Surprises

The other day, my neighbor gave me a phone. He got one for me.
He said "Now I can call you when you're not home."

Maybe I don't want to be called when I'm out?
"Where are you?" 

Maybe the whole point of being out is to be away from everyone?

It'd probably be a lot of "Let me call you back."

It was because it bothered him that I didn't have one.
I got by with my home phone. 

It probably just bugged him that I'd only answer if I was home lol. 

Like it used to be, y'know?

Instead of being expected to answer all the damn time?
No matter where you were?

I'd probably have it off until I needed to use it.

Having a home phone, I only use it when I need to. 
The point of having it was to be able to use it if I needed to. 

But, I'm really disliking VOIP.

IF MY INTERNET'S DOWN, 
I CAN'T CALL THEM TO TELL THEM.

WHEN MY DAMN WIRE CONNECTOR BROKE... 
IT WAS A PITA TO GET THEM TO JUST
FKN COME FIX IT!!!!!

I HAD TO CALL LIKE 3 FKN TIMES!!!
FROM A NEIGHBOR'S PHONE... 

They wanted to know "the status" of the lights on the boxes... 

I wasn't going to be all like "I need to take your phone into my apartment..."

SO THEY WERE GIVING ME A HARD TIME ABOUT THAT.

IF A CUSTOMER IS FKN TELLING YOU
THAT THEY BROKE THEIR DAMN CONNECTOR CABLE THING
AND IT NEEDS TO GET REPLACED... 

JUST FKN REPLACE IT WITH NO FKN HASSLES!!!!

BAD ENOUGH I HAD NO SERVICE FOR 3 DAYS... 

A SERVICE I PAY FOR... 

Should have been as easy as: "What's your issue?"
"The connector wire broke. I need a new one."
"Okay. Let's schedule the time and day..."

Not "unless you do this, we can't do that."
DA FUQ YOU FUQQIN CAN'T!!!!

Anyway, with the new phone, I can take pictures. 

I missed that about having a phone. 

Texting is neat, but I wasn't ever "addicted to it."

I'm still probably going to be one of the only ones, 
looking out the window on the bus... 

Even with a phone. I don't need to be on it all the time. 

THAT BUGS ME ABOUT A LOT OF PEOPLE I KNOW.

LIKE WE CAN'T FKN GO ANYWHERE WITHOUT THEM
PULLING THEIRS OUT... 

JUSTFKN BE HERE, WITH ME. 
LIKE I FKN EXIST.
RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. 

THEN DO ALL YOUR PHONE BS LATER.

SH*T THEY DON'T HAVE TO ASK ME
NOT TO DO... 

BECAUSE THAT SH*T'S RUDE, FOR ONE... 

FOR TWO, IT'S NOT SO DAMN IMPORTANT
THAT IT CAN'T WAIT. 

IF IT IS AN EMERGENCY, BY ALL MEANS!!!

IF IT'S JUST SOME BS THAT CAN WAIT, IT CAN WAIT.

Mostly, the times I was distracted around people, 
I had a lot of sh*t on my mind... 

It wasn't because I had to see every notification
that popped up on my phone... 

Or because I had the urge to scroll or something... 

IT GOT SO BAD WITH A GUY I KNOW... 
WHEN I WENT TO HANG OUT WITH HIM, 
AT HIS PLACE
AND HE BASICALLY WANTED TO BE ON FB
LIKE I WASN'T EVEN THERE... 

SOMETIMES WHEN I CALL HIM, 
HE'S SO DISTRACTED, 
HE'S LIKE "WAIT A MOMENT..."
WHILE HE'S DOING XYZ
AND I'M SUPPOSED TO JUST CHILL 
WHILE ON THE PHONE WITH HIM
WHILE HE DOES XYZ... 

If you're too distracted to have a convo, 
just end the convo.

WHY HAVE ME ON THE LINE, 
WAITING FOR YOUR ATTENTION?

LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE
IS SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT?

Hence I rarely call him anymore... 
BUT WHEN DOES HE CALL ME?

When does anyone call me?

I sent an email to my son... 
He called because he got my email. 

He couldn't just call?

But what bugs me is when someone wants something.

The other day, I had a weird interaction... 

Some guy I don't know contacted me on facebook... 
Just said "hello" so I just said "hello" back. 
He replies "I'm good." And blocked me lol. 

FOR JUST SAYING HELLO BACK?! LOL!

WHY SAY ANYTHING TO ME?
WHAT DID HE EVEN WANT?

TO GET TO KNOW ME? LOL.

It bugs me that they just say "hello"
AND THEN GET BOTHERED
WHEN YOU JUST SAY "HELLO" BACK.

LIKE DA FUQ DO YOU EXPECT FROM ME?

WANTED SOMETHING HE DIDN'T GET.

But honestly, you just say "hello" to someone, 
don't be all surprised when they just say "hello" back.

DA FUQ DID I OWE HIM? ANYTHING?
EVEN JUST A HELLO BACK?

I SAID HELLO BACK!

But you going to play games like "I'm going to just say hello."

AND WHEN I JUST SAY HELLO, TOO, 
I'M THE ONE PLAYING THE GAME?
THAT YOU STARTED PLAYING WITH ME?

IF HE WOULDN'T LIKE IT, HE DIDN'T, 
THEN WHY WOULD I?

He contacted me first! 
But then he's "good" when I say "hello" back?

Sh*t like that... 

Cool that you're good, bro...
Da fuq did you want?

Must have wanted something. 

And I've chatted with guys online
who got mad that I wasn't in the chatroom every day.

And they wanted to chat with me off of that site.

If I got off the site to talk with them, 
they'd have some "control" over
"getting what they wanted."

WHICH IS "THE POWER TO GET WHAT THEY WANTED."

WITH NO REGARD FOR WHAT I WANTED,
A LIFE OFFLINE. 

IF THEY COULD "MAKE ME"
GIVE THEM ACCESS TO ME
OFF THE SITE, 
WHEN TALKING ON THE SITE
SHOULD HAVE JUST BEEN FINE... 

THEY'LL THINK THEY CAN "MAKE ME"
DO OTHER THINGS. 

WHEN IT SHOULD BE FINE
NOT TO FKN "HAVE TO"
OR BE "MADE TO"
OR "EXPECTED TO"
JUST SO THEY COULD HAVE "THEIR WAY."

SO WHEN I TOLD THEM NO...
IT WAS TO SEE THEIR REACTION.

TO BEING TOLD NO.

IF THEY ACT LIKE A SH*T... 
WHY SHOULD THEY GET WHAT THEY WANT?

I'm a firm believer in that.
You can tell what kind of a person someone REALLY IS
IF YOU TELL THEM NO.

The guy who gave me the phone... 
I really hope he's not going to expect me to answer it all the time.

Having a home phone meant
that I could just call someone back when I got home. 

There's an antiques show coming up.
I know he likes stuff like that... 

So I didn't tell him what kind of show it is... 
But he said he'd go... 

"What kind of show?"
"The kind where we walk around and look at stuff."
"What kind of stuff? Civilized stuff?" 
"Yes, civilized stuff."

For something to do. 

He might like it. He might have a nice time.
We might see some cool stuff...

Would be cool if we could buy something,
but looking's still looking... 

It beats sitting around, at home.

Anyway, I'm going to try to rest a bit. 

I am thankful for the phone, 
just some comments made previously... 

It's hard to just be "it's just a gift."

Because a lot of other times, it wasn't. 

I'd like to trust that it is, just that, though.