I Managed It

I managed to block her, finally. 
It shouldn't have been hard to do, but it wasn't easy. 
Just to do that. 

WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE HARASSSED?
AFTER BEING INSULTED?

I AM NOT "CRUEL" FOR NOT GIVING IN
TO SOMEONE WHO WANTED TOO FKN MUCH FROM ME!

NOT GIVING IN WHEN I DID NOT FKN OWE THAT TO HER.
TO ANYONE.

EXCEPT MY SON. HE IS THE ONLY ONE I OWE MY ATTENTION TO.
EVEN THEN, HE KNOWS I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH. 
HE DOESN'T ASK ME TO OVEREXTEND MYSELF. 
DOESN'T DEMAND IT. 
HE'S ACCEPTED THAT I HAVE MY LIMITS.
ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW. 

IT WON'T ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS, BUT....
IT IS WHAT IT IS, FOR NOW.

HE KNOWS THAT AND HAS ACCEPTED THAT. 
IT MAY ANNOY HIM, HE MAY GET FRUSTRATED... 

BUT HE HAS ACCEPTED IT.
HE DIDN'T LIKE IT, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS, RIGHT NOW.

I know that it won't ALWAYS be like THIS, though. 

I was thinking about THIS last night. 
I was thinking that each place I ever lived at... 
HAS BEEN A STEPPING STONE TO THE NEXT PLACE. 

I TOLD MY FRIEND... 
HE SAID: "LIFE IS ALWAYS CHANGING."

It's true, it is. It always is. 

I know that I'm changing, too. 

I'm getting some things set up. 
I'm trying to get organized... 

Sore throat today, and I feel gross... 
I want to get a few things and go back to bed. 

Just this year so far has been nuts SOCIALLY. 
AND "ROMANTICALLY" 
IF YOU CAN EVEN CALL IT THAT... 
BECAUSE I GAVE UP ON IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TO THE POINT I'M NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING ANYMORE!

EVERY TIME I WAS, I'D GET BLASTED.
NOT FUN. 
NOT COOL. 
NOT SOMETHING I WANT. 

OR WANTED. 

WANTED MATURITY AND RESPECT.
THAT'S WHAT I WANTED. 

FKN RARE!!!!! WHY?????

EVEN FKN SOCIALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S BEEN BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOME DUDE TOLD ME HE WANTS TO PUT HIS HEAD
IN MY LAP AND JUST TALK WITH ME. 

HE BARELY TALKS TO ME AS IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T WANT ANYONE'S HEAD IN MY LAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT MAKES HIM THINK I WANT WHAT HE WANTS?????
FROM ME????????????????????????????

DUDES DON'T THINK ABOUT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEY ONLY WANT WHAT THEY FKN WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND DON'T THINK ABOUT ME AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT P*SSES ME OFF SO FKN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND THEY EXPECT TO GET WHAT THEY WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO!!!!!!!!!! IF YOU WANT TOO MUCH FROM ME...
YOU GET NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Should I let people want TOO MUCH FROM ME?
THEN ACT LIKE THAT WHEN THEY DON'T GET IT?

SHOULD I WANT TOO MUCH FROM EVERYONE????????
THAT THEY WANT FROM ME??????????

AND EXPECT IT?
AND GET MAD?
WHEN I DON'T GET IT??????

NO THANKS. 

I've seen too many people acting LIKE THAT
THAT I SEE WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE. 

I DON'T WANT TO BE SEEN LIKE THAT. 
I WOULDN'T WANT TO BE SEEN LIKE THAT. 
BECAUSE I'M NOT LIKE THAT. 
THAT'S NOT ME. 

BUT, I KEEP ENCOUNTERING ALL KINDS OF BS!!!!!
EVEN MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY MUST LOOK AT ME AND THINK:
"EASY TARGET."
TO GET WHATEVER THEY WANT... 

THEY DO THIS SH*T TO "NICE" PEOPLE.
UNTIL THEY REALIZE THE NICE PEOPLE
WERE ONLY BEING NICE
BECAUSE THEY WANTED TO BE.....

NOT BECAUSE THEY FKN HAD TO BE... 

AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN...
THE NICE PEOPLE ARE "CRUEL"
BECAUSE SOME GREEDY B*TCH DIDN'T GET WHAT SHE WANTED. 
OR SOME GREEDY MOFO. 

FK OFF WITH YOUR GREED. 
MAYBE TRY NOT WANTING VERY FKN MUCH.

EVEN THOUGH I DON'T WANT VERY FKN MUCH....
IT SEEMS LIKE WANTING RESPECT SEEMS
TO BE OUT OF THE QUESTION.... 

WHY IS THAT?