE KILLED THAT GUY.

And I had some jealous female INTERRUPTING MY CONVERSATION
WITH SOMEONE I WAS TALKING TO
WHO I KNEW BEFORE THEY MET
WATCHING OUR CONVERSATION
WHILE WE WERE HAVING IT.

INTERRUPTING TO THREATEN US BOTH.
FOR WHAT?! FOR TALKING?

Because we were getting re-acquainted with each other.
AND SHE DIDN'T F*CKING LIKE IT
BUT IT WAS NOT HER F*CKING CHOICE.

Just like it wasn't the EX girlfriend in that case..
IT WASN'T HER CHOICE
IF HE WAS DATING SOMEONE OR NOT.
BECAUSE THEY WEREN'T TOGETHER.

And she read his messages the whole f*cking time.
"Countless times" she said. 

BECAUSE SHE SAW HIM AS HER'S.
GOT UPSET ABOUT IT
WHEN IT WAS NONE OF HER BUSINESS.

This happened to me.
AS SOON AS HIS EX FOUND OUT ABOUT ME
SHE WAS ALL IN MY BUSINESS.
Then she "HAD" to get him back...
AND THREATENED US BOTH IF SHE SAW US TOGETHER.

And THIS IS THE KIND OF PSYCHO SHIT
BEEN PROJECTED ONTO ME FFS.
BY HER, OF COURSE.

I saw another case where after just been married
For about a month, they were sleeping...
THE NEWLY MARRIED COUPLE.

AND THE EX WIFE HAD SOMEONE GO SHOOT HIM.

So her HUSBAND got shot RIGHT NEXT TO HER
AS THEY WERE SLEEPING...

BECAUSE OF HIS JEALOUS EX WIFE.
COULDN'T JUST LET THEM BE HAPPY TOGETHER.

Even in my jealousy dreams, I'm ashamed of my actions.
SO ASHAMED THAT I WOULDN'T DO THAT IN REAL LIFE.
ALSO I HAVE CONTROL OVER MYSELF.
NO MATTER HOW "UPSET" I FELT,
I HAVE NO RIGHT TO ACT ANY TYPE OF WAY.

Just because someone was "my" partner...
THEY ARE A PERSON.
THEY HAVE FEELINGS.
IF THEY ARE HAPPY, THEY ARE HAPPY.
IF IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME,
IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.
They have a LIFE. AFTER ME.
THEY HAVE THAT RIGHT.
Just as I have that same right.

I'm to the point I CAN AND WILL HOLD BACK.
EVEN IF I WAS COMPLETELY HAPPY WITH SOMEONE
BEEN THREATENED BY A CRAZY EX
WHO HAS OBVIOUSLY BEEN SPYING.

A tarot reader did a reading and he was saying:
WHOEVER IS WATCHING YOU
HAS SOMEONE WATCHING THEM WATCHING YOU.

The fact that she was even doing that...
IT IS PROOF THAT SHE EVEN WAS DOING IT.
SHE GOING TO JUST "STOP" DOING IT?
Since it was an "obsession" for her to do it
SHE WOULDN'T JUST STOP DOING IT.

EVEN WITHOUT HIM MISJUDGING ME FFS.
SHE MUST HAVE
IF SHE THINKS SHE'LL JUST TRY TO STEP ON ME
OR COME AT ME IN ANY WAY.
She's already tried before.
Told her not to play with me.
F*CK HER FOR THINKING SHE EVER COULD.

I NEVER CONTACTED HER EVEN ONCE.
BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A RIGHT TO JUST DO THAT
JUST BECAUSE I FEEL ANY TYPE OF WAY ABOUT THEM
BEING IN SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE FFS.


DOES ANYONE SEE ME COMING AT HER?
WHY is it that she wants to INTERUPT SO BADLY?
Because she doesn't want me to get or have something.

THAT'S WHY. SHE KNEW THE POTENTIAL WAS THERE.
BUT IT IS ALSO MY CHOICE.
BECAUSE I DON'T NEED ANY BS.
FROM HIM OR FROM HER.
F*CK THAT SIDEWAYS WITH A SURFBOARD.

Because, for me, it WASN'T ABOUT GETTING ANYTHING.
So BECAUSE it wasn't about getting anything...
WHAT AM I TRYING TO HANG ON FOR?
TO GET OR HAVE SOMETHING
THAT EVEN IF I WANTED,
I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT JUST TO HAVE?
JUST BECAUSE I WANTED IT?

What gives ME that right? Nothing.
BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THAT RIGHT.

Just WANTING something
DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO HAVE IT.

