The Air In The Bag

It's true that there are less chips in a bag.
BUT THE AIR IN THE BAG
ISN'T SUPPOSED TO MAKE IT LOOK FULL.
IT'S TO KEEP THE CHIPS FROM BREAKING.

IT'S ALSO SO YOU CAN POP THE BAG OPEN.
Or pull it open. However you open the bag.
No bag opening judging here.

Like how I peel a banana from the bottom.
I used to try to peel it at the stem.

Then I saw some video about apes.
In the video, they were peeling from the bottom.
And using the stem as a handle to hold it
while they ate it.

Anyway, I was on my way home.
From picking up some food.

Doritos were on sale 3/$9.
A guy in the elevator
noticed I use an IKEA bag
to pick up my groceries.

Then he noticed the bags of Doritos.
He didn't see the fruits and vegetables underneath lol.
So he said he wouldn't eat it 
because it's junk food.
But he had a case of "pop."

Here, it's a toss up between pop and soda.
We mostly call it pop.

I rarely buy stuff like pop n chips, stuff like that.
The more veg I've been eating, the better I've felt.
Physically.

That chopper thing I bought... I'm glad I bought it.
There's a slicer one I want to get.
So I can slice meat and cheese.

Prepping makes cooking less of a chore.
Besides not having an appetite most of the time,
cooking each day is like a chore.

Making soup isn't. Because the veg is already chopped.
I chop it while I make the soup
so I can stock myself up on soup ingredients.
The soup cubes aren't as expensive.
I just make small pots of soup
(because I'm the only one eating it)
so I just use half a cube at a time.

I got enough food for at least a week.
I saved jars from other stuff to store chopped up stuff.

Storing in a glass jar, I can see what's in there and what's left
so that I can keep filling it up.

Every time I'm making soup, it's just easy to chop stuff.

I get what it's like to be depressed and not feeling like doing anything.
Including things that feel like a chore.

Pre-prepared stuff just makes things easier.
I wish I started doing it so much sooner.

As for the Doritos, I don't have to sit here and eat a whole bag
in one sitting. I can just have a handful here and there.

I don't eat many sweets anymore. I still like them, 
but it's like sugar kind of throws me out of whack.

People who are legit addicted to sugar
GET MOODY WITHOUT IT.

I knew a guy who is addicted to sugar.
He stayed with me for a few months.
Never seen anybody go through a bag of sugar
LIKE THAT GUY.

The only things I use sugar for is for tea and baking.
Which I don't do often.

The guy used to go into the kitchen while I was sleeping.
It bugged me because I sleep next to the kitchen.

And he'd go and eat whatever while I was sleeping.

We baked a cake and had icing left over.
He'd been digging into it with a spoon at night.
Before I knew it, he'd eaten it all.

I remember a friend (who passed away) told me
that the kids used to call him "fatso" in Spanish.
He admitted to me that he used to sneak spoonfuls of mayo.

Tonight, I got some flat bread.
I don't know whether it's "healthier" than regular bread.

Around Easter time, when I was a kid,
there was a "passover" dinner at Church.
And we had the "unlevened" bread.
Basically, bread without yeast
because yeast is what makes it "rise."

Someone told me that bread's not good to give to birds.
Because birds aren't meant to digest yeast.

Even the shells of some seeds aren't easy for them to digest.
Like sunflower seeds aren't good for pigeons.

The protests up here are getting nuts.
The cops only seem to be there to try to prevent
one group from attacking the other groups.

WHEN THE TRUCKERS WERE PROTESTING
THE MANDATES... 
THE GOVERNMENT FROZE THEIR ACCOUNTS.
ARE THEY DOING THAT TO THESE PROTESTERS?
EVEN THOUGH A LOT OF THEM WERE CHANTING
DEATH THREATS...

And Parliament...

