Been working on my project tonight. Now I can't sleep. I keep thinking about my project. I want to commit this stuff to memory so I have to keep going over it again and again.
Still working on 'Security'. It's the first part. It has 4 parts.
Trying to memorize it. I'm hoping by learning this stuff that my memory will improve.
That's always a bonus with learning.
Each of the 4 parts have their own parts. Those parts have parts.
I know it sounds complicated, but it's my way of breaking it down.
I started a spread sheet as a quick reference guide.
I was making tables, but the spread sheet combines it all into one place.
That's what I want. A one stop shop type thing.
Once it is all in my memory, it will be a one stop shop type thing.
I wish I could sleep. I need to sleep.
Just always have a hard time getting to sleep. Unless I'm really tired.
Without enough sleep, I get irritable. I don't like being grumpy.
Not sure if it is anxiety or what.
High blood pressure causes anxiety and anxiety can cause high blood pressure.
I think that is what my issue is.
This project stuff is really helping me, though. I should have started a long time ago.
The problem was that I didn't know where to start. Or how.
I found myself a good starting point. I discovered that there isn't just one way to do things.
There are multiple ways of doing a multitude of things.
The key is to just do it.
Someone told me something tonight that got me thinking.
He said: "The key with keys is that there was never a lock. So why do you need a key?"
I still believe there are keys to certain things and that certain things are key.
I think I'm feeling anxious because I can imagine how different my life will be...
And how different I will be in the future as a result of incorporating these concepts.
My project is conceptual. Concepts are just basically applications because they can be applied.
Instead of getting apps for a phone (that I don't have), I'm getting apps for my life. For myself.
It seems I always have the same issues when I try to sleep.
My mind starts going a million miles per second. I keep thinking of things I want/need to do.
But all in all, I'm feeling a whole lot better.
Progress has a way of making me feel better. About anything.
Progress is something to believe in. It helps me believe in myself.
Confidence = belief in myself.
Belief in myself = confidence.
There is actually a confidence cycle: (the positive cycle)
Confidence leads to Ambition
Ambition leads to Higher goals
Higher goals leads to Motivation
Motivation leads to Success
Success leads back to Confidence
Then the doubt cycle: (the negative cycle)
Doubt leads to Lack of ambition
Lack of ambition leads to Lack of higher goals
Lack of higher goals leads to Lack of motivation
Lack of motivation leads to Failure
Failure leads back to Doubt
It's good to look at both sides of things.
Without a negative, there would not be a positive.
Without a positive, there would be no negative.
Both sides of the spectrum give you a better perspective.
I think perspectives feed other perspectives.
They keep building on each other.
Both positive ones,
And negative ones.
It really does matter how you look at things, and what you look at.
Again... (I'll keep saying it)
"When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."
And...
"It's not the light at the end of the tunnel that is the illusion. The tunnel is."
Still working on 'Security'. It's the first part. It has 4 parts.
Trying to memorize it. I'm hoping by learning this stuff that my memory will improve.
That's always a bonus with learning.
Each of the 4 parts have their own parts. Those parts have parts.
I know it sounds complicated, but it's my way of breaking it down.
I started a spread sheet as a quick reference guide.
I was making tables, but the spread sheet combines it all into one place.
That's what I want. A one stop shop type thing.
Once it is all in my memory, it will be a one stop shop type thing.
I wish I could sleep. I need to sleep.
Just always have a hard time getting to sleep. Unless I'm really tired.
Without enough sleep, I get irritable. I don't like being grumpy.
Not sure if it is anxiety or what.
High blood pressure causes anxiety and anxiety can cause high blood pressure.
I think that is what my issue is.
This project stuff is really helping me, though. I should have started a long time ago.
The problem was that I didn't know where to start. Or how.
I found myself a good starting point. I discovered that there isn't just one way to do things.
There are multiple ways of doing a multitude of things.
The key is to just do it.
Someone told me something tonight that got me thinking.
He said: "The key with keys is that there was never a lock. So why do you need a key?"
I still believe there are keys to certain things and that certain things are key.
I think I'm feeling anxious because I can imagine how different my life will be...
And how different I will be in the future as a result of incorporating these concepts.
My project is conceptual. Concepts are just basically applications because they can be applied.
Instead of getting apps for a phone (that I don't have), I'm getting apps for my life. For myself.
It seems I always have the same issues when I try to sleep.
My mind starts going a million miles per second. I keep thinking of things I want/need to do.
But all in all, I'm feeling a whole lot better.
Progress has a way of making me feel better. About anything.
Progress is something to believe in. It helps me believe in myself.
Confidence = belief in myself.
Belief in myself = confidence.
There is actually a confidence cycle: (the positive cycle)
Confidence leads to Ambition
Ambition leads to Higher goals
Higher goals leads to Motivation
Motivation leads to Success
Success leads back to Confidence
Then the doubt cycle: (the negative cycle)
Doubt leads to Lack of ambition
Lack of ambition leads to Lack of higher goals
Lack of higher goals leads to Lack of motivation
Lack of motivation leads to Failure
Failure leads back to Doubt
It's good to look at both sides of things.
Without a negative, there would not be a positive.
Without a positive, there would be no negative.
Both sides of the spectrum give you a better perspective.
I think perspectives feed other perspectives.
They keep building on each other.
Both positive ones,
And negative ones.
It really does matter how you look at things, and what you look at.
Again... (I'll keep saying it)
"When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."
And...
"It's not the light at the end of the tunnel that is the illusion. The tunnel is."
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