I don't even like that I had to WRITE IT DOWN.
BECAUSE IT SHOULD BE
ONE OF THOSE COMMON SENSE THINGS.

It's the common DECENCY, and RESPECT thing
THAT SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN LACKING.

Because even if it doesn't work out with someone...
FOR WHATEVER REASON...
WHEN IT ENDS... THEY DON'T HAVE A RIGHT
TO GO THROUGH MESSAGES, ETC.
TO SPY ON THE NEW RELATIONSHIP.

BUT to try to make an ex jealous ON PURPOSE IS BS.
AND TO HOLD ONTO AN EX AND SOMEONE ELSE IS BS.

But don't come BACK AROUND TO ME when you're not satisfied
WITH ANY BS YOU CHOSE BECAUSE YOU CHOSE THAT.

I dated a guy who went through my emails once.
HE READ AN EMAIL SOMEONE SENT ME
YEARS BEFORE I EVEN MET THE GUY.

AND HE LIED TO ME SAYING THE GUY CONTACTED HIM.

HOW WOULD THE GUY I DIDN'T EVEN DATE
CONTACT HIM?
HOW WOULD HE KNOW WHO I WAS DATING?

THEN HE CONFESSED TO ME HE WAS READING MY EMAIL.
THAT HE LIED TO ME ABOUT THE GUY CONTACTING HIM.

DO YOU GET IT? 
YOU CAN'T JUST GO INTO SOMEONE'S EMAILS AND LIE ABOUT IT.
FOR ONE.

I trusted the guy not to do that.
BECAUSE I WASN'T HIDING ANYTHING FROM HIM.
Why be with anyone if there is anything?

WAS I STILL IN CONTACT WITH THAT GUY? NO?
WHY WAS THAT? 
BECAUSE I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP.


WHY BE WITH SOMEONE & EVERYONE ELSE?
OR KEEP SOMEONE HOLDING ON
FOR F*CKING FOREVER?

F*CK THAT SH*T.

And surprise when someone is actually like that
WHEN YOU DIDN'T THINK THEY WERE.
EASY TO FEEL BETRAYED
HOWEVER, HE DOESN'T OWE IT
TO BE "THE ONE" OR ANYTHING TO ME.

I DON'T OWE IT TO BE "THE ONE" FOR ANYONE
OR ANYTHING TO ANYONE.

JUST LIKE THEY DON'T OWE IT TO ME.

That's what they don't get about me.
They either treat me like I don't know this
OR THEY TREAT ME LIKE THEY DON'T KNOW THIS.

I'd rather be treated like I don't know this.
EVEN THOUGH I DO KNOW THIS.

But nobody has the right after it is over to anything.
I don't, neither do they.
Over just means over.

My feelings doesn't mean that I'm entitled to anything.
Doesn't mean I can expect something.

Nobody's feelings makes them entitled to anything.
Doesn't mean they can expect something.

WOULD THAT BE FAIR OF ME?
TO DO TO THEM?
NO.

BECAUSE THEY HAVE RIGHTS.
THE SAME RIGHTS I HAVE.

But it's like they ONLY SEEM TO CARE
WHEN THEY THINK I COULD BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE.


Just because I could be... DO I WANT TO BE? WITH ANYONE?
I could have been with them when I was with them.

BUT SOMETIMES PEOPLE COME TOGETHER, BRIEFLY
TO LEARN ABOUT OURSELVES. 

I've learned about myself through each relationship I had.
WHAT I WANT VS
WHAT I WANTED VS
WHAT I THOUGHT I WANTED.

When I was right there, though, I was right there.
BUT NOW THAT I'M NOT RIGHT THERE, 
OR ANYWHERE...
WHY ARE PEOPLE CURIOUS ALL OF A SUDDEN?

But to be threatened IN MY OWN F*CKING CONVERSATION...
THEN SHE TRIED TO APOLOGIZE TO ME FFS.
NO, YOU DID WHAT YOU DID.
AND NO, IT'S NOT OKAY.

SEE ME DOING THAT TO HER?
SO WHO IS JEALOUS OF WHO?

BECAUSE SHE CAN'T JUST LET ME BE HAPPY?
HAVING OR GETTING WHAT SHE THINKS
I WANT TO GET AND HAVE?
WHEN SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT MOTIVATES ME.
ISN'T WHAT MOTIVATES HER.

What bugs her, probably, is she figured that out
WHILE READING MY MESSAGES.

SO SHE COULD TRY TO ACT LIKE SHE WAS THE ONE, 
THAT I WASN'T ANYTHING. I WAS 'PSYCHO.'