The LIBERALS are supposed to submit
AN UNREDACTED SET OF DOCUMENTS
SO THAT THESE DOCUMENTS
CAN BE SUMITTED AS EVIDENCE
IN THE INVESTIGATION
OF THEIR 189 CONFLICTS OF INTEREST.

Which they are refusing to do.
IF THERE WAS NOTHING TO HIDE,
WHY NOT JUST SUBMIT THEM?

And what about the 11 MPs who were supposedly
committing TREASON?

Impeding a criminal investigation
is supposedly a crime in itself.

Then they have the audacity to say
that the CONSERVATIVES
ARE OBSTRUCTING THEIR OWN OBSTRUCTION...

No, it's about being held accountable
FOR THE 40 MILLION DOLLARS
OF TAX MONEY
THAT WAS PAID TO THEIR OWN COMPANIES.

BUT INSTEAD OF BEING HELD ACCOUNTABLE
THEY WANT TO SAY THAT THE CONSERVATIVES
ARE PLAYING POLITICAL GAMES?


The political games are being played by the current government.
BECAUSE THEY'LL TRY TO KEEP HIDING
BEHIND THE CHARTER OF RIGHTS AND FREEDOMS
TO HIDE WHAT THEY'VE BEEN DOING
FOR THE PAST SEVERAL YEARS.


All I can say about the protesters is that 
THEY ARE HERE BECAUSE THAT IDIATION
RUINED THEIR OWN COUNTRIES.
WE'RE CAPABLE OF RUINING OUR OWN COUNTRY
WITHOUT YOUR HELP.

Which we seem to be doing with flying colors.

Where was the national debt when we had Harper?
Where is the national debt today?

Why do you think it is where it is today?
How do you think it got there?


Besides that, our immigration system seems to be broken.
NOT ONLY THAT SYSTEM,
BUT PEOPLE CROSS INTO CANADA ILLEGALLY.
AND CROSS INTO THE USA ILLEGALLY.

But something is wrong when we're letting terrorists in
on student visas ffs.

Student visas, it's only a way of bringing money in.
IN THE FORM OF TUITION.

BUT BECAUSE THEY LIVE HERE AND WORK HERE
WHILE GOING TO SCHOOL HERE,
THEY WANT TO STAY 
AFTER THE VISAS EXPIRE.

If ANY other country HAD THE SAME RULES
WE WOULD HAVE TO RESPECT THEIR RULES.

What bugs me is people immigrating to Canada
THINKING IT'S OKAY TO ACT HERE
THE WAY THEY ACTED BACK THERE.

IT'S F*CKING NOT. FOR A REASON.
BECAUSE THERE ARE STANDARDS.
JUST LIKE THERE ARE STANDARDS
IN OTHER COUNTRIES.

AND THOSE STANDARDS SHOULD BE RESPECTED.
AND RECOGNIZED.

I'm going to make it very CLEAR
that I'm not opposed to immigration.
I wouldn't even exist if my great-grandparents
and grandparents hadn't immigrated here.

EVEN THOUGH I WAS BORN HERE.

What I am opposed to are people who want to
BEND THE RULES TO EXPECT US
TO JUST LET THEM "STAY"
JUST BECAUSE THEY CAME HERE TO GO TO SCHOOL.

If Canadians went to India
because India had a program
that has rules
THAT ONCE THE VISA EXPIRES,
IT EXPIRES.

THAT WE DIDN'T JUST GET TO
DEMAND TO STAY
JUST BECAUSE WE WANTED TO...

I'm also opposed to HOW MANY PEOPLE
ARE BEING LET INTO THIS COUNTRY EVERY YEAR.
LIKE A HALF MILLION PEOPLE, 
EVERY YEAR.

WE ONLY HAVE SO MANY JOBS
AND SO MANY PLACES TO LIVE ETC.

IT BUGS ME BECAUSE IT SEEMS
THAT THE NEWEST PEOPLE TO OUR COUNTRY
SEEM TO GET DIBS ON BOTH.

