Many Hits

Took a break from blogging. 
Not much is going on in my life... Not a shocker... 

Still taking my meds, the mood stabilizer helps. 
PROBABLY should have gotten on it a while back. 
The other meds weren't really doing it for me. 
I take meds to help me sleep and keep me asleep. 
I had a hard time sleeping. Nightmares, jolts, etc. 

I put some videos on loop to help me sleep. That helps. 
Sleeping better than I used to sleep. 
The meds help. 
They don't take long to take effect.

Been noticing many hits on the latest posts I wrote. 
Been wondering if most of those came from my ex. 
Since I only have a handful of readers... 

Maybe because I haven't written in a while...
I don't really know. 
Nothing much to write about. 

Trying to start affiliate marketing stuff. 
We'll see how that goes... 
I'm okay with how things are going so far. 
My site isn't set up, fully, yet. 
Been pretty tired. 

My plan is to make it a free membership site. 
And those who subscribe get my emails
and I'll be putting links in those emails, etc. 

We'll see how that goes. Not really expecting much to come out of it. 
But who knows?
Even a couple hundred extra a month could really help me. 
And if I could put some money aside and actually save it this time.. 

That would help. Maybe make enough to start a new life...
Legally change my name, change where I live, 
start my life over again... 

Yes, it does feel like I'm running away...
But do I have a choice?
Sometimes I think things could get better. 
Sometimes I get scared. 
Sometimes I don't know... 

Just would like to be happy. 

But everything I used to turn to for my happiness
didn't make me happy... 
After a while... 

And been watching so many videos of relationships gone very bad
that I'm okay being single...

Would rather be alone than be taken for granted
or worse... I'll be okay.

Anyway... I don't have much to write about.