See what kind of BS I've had to endure out of jealousy?
AND IT'S NOT LIKE I'M THE MOST ATTRACTIVE.
It's that THEY don't want to see ME happy.
With someone THEY want to be with.
AND IT'S NOT THEIR CHOICE.
JUST LIKE IT'S NOT MY CHOICE.

Anyway, this rarely happens, but it has to this extent
AT LEAST ONCE.

BUT AT THE SAME TIME...
Without the jealous ex...
A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE A LOT TO WORK ON
TO EVEN BE AT ANY PLACE IN THEIR LIFE
TO HAVE SOMETHING REAL.

I'VE SEEN ENOUGH, BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH
THAT I DON'T NEED TO BE IN ANY F*CKING THING.
AND NOBODY CAN BE MAD AT ME FOR WALKING AWAY
FROM ANY KIND OF BULLSH*T.

Just like nobody can be mad at you for walking away
from any kind of bullsh*t.

IF THEY DIDN'T WANT YOU TO
THEY SHOULDN'T BE ABOUT THE BULLSH*T.

So if someone is going to be in some co-dependent whatever...
THEY CAN'T CRY TO ME ABOUT IT.

DON'T TELL ME YOU FEEL WHATEVER ABOUT ME
THEN LET SOMEONE WHO KNOWS 
HOW WE FELT ABOUT EACH OTHER
MANIPULATE YOU OUT OF FEELING ANYTHING FOR ME.

It's one thing to have a change of heart.
But it's another to let people be in your ear
WHO WANT TO BE IN YOUR EAR
ABOUT SOMEONE
THEY HAVE NO BUSINESS BEING IN YOUR EAR ABOUT.

Because YES I'm different, and NO I don't want to belong.
If someone can't tell the difference between love and lust,
I SUGGEST YOU FOCUS ON YOURSELF.

THERE'S A DIFFERENCE.
PLAYERS GONNA PLAY, BUT NOT WITH ME.

It sucks when you don't think a person is like that.
And they do that sh*t.
And I'm not interested in that sh*t. 
SO WHAT DO THEY EXPECT ME TO DO?

AND NO, I DON'T DO SH*T LIKE
CHOOSE YOUR KIDS OR ME.
WHY WOULD I DO THAT SH*T?

And at the same time... 
We sometimes mishandle things
BECAUSE OF OUR ISSUES.
NOT THAT OUR ISSUES ARE EXCUSES
FOR MISHANDLING THINGS.

But if you don't know if I'm a distraction, a test, or what
THEN BE ON YOUR WAY.
YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE ON IT
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE ON MINE.

But I don't have to DIM MYSELF to be accepted.
I DON'T EXPECT THEM TO DO THAT EITHER.
BUT WHEN I JUST WANT BASIC RESPECT,
I JUST WANT BASIC RESPECT.
REGARD, CONSIDERATION.

THAT'S IT.
PRETTY EASY.

That's not HIGH MAINTENANCE.
THOSE AREN'T TOO HIGH FOR STANDARDS.

To not do "twat" things... That's basic regard.
Should I have to ask "don't do twat things"?
No, I shouldn't have to ask "don't do twat things."

JUST LIKE THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE TO ASK ME
NOT TO DO TWAT THINGS.

THE TIMES I DID TWAT THINGS, I PAID FOR IT.

Also, since I've been throwing stuff out there...
IT WAS NOBODY'S RESPONSIBILITY FOR ME TO GROW.
IT WAS MY OWN RESPONSIBILITY FOR ME TO GROW.

EVEN THOUGH I LOVED THEM ENOUGH TO HELP WITH THAT
THERE ARE THINGS I CAN'T DO FOR PEOPLE.

MY PARENTS COULDN'T 'HEAL' FOR ME.
EVEN THE BS THAT CAME FROM THEM.
DO YOU THINK THEY CHANGED ALL THAT MUCH
WHEN THEY CAN'T SEE WHERE OR HOW THEY COULD?
WHEN THEY DON'T WANT TO TAKE A LOOK
TO EVEN TRY TO SEE?
TO KNOW?

It's not their job to do the emotional work for me.
I have to do it for myself. 

HOW COULD THEY EVEN SHOW ME
IF THEY DIDN'T KNOW?

IT'S LIKE THEY WANT ME TO LIFT THEM UP
BUT WHEN IT CAME TO ME...

MY OWN MOTHER SIGNED HER RIGHTS AWAY.
I'M ACTUALLY GLAD SHE DID.
BECAUSE I NEVER FELT APPRECIATED, PERIOD.

