I Hope It Works Out

Tonight, I hope I started a ball rolling. 

I know a guy who I met through guys I worked with. 

The first guy, was his grandfather. He trained me. 
He was so awesome!

Then, I met his father whom I also worked with. 

Then, I worked with his mother's ex bf.

And the guy was like 10 when I met him. 

Anyway, he made a really cool app. 

Although I won't say what it does, it has to do with gaming. 

So, tonight, I was looking for software companies. 
To contact at least one of them to see if I could get them
to give us an appointment to at least meet with us and talk with us. 

I sent them a link to a video of him testing his app. 

He doesn't know that I contacted the software company. 

If he gets to show them, and they like it, I'll be so happy for him!

It'd be cool if he even gets to work there. 

The company is based in O-town. 

I made a post in a fb about it to find testers for him, 

but a better idea is if we got the software company
to help test it out at the kids' hospital. 

It could be a great experience for them, 
and although they can do some fun things at the hospital...
It's a freaking hospital.

Any chance to forget they are there and why and to just have fun for the day...
What'd be wrong with that?

I can come up with ideas. Just getting ideas to the right people...

Anyway, I really hope it works out for him. 

Seeing a friend doing something awesome, 
of course I'm going to try to support him in doing it. 

If it does work out for him, in a huge way, great!

Never know until you try, right?

I don't mind "trying" to reach out to others
on someone's behalf. 

He's so modest that he wouldn't have done it himself. 

I told them, in the email, that he doesn't know I contacted them. 
Because he doesn't. 

Maybe they'll want to contact him themselves after seeing the video. 
Which is what I'm really hoping they will do. 

I'll give them until the end of next week and I'll contact them again. 

Bugs me most people don't listen to me.

EVEN WHEN I TELL THEM "HEY CHECK THIS OUT."

USUALLY A REASON.

Just takes one person to see potential in it.
Well, one person who can do "something."
I already see the potential there...

I can't be the only one who does.

I'm just kinda excited about it.
And it's not even my thing to be excited about lol. 

Anyway, it'd be so cool if they were like:
"This is exactly what we've been looking for!"

And "We want to hire you!" "Out of the blue."
I'd be so happy for him!!!!

I just told them that I contacted the company and sent them the link.
He seems happy that I did that.

I'd be happy if something comes of it. It might, right?

Pretty exhausted tonight. I went with my neighbor, fishing. 
I recorded some footage for him. 

I'm trying to get him to create his own content. 
He doesn't really "need" me to be there.

Anyone could film it, y'know?

He tries to give me "a hand" when I'm climbing. 

I just don't want to be touched. At all. 

Would he "give his hand" to any of the guys?
They'd tell him to fk off.

We went down by the dam today...
Technically yesterday. 

Too Dang Hot

The internet says it feels like 37C. 
I don't know what that is in F.

But, I know that -40C and -40F are the same.
The only point where C and F meet is at -40 degrees.

Hottest on record, here, for this time of year.

I'm hoping it cools down a bit by the end of the month.

The next game at the stadium is the end of the month.
O-town's playing E-town. 

Last game, O-town won. 

I got there just as the game was ending.

Just my luck. 
Finding a ticket to go to the game
and not getting to go!

I can watch it from the hill, though.

The hill's just on the other side of the fence from the stadium. 
I can watch it from there.

I miss when the exhibition was there.
My step-father worked at the arcade.

We stored the prizes for the claw machines 
in our basement when I still lived at home.

Anyway, we'd go there and play whatever games we wanted.
Technically for free.

They'd give us a bunch of quarters to use.
They were going to get them back anyway.

Even though they could have made more money...

It was cool like that.

The machines where you had to try to push the money
off the edge of the ledge... That was a cool one.

I saw a video about how a laundomat owner had one
at the laundromat and someone broke it
to get the money out of it.

I think the story went that when he replaced it, 
it happened again.

Imagine having to have a security guard at a laundromat?
I have to go to one, soon. 

It's not that far away.
I'd like to check out the one that has a coffee shop in it.
I went to it, when I lived in the rooming house, 
but it didn't have a coffee shop back then.

It's a good business to have. 

A lot of people can't afford their own washer and dryer.

There's a guy somewhere who bought a school bus
and he turned it into a laundry/shower bus
for the homeless to be able to bathe and have clean clothes.
He's an example of how if you have a vision like that, 
it's possible to actually do it.

Anyway, probably going to work on my sites today.
At some point. There's more organizing to do, too. 
I'm up for it today. 

Yesterday, I wasn't feeling the greatest...
Still managed to do some things.

Also, I gotta find the guitar strings I have.

My neighbor asked me for a specific string that he broke.
So that he can replace that and he wants to buy keys for it.

It's an Ovation guitar and he said they don't make them anymore.

He got it on a trade for a bike lol. 

So, I gotta find those... I put them *somewhere.*

Also, I gotta use up more wool and finish some projects.

Haven't been crocheting or knitting for a while.
I took a break from it because I was working on something...
The stitches are so tight that my hands were sore.

Sometimes I throw a movie on and work on something while watching it.

