Things Change

The one thing that's been really consistent in my life
Is that things change. 
Between people, relationships. 
Because people change... 
Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worst. 

I am not a fan of change.
Mostly because the changes that happened in my life
weren't for the best... 
Sometimes, maybe blessings in disguise. 
Whether I want to admit that or not... 
It's easy to deny it, 
because when we don't want to admit it, 
it's harder to admit it... 

Still having hope for hopeless situations, etc. 
WHY?
Just because I want there to be hope
when there isn't any?

Changes need to me MADE, 
or else they just happen... 

A friend told me that the things that happen TO us, 
happen FOR us... 
For a reason... 

Same goes for what we are doing... 
There are reasons we do things.

Like there were reasons I used to drink
and used to try to date when I wasn't ready.

There's lots of reasons for everything
falling apart in my life, too. 
Things that had to do with me, things that don't. 
Not ALL things were my fault, 
but there were things that were my fault... 

I was pretty selfish when I was younger. 
I kept chasing things I thought were going to make me happy
instead of just being happy with what I had. 
Instead of working on myself. 

I have time, now, to work on myself. 
Since I've lost everything... Pretty much. 

It's been hard to rebuild... After everything... 
And I have to let some things go and people go
and work on myself more.