Starting to feel better now. Better than I have all week, Maybe it was the run and the exercise that did me some good. Is nice to know that I can still skip as well as I did before I had stopped. I stopped because my ankles were sore. But couldn't get back into it until last night. I would have kept going and going. Might have broken my record (54 consecutive), but lost so much weight that my pants kept falling and had to keep stopping to pull them back up. I wasn't trying to lose weight, but I ended up losing 25 pounds. People at work have noticed and asked me how I did it.
I think it had to do with quitting drinking. All the beer and other stuff helped me pack on the weight. It was all calories not getting burned. I really needed that run and the skipping helps blow off steam.
I was at the hospital tonight because I told my Grandmother I'd go. My Aunt was there. I didn't want to leave right away because I'd just gotten there. But I couldn't stay very long.
Was kind of funny though. The lady sharing a room with my Grandmother was asking my Aunt if she was my mother. Then telling my Aunt how good I am with my Grandmother.
The lady: "She loves her Grandma."
My Aunt (looking annoyed): "They all do."
I found that funny. I go to the hospital 4 times a week and none of my cousins have gone, even ONCE. I can understand the ones who live too far away to go see her, but the ones who are close could have at any time. Even on weekends. But no, they are too wrapped up in themselves to care. To care enough about their grandmother.
Like I was saying to someone about that stupid ice bucket challenge that was going around on facebook.... People will jump right on that, but won't go visit their Grandparents.
About a week ago, there was an ending in my life. It was a brief thing, but it affected me more than it should have. Today is the first day that I actually am starting to feel better about life. We all make mistakes but it could have been so much worse if it went any further than it did.
I can make some choices regarding it. I can change the way I look at it.
"When we change the way we look at things, the things we look at change."
If I start seeing it as not being a bad thing, then it'll not be a bad thing. It's not. In lots of ways it is a good thing. I have to look at it that way. The more I look at it that way, the better I will feel. It will still take time, but I will feel so much better one day.
The paths we take down the wrong roads might lead us to the right roads.
So much more to contemplate. So much more to anticipate.
I have to have patience with faith, for faith to be patient with me.
One of these days my head and heart will both be in the same place, at the same time.
I think it had to do with quitting drinking. All the beer and other stuff helped me pack on the weight. It was all calories not getting burned. I really needed that run and the skipping helps blow off steam.
I was at the hospital tonight because I told my Grandmother I'd go. My Aunt was there. I didn't want to leave right away because I'd just gotten there. But I couldn't stay very long.
Was kind of funny though. The lady sharing a room with my Grandmother was asking my Aunt if she was my mother. Then telling my Aunt how good I am with my Grandmother.
The lady: "She loves her Grandma."
My Aunt (looking annoyed): "They all do."
I found that funny. I go to the hospital 4 times a week and none of my cousins have gone, even ONCE. I can understand the ones who live too far away to go see her, but the ones who are close could have at any time. Even on weekends. But no, they are too wrapped up in themselves to care. To care enough about their grandmother.
Like I was saying to someone about that stupid ice bucket challenge that was going around on facebook.... People will jump right on that, but won't go visit their Grandparents.
About a week ago, there was an ending in my life. It was a brief thing, but it affected me more than it should have. Today is the first day that I actually am starting to feel better about life. We all make mistakes but it could have been so much worse if it went any further than it did.
I can make some choices regarding it. I can change the way I look at it.
"When we change the way we look at things, the things we look at change."
If I start seeing it as not being a bad thing, then it'll not be a bad thing. It's not. In lots of ways it is a good thing. I have to look at it that way. The more I look at it that way, the better I will feel. It will still take time, but I will feel so much better one day.
The paths we take down the wrong roads might lead us to the right roads.
So much more to contemplate. So much more to anticipate.
I have to have patience with faith, for faith to be patient with me.
One of these days my head and heart will both be in the same place, at the same time.
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