How About That?

The other night, I went out for a "run."
Got more than I thought I would.

On my way back, though, I was walking past a guy...

He says : "HEY!"

I turned around "What do you want?"

He jerked his fkn head at me.

To say "come here."

I said "No. I don't know YOU.
Don't order ME around 'come here'
F*ck you."

That p*ssed me off.

Like I was just supposed to drop everything
RIGHT THERE AND THEN
JUST TO SEE WTF HE WANTED?

AND IS IT UP TO ME
TO OBEY HIS "COMMANDS"?

JUST TO GO OVER TO HIM
BECAUSE HE JERKED HIS FKN HEAD AT ME?

THAT really p*ssed me off.

No, bud. Don't know you.

And he must have wanted something
OR WHY FKN BOTHER ME AT ALL?
WAS I BOTHERING HIM?

What was he going to do?
Ask me if I wanted to buy some crack, too?

And why did I leave HIM alone?
BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING FROM HIM. 

I WAS CONTENT TO LET HIM
CARRY ON WITH HIS NIGHT.

But I was already walking away.

So why "HEY!"
And then jerk your head at me
WHEN I ASK YOU WTF YOU WANT?

And even IF I wanted anything from him, 
anything...

DOES HE OWE ME ANYTHING?
JUST BECAUSE I WANT IT?

NO? THEN DO I? NO.

Do I owe it to you
TO JUST COME RIGHT OVER TO YOU
JUST BECAUSE YOU JERK YOUR HEAD AT ME?

Some people need to be told NO.
Even if it p*sses them off.

If someone like me hadn't told the guy
to go fk himself, 

he'd just jerk his head at whoever.

Thinking he's the kind of guy
WHO CAN JUST DO THAT
AND GET WHAT HE WANTS.

HE CAN GO FK HIMSELF. 

That sh*t's not gonna work with me.

When I walked by him, 
he was on the phone.
And just all of a sudden
"needs" me to come over to him?

It's one thing to want to ask something
but he already shouted HEY at me.

And jerked his fkn head at me.

THAT p*ssed me off. 
Because he expected me to just obey him. 

To come right over to him, just like that.
With a jerk of his head ffs.

If I have to be the one to say it....
I'd rather not be.

But if I'm pushed to be...
I'd still rather not be, 
but, I guess I WILL be.

Why should I have to tell people
TO GO FK THEMSELVES?

AND THEY ACT SURPRISED WHEN I DO IT.

Should have seen the shock on his face
WHEN I TOLD HIM NO.

HE WAS EXPECTING ME TO OBEY, 
NOT "CHALLENGE" HIM. 
NOT TO STRAIGHT UP TELL HIM NO.

PROBABLY NOT USED TO HEARING NO.

BUT SOME PEOPLE NEED TO BE TOLD NO.

When my son was a baby, 
if he was across the room
and I couldn't get to him fast enough
to get him to stop doing something, 

I'd get his attention by clapping my hands.
Once I had his attention. 
I'd tell him no.

He knew what no meant. 
He'd cry about being told no.
but he knew no still meant no.

BUT, Someone heard me
CLAPPING MY HANDS TOGETHER
TO GET HIS ATTENTION
AND HEARD HIM CRYING
AFTER I SAID NO TO HIM

AND ASSUMED I WAS HITTING HIM FFS.

So I had to explain THAT to CAS.

Someone my family knew, used to work for CAS
and she wrote a book about them.
Wasn't "allowed" to publish it.

Because it exposed all their BS.
How they really "operate."

I know, from my own experiences, 
how they "operate."

And she should have been "allowed"
TO TELL THE TRUTH.

FOR ALL TO KNOW.

AND IF THEY HAD NOTHIG TO "HIDE"
THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD
ANY PROBLEM WITH THAT, RIGHT?

SINCE THEY "OPERATE"
IN EVERYONE'S "BEST INTERESTS." 

The only interests they are concerned with
ARE THEIR OWN. 

AND AS SAD AS IT IS TO SAY, 
IT SEEMS THAT GOES FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE.

I'M JUST TIRED OF BEING FKN TIRED
OF THIS SH*T.