7 Degrees of Separation

I went to a meeting today at the employment services. I was hoping to get a job placement, but instead I got a list of phone numbers and places to go. It was helpful to a certain extend, but I am the kind of person who needs immediate action. I know that rome wasn't built in a day, but when you have been trying as hard as I have been the last couple of months to find something - anything at all, it gets really depressing.

I really need something to fall into place. It's not what you know it is who you know because they know people who know people and so forth. I went to IH and I got the security basics certificate, but they never called me back after the second interview. The lady I met today knows the owner, so now I have a contact beyond the recruitment officer and screening interviewer. I have to call him tomorrow.

I have to fix my resume and email it back to my employment officer along with my cover letter, which I will probably have to fix when I get it back. I have a list of things to do and places to go and a deadline of one week. Do you think it will get me somewhere? We shall see.

I will be disappointed if I go home and there aren't any messages on my answering machine. My employment officer told me to "wake up, and see that (I) am good". I felt like telling her that I will believe it when I see it. That reminds me of an email I got today saying something that was meant to be inspiring: It's not about 'findin yourself.... It's about creating yourself. Yeah funny. Funny how life is sometimes. In order to construct, one might have to destruct to make room for the addition. I'm not about to have a breakdown. I can't afford to do that, but the only thing I have to lose is my sanity. Sometimes I wonder if I even have that left, or if I ever had that at all. I read on Megastir's blog that sanity is the playground for the unimanagitive. I have been thinking of that a lot lately. If you can image you can create, if you can dream, you then have a goal. When you have a goal, you can truly aspire, when you aspire, you can achieve. Please let me achieve something I look back on and be proud of. I have achieved so much already, but those were just stepping stones. I need to build a bridge, a bridge that will take me to the next location in this journey called life. Cross your fingers for me.

If only I still had my four leafed clover!