Be Careful!

Was just out for a walk today. 
A man I never met before, stopped me to ask me something. 
He asked me if I could go anywhere in Europe, where I'd go. 
He said that he was going to take a trip this weekend. 
I said Scotland. He seemed to like the idea
and he said it resonated with him. 
He showed me his Masonic ring. 
He invited me to go with him.... 
Who does that?
I declined the offer. Obviously. 
What was he expecting? 
Like he'd pay for me to go (I don't even have a passport)
and he'd be expecting me to 'pay' him back?!

Just was an odd experience. 
A very bold offer. To say the least. 

Like, yeah.... Let's go on vacation with a stranger!
I wouldn't even have the money to come back.
If anything happened to me....

I have family who were Masons. 
I don't know if that would provide me with protection or what. 
But I just couldn't take that offer. 
Surprised that it was even an offer....

Like: "Sure, Mr. Stranger. Let's travel the world together!"

Been really struggling with accepting some things, 
but I can't accept random offers of major trips. 
From strangers. That is a major thing. 

I have to do some work on my business and get it off the ground. 

I remember a time I had met a guy at a bar. 
He was very nice to me and generous to me, 
but I realized that he liked me more than a friend. 
And then it became very awkward after that. 

It's very hard for me to trust anyone. 
Even when I want to trust. 
But random offers of trips and stuff like that... 
In the first conversation.... It's... A big flag. 
Like "Trust me right away!"
Trust takes time to build. It can take forever to build. 
And even then... 

But he was kind of asking for blind trust.... 
It didn't sit right with me. 
Kind of like: "Hey lady, want to get into my car?"

I did accept a ride from a stranger, a few times. 

But I stopped hitchhiking because it got dangerous. 
I actually jumped out of a moving car
when a guy put his hand on my leg... 
I hid under a car parked in someone's laneway. 
Watched him drive around looking for me.... 
I've been lucky.... Very lucky. 
And I've been stupid, very stupid... 

Been trying to talk myself into believing
that things are going to turn out. 
My life has been changing in a lot of ways... 
I feel like big changes are coming around the corner. 
And I can only hope they are good changes. 
That I can heal and regenerate. 
Despite what I've been through in my life....

"I'll be okay." I try to tell myself. 
I try to trust in that. Even though it is hard. 
It's so hard to trust but sometimes we have to. 
Because if we don't, we won't... 
But we do have to be careful out there....