Back To Shore

Been a busy week, I guess. 
I met a chick at the beach and we hung out all weekend. 
We're going to hang out on Wednesday night and
she wants to introduce me to one of her friends on Thursday
because he's got the day off. 

We may go camping this summer. Not sure yet. 
Was thinking of getting camping gear anyway. 
In case I have to split from here.
Been thinking about figuring out something
with the things I have.
Because I feel like I won't need much where I'm going.
....Wherever that is.

I really need to go IN. And invest on myself. 
I find it hard to be outgoing and extroverted like my friends.

And they are used to having things go their way
and used to just asking for what they want. 

And I end up doing things they want me to do. 
And I just want to be myself. 
I don't like being bossed around. 
One friend told me that she was merely making suggestions, 
but it was getting to be a lot.... 
And I have to process everything she says. 
It takes a lot of energy!

I just feel.... Hard to explain.
SAD is the only way I can explain it.

I'm supposed to see a friend tomorrow.
I went and got us a treat.
So it'll be nice for us tomorrow. 

I'm probably going to bed soon. 

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...I went to bed and slept for a while...

Been getting tension headaches at the base of my skull.
It's been a while since I got those and I didn't miss them. 
They hurt, a lot. 
Even the pain takes a lot of energy....
Makes my stomach feel rough, too. 

The other day, I took my bike down to my friend's place. 
Before I left, I thought I had plenty of air in my tires. 
He even asked me if I had air in my tires. 
He has a pump and it says how many pounds of air is in the tires. 
The tires take 50 pounds of air. 
When he started filling them up, the back tire had 7 pounds. 
The front tire was flatter. It had only 4 pounds. 

He said: "I don't know how you rode it to my house.
You're lucky you're light."

Speaking of a pump and being light.... 
I have an inflatable boat. 
My friend wants to take it out on the river. 
1) I don't know if it's big enough for the both of us. 
2) I don't know how I feel about just drifting. 

When I was a kid, there was a boat like it at the cottage. 
And we always tied it to a rope off the dock. 
So that the current wouldn't take the boat too far away.
Could just drift, but not too far away from the dock
and used the rope to pull myself back to shore.