Barely Blogging

Been working on a WordPress site lately. I'm getting quite a bit done, so far.
It's going to take a while to get it looking the way I want it to look. 
Been buckling down and focusing on that, doing a bit each day. 
Been getting tired earlier, lately. 
Maybe because of daylight savings time.
The sun goes down super early now. 
It's dark before 8pm now.

Still got a lot of thoughts and ideas going and I want to try to take my projects somewhere.
I have a bunch of things I want to do this year, and next year.
Stuff I need to learn how to do... 

There was a time that I didn't know how to get a domain name. 
There was a time I didn't know how to get hosting. 
There was a time I didn't know any HTML or CSS.

So have I come a long way from where I was?
Sometimes it's hard to say if I have or not.

Does learning things make me move forward?
Or am I just learning things?

Am I focusing on things that are a waste of time?
Or am I just learning things?

Sometimes I wonder if I am, or have been...
Or if I'm actually going to get somewhere with this, 
or with something else... 

But, I've been getting tired and mostly want to go to bed early.
Then I push myself to stay awake.
And try to get some things done that move me a tiny bit closer to a goal.

Grammarly's been helpful, but kind of pisses me off sometimes.
I guess the way I "say" things isn't correct. Pffft.
Today, I tried to fix a couple sentences 10 times
before I FINALLY made it a correct sentence, ffs.

It is trying to ding me for "ffs," but I'm not changing it, ha.
It would probably blow a gasket if it tried to correct all my posts on here.
Especially the drunken ones I used to write...
I cringe when I go back in the archives... 
"That used to be me?!" Yes, that used to be me.

Anyway, I was just popping on here to say that blogging
helped me in a lot of ways. 
I can look back and see how much I've changed, 
or think I've changed.
Maybe I have in some regards. Maybe not.

Maybe I'm trying to gauge my growth.
Some people have said that they have seen a difference in me.
So, that's comforting. Maybe I am changing. 

I definitely didn't like who I was... 
I didn't like feeling the way I used to feel. 
Sometimes I still feel that way, but it passes faster now. 
Maybe because I know that I don't need to get sucked into that.
Or "back" into that. Because that doesn't have to be me anymore.
If that makes any sense.

Sometimes I wonder if the things I write make sense,
or if I think they do, to me. Does that make sense?

That's not why I haven't been writing on here.
Not a lot has been going on around here
and trying to keep busy with these things I want to do. 

Just pretty tired, tonight, too. I ate well today.
For the first time in a while.
People have been saying that I've been losing weight.

Someone suggested that I need more protein.
Which I probably do. 

So I started eating more eggs.

Then I told my friend that I was eating about 4 eggs per day,
and she told me that's too much protein and that too much protein
is hard to digest... At least I know that, now.

Still eating whole wheat bread. The brand I like started a new kind...
"Everything" bread. Like "everything" bagels, but it's bread.
Probably shouldn't gorge on bread, either, though. 

I was told that bread is carbs and carbs are like "fake" energy.
Or something along those lines.
Today I went and stocked up on fruit. 
I got oranges, pears, pomegranates, and dragon fruits.

I ended up getting some pastries, too. 
I guess to go with my tea. 

Pretty much my whole day is typing and drinking tea.
And thinking about these projects on my mind.
Among other things, but slowly starting to do better than I was.

So I met my friend at the mall today and we went shopping and had lunch together.
She's such a nice lady. 
I have to keep remembering that she is blind. 
I have to keep trying to remember that we go up in the elevator
and not try to take the escalator with her.
She's already told me at least 3 times...

I guess it's that I take my sight for granted, 
and forget sometimes that she can barely see.

She said she started losing her sight about 15 years ago...
It could happen to any of us. 

One time, I was basically fainting, and I had my eyes open... 
I couldn't see anything for 5 minutes and I thought I was dying. 

That was one of the scariest things that happened to me.

That, and one time I fainted when I was using the toilet.
I woke up with my lower half still on the toilet 
and my upper half was on the side of the tub. That was kinda scary.

I haven't fallen again since that day I fell 3 times.
When I fell, I fell into things, hit my head.

Then I fell again, trying to get up.

I was watching a new series I really liked.
And then there was some press release that one of the founders
has been charged on some pretty serious charges, 
they go back to '92. I was 8 in '92.
That was the year my youngest brother was born.

Anyway, there is no statute of limits on these charges, 
or however that is put. Not in the state where the crimes happened.
Supposedly he confessed. So Idk what's going to happen.

So I don't know if they'll be making any more videos, 
at least for a while... Probably lost their sponsors, I'd imagine.
Or maybe they'll rebrand it and start a new channel. Idk.

And for whatever reason, some videos from a trial I'd watched a bit on
kept coming up in my feed so I watched more videos on that.
Idk why. Now it's hard to get it off my mind.

The guy got 17 life sentences, back to back, 
then 17 sentences of 25 - life on top of that, back to back.
There's no way he'll ever get out. 

They were saying that in his state, they have the death penalty...
So someone was saying "If we didn't use it for this, when will we use it?"
He has a point.

It's that inmates can wait on death row for years. 

Anyway, I don't know why I kept watching it.
There are other things to watch on youtube.
Or why it came up on my feed because the last I watched anything on that
was closer to when it happened... So why now?

Maybe I should watch something and go to bed.
Goodnight.