Changed My Lights

So I had someone come and change my lights.
He was nice to me.
As per his job.
When he was leaving he said, 
"Anything else I can do for you?"
I thought: A date would be nice....
But didn't say that...

It was nice that he was nice to me.

If the kitchen is open tomorrow, I'm going back.
It'll be my first day back in over a year.
I'm still not out of depression. 
If anything, I've been in a worse place than before.
I was sad over my son before, 
but this hits different. 
A different kind of pain. 

I've been trying to comfort myself with:
If I could, I would. 

I have to let him ride this out, himself
and hopefully learn some things that he needs to learn. 
I still want to have a hand in sending someone his way
who will listen to him. 
Who might be able to help him. 

Because I still love him. 

Seems that I have to let go of lots of people
who treated me badly, who don't deserve me. 

Some roads we need to go down alone. 
No friends, no family, just us, alone. 
Alone with the Universe.

Leaving behind everyone and anyone 
who did not appreciate us or value us.
Who just took us for granted....