Patience Is NOT Permission

By the time I GIVE UP COMPLETELY....
I'VE ALREADY GIVEN MANY CHANCES.

Each chance I gave.... Was an OPPORTUNITY.

I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THE FOUNDATION
FOR SOMEONE ACTIVELY TRYING TO TEAR ME DOWN.

THEY KEEP STALKING ME OR WHATEVER THEY ARE DOING....
BECAUSE THEIR EGO CANNOT ACCEPT THAT THEY LOST.

TANTRUM:
"YOU'RE TOXIC..." *BLOCK*

I WAS ONLY "TOXIC" WHEN HE DIDN'T GET WHAT HE WANTED.
ACCESS.

I AM FREE OF THAT. I WON BY NOT GIVING A FK.
BY NOT PLAYING. 

FREE OF "DRAMA."

Want to know something funny?
When I used to be on dating sites.... Long time ago....
I noticed something.

THE DUDES WHO SAY: NO DRAMA
OR "I HATE DRAMA"
OR SOME SH*T.....

ABOUT DRAMA....
ARE THE ONES THAT FKN CAUSE THE DRAMA.
AND THEY BLAME EVERYONE ELSE FOR IT.

THEY OUTTED THEMSELVES.

PEOPLE WHO AREN'T ABOUT DRAMA....
TYPICALLY DON'T EVEN MENTION DRAMA.

BECAUSE THEY ARE DRAMA-FREE.
MOSTLY.... SO WHY WOULD THEY EVEN MENTION IT?

FOUND THAT SH*T SO FUNNY!

THE THING IS:
IF SOMEONE REJECTED ME.....
HOW WERE THEY ROBBED OF A CHANCE WITH ME?
WASN'T THAT WHAT I HAD INITIALLY OFFERED?
WASN'T THAT WHAT THEY REJECTED 
WHEN THEY REJECTED ME?

WHEN YOU REJECT SOMEONE.....
YOU DID THAT SH*T.

WHEN YOU DISCARD SOMEONE.....
YOU DID THAT SH*T.

RIGHT?

AND IF YOU WERE DOING IT....
TO TRY TO HURT SOMEONE.....
YOU DID THAT SH*T.

DID I REJECT HIM TO HURT HIM? NO.
BECAUSE HE HURT ME? NO.

BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO REPEAT THAT SH*T.
THAT IS ALL.

BECAUSE HE HAD ENOUGH CHANCES....
TO GET IT RIGHT.
IF HE WANTED TO.
BUT APPARENTLY HE DIDN'T.... 
BECAUSE HE COULD HAVE.

But...... PATIENCE.....
IS NOT.....
PERMISSION.

IT'S NOT PERMISSION TO SH*T ON SOMEONE.
IT'S NOT PERMISSION TO FAFO.

IT'S NOT TO BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED, EITHER.

And if you take it for granted.... 
YOU WILL LOSE IT.

EVERYTHING YOU SHOULD HAVE APPRECIATED....
AND TOOK FOR GRANTED....

CAN BE GONE. JUST GONE.
TAKEN AWAY.

WHY TRY TO TALK TO ME 12 YEARS AFTER REJECTING ME?
NOBODY ELSE TO TALK TO?

PLENTY OF FISH IN THE SEA.... RIGHT?
ONES HE HASN'T REJECTED YET.

MAKE IT HAPPEN.

"A***'S RARE." YES.

BUT? WHAT?
ALREADY REJECTED ME.
IT ENDED.

THAT'S WHY I WAS LIVING MY OWN LIFE! 
RIGHT?

Just wild sometimes.
"I MADE A MISTAKE."

CHOICE. IT WAS A CHOICE.

A CHOICE TO REJECT ME....
BECAUSE YOU WANTED SOMEONE ELSE.
AND THAT IS OKAY WITH ME!!! :P

BECAUSE YOU CAN TREAT HER....
THE WAY YOU TREATED ME!!!!!!!!!!!! 

EVERY GUY WHO CHOSE SOMEONE ELSE....
PROBABLY DOES TREAT HER
THE WAY THEY TREATED ME.

IF THEY BROUGHT BS TO ME....
THEY PROBABLY BRING IT EVERYWHERE THEY GO!

IF THEY WANT A "TRAUMA BOND"
THEY CAN HAVE THAT.

WASN'T EVER SOMETHING I WANTED!
"I'M A D*CK, BUT I'M THE VICTIM!"

"SHE MADE ME XYZ... BECAUSE SHE XYZ...."
YOU CHOSE TO XYZ BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO.
PROBABLY BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T CARE NOT TO?!

IMAGINE THAT?

I've gotta switch it up soon... 
I've got a lot of that stuff out of my system. 
I don't have to keep going forever about any particular situation. 

Yes, it's been on my mind... 
Not because it "affects" me the way it used to.
Not because I care as much as I used to.... 

More or less....
WHEN PEOPLE MAKE THEIR BEDS....
THEY GET TO LIE IN THEM.

BE CAREFUL HOW YOU TREAT PEOPLE.

BECAUSE THEY DO NOT HAVE TO LOOK BACK.