I went through entire series like that.

Series from my childhood that I saw the episodes before.
Just had been so long and how could I remember each one
after years and years but the nostalgia's still there.

Like "My Secret Identity," "Small Wonder," "Golden Girls..."
I also used to watch "Are you afraid of the dark?" lol.

All those Nickelodeon shows and YTV shows...
Nick got "the slime" idea from the show filmed in O-town
called "you can't do that on television."

When someone said the trigger word, they got slimed.
"I don't know."

When they said "water" they got water dumped on them.

And they had "locker jokes" and El Capitan. 

CJOH came up with that show. 
Wanted to start a show by kids for kids.
It took off and they even showed it in the USA.

Probably not the entire USA, but in NY.
A friend who used to live in NY, from Chile...
He told me he loved that show.

Funny thing is that we met around the corner from there.

He didn't know it was filmed here.
One of our claims to fame.

Just something "light" to watch.
A guy I went to school with was in one episode
of "are you afraid of the dark?"

I don't know how he managed that, but he did.

He was telling everyone at school. I watched the episode.
I remember that kid, but I forget his sister's name.

They were on the same school bus as me.

Maybe I should go by that school for nostalgia's sake.
I was there for grade 2 and 3 and part of grade 4.

In grade 4 I was put in another "school" which wasn't really
a regular school.

It was called "the child study center."
It was at the university...

Small class sizes and I was the only girl in my class.

In grade 8, I was the only girl in my class, too.

After that, I went to a normal school for grades 5, 6, 7, 8, etc.

Except in high school I was in SSU for grade 9.
SSU for grade 7 and 8, too.

And grade 10 - OAC... At an alternative school.
OAC is a college prep thing. They ended it.
It only goes up to grade 12 now.

OAC was right after grade 12.
I finished high school a month before my son was born.

Exactly a month before he was born, I got my last high school credit.
I went to school while pregnant.

At least I finished high school before he was born. Barely.
He was born before my high school grad.
Someone had to hold him when I got my diploma.
He was a baby.

I wasn't invited to his grad, but he graduated.

School's been hard because of @sshole kids.
And @sshole teachers.

Some things seem to be worse, now.
Than when I was in school.

It did suck when I was in school, though.

Still Hard To Sleep

I actually heard from my son!
He asked for help applying for college.

I am surprised to hear from him.
I started a education fund thing for him
when he was 3 months old so it gathered interest.

One of the best moves I made for him.

Crazy that my kid's getting ready for college...
I was dating his father when I was in college.

I started my college course when my son was 8 months old.
He was at a good day care I was lucky to get him into.

My mom wanted $400/month to look after her own grandson.
I thought she was volunteering so I didn't make other plans
and sprung that on me knowing I had nobody else.

My ex drove me to school on his way to work.
So we took him to my mom's early. 

My son thought my mom was his aunt and I never said she was.
He thought that my grandmother was his grandmother.

I had to explain to him that who he thought was his aunt
is actually his grandmother.

I might get to take him to my mom's on the weekend.

The last time we got to see each other, it went okay.
I'm happy he asked me to help him. 

We watched ALF together lol.
We watched it when he was a kid...

Crazy my son is actually an adult now.
And almost going to college!

I remember being in college.

I hope he asks me to help him study.

And maybe we could both sign up to be tutors.
The tutors get paid.

Also, I used to work at the college. Night shift.

Got off work at 7:30am...
Started work at 11pm. 

Once, my buddy wanted to go drinking before work...
Other than that, I'd go to the beer store to get beer
to drink when I got home from work.

It was alright to work there, some supervisor who was there
when I was working there...
Last time I was there (I go there sometimes)...
He was still working there. Still is working there.

I wonder who else is still working there I used to work with.

I had a few cool co-workers. Like Roger...
Saying his name because he passed away.

Anyway, he didn't know, but I had a huge crush on him.
He was with a chick who was the ex of another co-worker.
Who she had a son with who is a friend of mine.
Him and his father.
I met his father's father who I used to work with.

We both worked in the P building which is where I had my classes.

I wrote back to my son asking him what he wants to take in college.
I'm glad that he wants to go.
Even though I never got to do much with my college degree...
He could possibly do something with his.

I'm glad that he's not letting his health concerns hold him back. 

It took a long time for him to contact me, but I'm glad that he did.
And that he seems to be okay.

Maybe he could get into a dorm or get a roomie.

Or maybe rent a room from one of my friends.
He has that house in the country and has rented out rooms.
Even if he can stay there temporarily.
While he's in college.

He's met my friend before.

Anyway, I don't want to make too many "plans" for him.
Just want him in a healthier environment.

Maybe he might start going to church.
I remember when he asked me if we could go.
So we went with my friend to his church.

And we went to my friend's baptism. 
He got baptised in the river.

I knew someone who got baptized in a hot tub
At the biker church.
Yes, there is such a thing. I went there before.

I went to his baptism, too.

I was baptized as a baby, and so was my son.

We were baptized at the same church and pretty much
everyone in my family did.

Maybe my aunts and uncle... Maybe my mother...
Both my brothers.
I attended their baptisms, too.

