I Applied to MD's Today

I went to MD's to hand in my application. The manager was busy so I gave my application and resume to the cashier when I ordered. After I had finished my lunch, I went back to the counter and my application and resume was still sitting there. I wasn't impressed. I wanted to say to the b*tch: "Give my f*cking resume to the manager like I had asked you to do half an hour ago!" but instead, I calmly said: "Is the manager available to speak to me about my resume?" I knew the manager was still busy because it's always hopping in there around lunch time. I just wanted to see her give him my resume before I left or it would have been sitting on the counter all day. I realize that they were working, but give a gal a chance! Give me a chance or give me a break. After all the effort I put into things, I just want some sort of a return. Nothing major, I can't even expect that, let alone ask for it. Just open a window for me because most of the doors I have ever knocked on are bolted shut. If you don't open a window for me, give me something solid like a rock so that I can break the window and get in on my own. Why do these things have to be so complicated?

I saw a couple of guys at MD's who had a sign and it was obvious that they were traveling. One of them smiled and gave me a respectful nodd so I asked where they were traveling from. He said that they were from Montreal and they were going to Victoria, BC. I gave them what little change I had and said: "I hope this helps." I gave it to them because they did not ask or beg for it and they were respectful towards me. The guy I ran into before, who begged me for money, can go get a job somewhere. I know what it's like to travel. I used to travel alone. I am still very grateful to those who had helped me on my journey and I will remember them for the rest of my life. It doesn't take much to put a smile on someone's face.

One thing that would make me smile is knowing that I have something to fall back onto. I need that job and I have to go home tonight and pray that I get it. I want to be able to do something with my life instead of waste it. I can only help others if others help me. If I get a job, I can help those who are in need. If I won the lotto, it would be on a larger scale. I'd want to donate money to an organization that would build schools in foreign countries. I would name the school after my Grandfather. I have always wanted to do that, but it takes time and money to really help people. I have the rest of my life worth of time, but as for money... I wouldn't be applying to MD's if it wasn't the last resort. I think the very last resort would be applying for another loan and going back to school. Although I want to go back, I have to repay my debt. I have a strong need to repay my debt to society, but I need the opportunity to do so.