There's a guy I've been attracted to recently and my nickname for him is Captain Jones. The poem explains why I call him that. The poetry is well over the top lately. That's pretty much all I've been focusing on creatively. Anyway, I didn't get to see him today because I don't think he has classes on wednesdays. I did ask him if he'd read my poems (except the one I wrote about him) And there are other ones that aren't about him, but I still need to keep from him so he doesn't think they are about him.
I'm nervous about asking him to read these poems of mine. Even more nervous than I would be asking him on a date. I have asked a guy on a date before because if I wait for the guy to ask me, I'd be waiting forever and I'd never get a date at all.
I'm pretty sure this guy has a girlfriend and he only talks to me to be polite. I sincerely doubt he has any interest in me whatsoever. I cannot say that the attraction is mild. When I think about it, there is something that happens that never happened when I thought about anyone else. I know it sounds stupid and probably is stupid, but that is just a feeling that doesn't mean anything.
I started calling him that secretly, but I guess the secret isn't a big secret anymore.
Not that it's ever going to turn into anything real.
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