I guess I've attended 5 baptisms so far.

I'm not particularly religious. 
I stopped going to church as a teen.

It seemed like more of a place of gossip, 
not a place of worship.

Besides, if I decide to go, I'll go.

I just tend to have quiet days on Sundays.
And my neighbor wants to go fishing on Sundays.
He gets on the bus for free on Sundays.

Anyway, it'll be nice to see my son and spend time together.
It'd be cool if he can stay at my friend's place.

He needs a better role model.
Way better.

A male role model. 
Even though my buddy can be a j@ck@ss.

Could be good for him.
And to introduce him to my newer friends.

Maybe my neighbor will teach him about fishing.
And we can work on his math site.

I bought him a math domain.

So that he might set up some online tutoring
through his site and he mentioned wanting to do YouTube vids.

My son taught himself calculus. 
He's super into math. He loves it.

There's a guy who was a statistician and he's a musician.
I'd love to introduce him to him.

Like I said, it's about time he had new role models.
Good role models.

People he can learn stuff from.

He might even enjoy himself.

I want to take him out to hang out with my friends and I.
But he might not want to hang out with his mom...

Anyway... I should try to sleep at some point.
It's not as hot as it has been, now.
Supposed to cool down by Wednesday.
Which will be nice.

It'll be nice to eat with my son at my new place.
Could even cook together.

When he was around 10 years old, 
he wanted to bake a cake by himself.

Wanted to surprise me with it.

I knew he was in the kitchen, but he didn't want me in there lol.
Wanted to do it by himself. 

And we ate ice cream with it. It turned out pretty good.
Pretty sure it was his first cake.

His father used to bake me cakes when I was pregnant.

Anyway, I can understand why he's been angry.
But he really needs to talk about it.
We really need to talk about it.

Without arguing about it.

Just listen to me about it.

He's gone through some tough things.
Things that have been really hard for him.

I probably don't know the half of it.

Every time I've tried standing up for myself and him, 
it just made sh*t worse.

I hope he sees that I tried to.

I felt just as powerless about a lot of things
that were beyond my control. 

He's been in a really dark place, though.
He and I need to talk about that, too.
Not just why he's been angry.

I wish he could realize I've been hurt, too.
In a lot of ways by a lot of people
who I never thought would hurt me.

Who I trusted! Y'know?

It's still hard to sleep.

Temp Please Drop

I didn't get all the things done that I was going to do, 
but I did some things around here.

It's been freaking hot in here.
At night, it's hard to sleep.

I need to work on getting organized. 
I did some today.
Doing some is better than doing none.

I've got some things organized... 
But.. It's daunting. 

Packing was daunting. Doing it again?
Well, It wouldn't be as bad.
Smaller places are easier.

Anyway, I should go through my stuff...

Someone told me she wanted to give me clothes, 
but she took a trip to Nova Scotia,
so I dunno when that'll be.

Then I can replace some clothes with new clothes.

I rarely buy new clothes.

A lot of my clothes were given to me.

I've sorted clothes I have and got a lot organized, in there.

There's so other "parts" that are daunting.

I had short notice about the move
and I was so stressed about the move itself, 
making arrangements... Packing...
That I hadn't decluttered.

Started collecting things again.
But found some cool stuff.

I'm not "dirty" just disorganized.
I don't have clothes all over the place...
I don't have grime...

I do have to do a thorough clean, but it's not that bad.
Just surface stuff and organizing.

Other than that, been trying to keep it clean.

I smoked some weed that didn't taste good...
My lungs are kinda rough right now.
I can feel it in my chest.

I've been feeling it before I smoke it.

Good time to slow down or take a break.

When I run out, I take a break...

Anyway, at least I don't smoke cigarettes anymore.

Probably saved a sh*t ton of money.
Except I spent it on other things.

Like Dr. P.
Hard to resist the combo of 23 flavors.
All mixed into one.

Speaking of which...
I got some chips at w@lm@rt
that were 4 flavors in 1.
They are kettle fried chips...

Can you believe they have air fried chips now?
Wild.

I've eaten air fried food...
But haven't gotten one.

My folks have one. My mom uses it.

Anyway, I was lucky to get a free microwave.

Got it off the computer guy.

Then I bought the A/C from another neighbor...

Also bought a leather jacket at a garage sale lol.

If I had only bought this computer, 
I'd be tempted to bring it with me...

It took a bit to save up...

I kinda want to keep it at home
so that I don't accidentally break it somehow.

It's 8:30 pm and still 30 degrees.
If it'd drop 10 degrees, it'd make a difference.

A bit of a breeze tonight.
My neighbor said his side is warm. 

Because of the fans on the roof of the grocery store.

It's cool to be able to sneak over there and it's close.

Fkn expensive though.
I have enough food for a week or so.

Even at like $50/week... It adds up fast.

I got some butter chicken sauce and fries, 
and I got lots of cheese.

Cheese for pasta, too.

Just been eating easy stuff, but at least I'm eating.

Tired all of a sudden... 
Eyes closing from time to time.
Time to go to bed.