Because maybe, if I was appreciated...
Someone would have stood up for me.
THEY WOULDN'T HAVE
TAKEN ME FOR GRANTED, RIGHT?

THEY WOULD HAVE ACTUALLY GOT WHAT I WAS SAYING
AND WHY I WAS EVEN SAYING IT.

BECAUSE IF THEY GOT THAT
THEY WOULD KNOW
AND THERE WOULDN'T BE ANY BS.
HARMONY. IMAGINE THAT.


But it's not just about growing emotionally,
growing psychologically, spiritually etc.
Maturing. In all aspects.

TO THE POINT YOU HAVE CONTROL OVER YOURSELF.

And I get it. Not everyone believes
THAT I HAVE AS MUCH CONTROL AS I DO.

Reading all these things I disclose about myself on here...
YOU CAN KINDA UNDERSTAND REASONS 
I'VE BEEN ANGRY.

But does being angry getting me somewhere?
OR DID IT EVER MATTER?

What about WHEN THEY WANTED TO TRY
TO GET ME ANGRY
SO THEY WOULD HAVE REASONS
TO CALL ME "CRAZY" ETC?

No, I have self control.
SO THAT SH*T DOESN'T WORK.

IT P*SSES PEOPLE OFF WHEN IT DOESN'T WORK.

The people who NEED self control
ARE THE PEOPLE WHO REFUSE TO LET GO
OF SOMEONE IT ENDED WITH
WHO READ MESSAGES OF EX PARTNERS
BETWEEN NEW PARTNERS ETC.

I refused to let go of people who disregarded me.
WHO STRAIGHT UP DISRESPECTED ME.

MAYBE BECAUSE I THOUGHT THEY NEVER WOULD.
AND WISHED THEY NEVER DID.

BUT THEY WOULD BECAUSE THEY DID.

And I know they say certain things a certain way
BECAUSE THEY WANT A CERTAIN REACTION.

BECAUSE THEY CAN USE THE REACTION
TO SAY WHY THEY DID THIS OR THAT.
TO 'REAFFIRM' WHATEVER LIE THEY TOLD.

Imagine people calling you crazy all your life
FOR ALL KINDS OF REASONS
AND THEN PEOPLE BELIEVING THAT SH*T
ABOUT YOU.
BECAUSE IF IT WASN'T "TRUE"
WHY WOULD PEOPLE SAY IT?!?!

Yeah, WHY would people say it?
TO MAYBE HIDE THINGS ABOUT THEMSELVES?

BECAUSE IF THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT ME
THEY AREN'T TALKING ABOUT THEM.

GOOD OR BAD.

The good, they don't want them talking about me
so I'm "crazy."
The bad, they don't want them talking about them
so I'm "crazy."
Either way, I'm "crazy."

And that's what they want to project about me
SO EVERYONE BELIEVES IT
AND JUST TRIES TO TREAT ME LIKE I AM?

Is this why I want to date? Am I lonely? No.
The only reason I blog lately
IS BECAUSE I FEEL THE NEED THAT SHOULDN'T BE A NEED
TO POINT OUT SPECIFIC F*CKING THINGS
THAT SHOULD NOT BE HARD TO SEE
OR UNDERSTAND.

And it BUGS ME that a lot of things
SHOULD GO WITHOUT SAYING.

THINGS THAT AREN'T COOL TO DO.
THINGS THAT ARE REALLY F*CKING IMMATURE.

Things that freaking bother me.
BECAUSE THEY WOULD BOTHER OTHERS, TOO.

If that random text guy was a real guy
NOT OUT THERE TRYING TO MANIPULATE
I MIGHT HAVE GOTTEN THAT SENSE?

What makes anyone think I should just grant them access to me?
And what makes anyone think that just because they did
they will have it forever?

BECAUSE WHEN THEY THINK THEY DO...
IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOU MEAN LESS
THAN YOU COULD HAVE MEANT
IF THEY KNEW
YOU HAVE THE SELF RESPECT
TO JUST BE GOOD ON YOUR OWN.

That's what I learned, but also learned
TO HAVE THE SELF RESPECT
TO JUST BE GOOD ON MY OWN.

BECAUSE NOBODY WILL BE IN MY LIFE FOREVER
BUT BEING IN MY LIFE
REQUIRES PARTICIPATION.

There are some people I made a bond with
WHO I DON'T SPEAK WITH EVERY DAY.
BUT I KNOW THEY ARE GOOD SOLID PEOPLE.

Anyway, maybe I'm meant to be a loner.
It's fine, actually. If I talk to people, then I do.
But I'm not hanging my hat on talking to people.
OR HAVING EVERYONE IN MY LIFE.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS HERE AND THERE, COOL.

I guess the older I'm getting, those close bonds
THAT I USED TO WISH I HAD
IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT I DON'T HAVE THEM.

The ones I do have, though, I appreciate those.

Maybe I would have relied more on those for external validation...
And relied on getting and having things from others
that I should have just been giving to myself to have for myself.

I was watching another tarot reader who was talking about
how there are different types of "fear" responses.

She was saying that sometimes the fear response is to shut down
EVEN WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE THERE
TO ACTUALLY GIVE YOU SUPPORT.

What is random text guy was legit?
(I still don't think he was) but IF he was...
I shut down because WHAT IF HE WASN'T?

It reminds me of something someone said
ABOUT TRYING DIFFERENT FOODS.

I said: What if you like it?
She said: But what if I don't?

What if I gave him a chance?
Since he has already shown me
THAT HE GOT FRUSTRATED WITH ME
FOR ASKING QUESTIONS
WHEN I HAVE THAT RIGHT...

This is a sign of deception.
WHY SHOULD IT MATTER
WHAT I AM ASKING?
IF WHY I AM ASKING IS LEGIT?

Because why go on "this is my story"
WITH NO WAY OF VERIFYING ANYTHING...

And yes, I would like to verify some things.
And if there is an issue with doing that, 
THAT IS TELLING ME SOMETHING.

Because anyone can pretend to be anyone online.
I pretended I was someone else
TO VERBALLY WHOOP THEIR @SS
BECAUSE HE REFUSED TO HEAR IT FROM "ME"
THAT EGO NEEDED TO BE BUSTED.

So yeah, I did that.

I'm aware other people can, too.
Even people who were READING MY MESSAGES
TO SOMEONE AND KNOW WHAT I'M ABOUT
THAT'S WHY THEY GO OUT OF THEIR WAY
TO TRY TO DISGRACE ME IN ANY WAY
DEVALUE ME, ETC.

I KNOW THEY COULD EASILY DO THAT.
BECAUSE THEY HAVE THAT NUMBER.
THAT SPECIFIC NUMBER.

TO TRY TO DO THE SAME TO ME.
BUT IT DOESN'T WORK
BECAUSE I'M NOT ON AN EGO TRIP.
I ONLY DID IT BECAUSE THEY WERE ON AN EGO TRIP.

BECAUSE IF THEY WEREN'T
THEY WOULDN'T HAVE DONE WHAT THEY DID.
BECAUSE I DID F*CK ALL TO THEM.

They could have just treated me properly.
They had the chances to do that.
ALL THEY HAD TO DO WAS DO THAT.
DID THEY?

And what if they didn't do that
because some people who DIDN'T WANT TO SEE IT HAPPEN
DIDN'T WANT TO SEE IT HAPPEN.

But now that I could get ATTENTION, TOO...
NOW THINGS ARE DIFFERENT?

Because I COULD BE with someone else?

Some people don't want to see how they sabotage themselves
AND THEY WILL TRY TO BLAME YOU
FOR THEM SABOTAGING THEMSELVES
BUT IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT THAT THEY DO IT.

AND IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT THAT THEY CAN'T
JUST BE HONEST WITH THEMSELVES.
AND HOW CAN THEY BE HONEST WITH YOU
IF THEY CAN'T BE HONEST WITH THEMSELVES?

What bugs me, too:
IS THEM NOT SEEING HOW GOOD THEY HAD IT
WHILE THEY HAD IT GOOD.

But you we can't 'force' something and call it good.
I WASN'T TRYING TO.

When you're giving your best you're trying to make it good.

BUT NOT EVERYONE DESERVES
THE VERY BEST OF YOU
TO TAKE IT ALL FOR GRANTED?

AND THEN WHEN YOU'RE LIKE:
NO THANKS. I DON'T WANT TO BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED.
ALSO, WHY SETTLE FOR PARTIAL TRUTHS?

People have done things to my face.
LET ALONE BEHIND MY BACK.

Is it okay that I focus on my interests?
Without anyone doing something to my face?
Let alone behind my back?

So that maybe, in this life time, I can at least try
to be comfortable with myself
AFTER ALL THE DEVALUING...
ALL THE SUPERFICIAL BS.

In this f*cking life time.

Because it's not all about being with someone.
EVEN WHEN YOU HAVE PURE INTENTIONS.

BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE DOES.
Seen too much of it.