Other than that, the act of immigrating doesn't bother me.

Just there are some people who come here for the wrong reasons.
And just seem to want to make matters worse,
when we're capable of making it worse for ourselves.


Like not only has rent doubled, but...
even some people who came here to leave their country
are like "Wtf? Canada's too expensive."
So they decide to go back
because at least they could afford
to live where they used to...

Over here, it's mostly retail, customer service, and government jobs.
And of course the cleaning and security jobs.

Been so pigeon-holed into two types of jobs for too long.
AND WORKING FOR THE GOVERNMENT?

F*ck that. If it was a job that actually matters, right on.
BUT SO MANY THINGS THE GOVERNMENT
COULD ACTUALLY ALLOCATE TO
OTHER THEMSELVES...

BECAUSE PEOPLE SIT ON WAITING LISTS FOR YEARS!!!!
FOR THESE GOVERNMENT PROGRAMS
THAT AREN'T EXACTLY HELPING ANYONE
UNTIL THEY MAKE IT TO THE TOP OF THE LIST
EVENTUALLY...

Like a lady was saying in my knitting group
that someone she knew was waiting years to get into 
an assisted living facility and died a week after
being accepted, but before he actually got to
physically move into it.

Besides that, alot of foreign people
SEND MONEY BACK "HOME" TO THEIR FAMILIES.
Which is nothing wrong with that.
It's just money being moved out of our economy.


You know what it feels like to be asked personal questions?
It feels a lot like they are fishing for something
to judge me about.

OR ELSE WHY WOULDN'T THEY 
JUST MIND THEIR BUSINESS?

DO YOU SEE ME PRYING INTO THEIR LIVES?

I ask some questions to make small talk or just curious.
BUT I DON'T TRY TO DIG
INTO EVERY NOOK AND CRANNY
OF THEIR LIVES
BECAUSE IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS.

So why would every nook and cranny
OF MY LIFE BE ANY OF THEIRS?

One of the ladies was trying to encouage me
to sign up to "host" a meeting at my place.

FOR ONE, I DON'T HAVE THE FURNIATURE.
TO ACCOMODATE LIKE 12 PEOPLE...

AND HOW THEY CAN AFFORD TO LIVE
COMPARED TO HOW I CAN AFFORD TO LIVE
ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS.

It seems that their living rooms are for show.
Editorial type style living.

It's like living far "removed"
from how "others" live.

If that makes any sense.

AND ONE PERSON SAYING
EATING ON $10/DAY IS LIVING IN POVERTY.

$10/day is $300/month.

SOME PEOPLE SPEND $300/TRIP.

What goes through my mind when I watch My 600lb Life...
HOW TF CAN THEY AFFORD TO EAT LIKE THAT?

HOW MUCH BIGGER WOULD I BE
IF I COULD AFFORD TO EAT LIKE THAT?

My heaviest was 185lb after I had a baby.
I'm actually at my lowest weight, now.
I wasn't trying to lose weight.
But I wasn't trying to gain weight, either.
So I guess my weight just dropped.

I haven't even been as physical as I was
WHEN I WAS JOGGING/SKIPPING ETC.

I actually stopped doing all that 
BECAUSE I WAS LOSING TOO MUCH WEIGHT.
SEEMS THAT I DO
NO MATTER WHAT I DO LOL.

I see a lady in this building.
She's a bigger lady.
She sometimes asks me how I stay slim.
I DON'T EAT ENOUGH.

BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO BE ABLE TO.

That's why I'm trying different things.
Like figuring how much veg to last me a week,
how to make other cheap, easy things to eat.

Premade things are easy to "make."
Anyone can put a tv frozen dinner into the zapper.

What I'm talking about is eating "healthier" than that, 
but as cheap as I can and make it last longer.

It'd be nice to just go eat at restaurants all the time.

To reduce costs even more... To grow our own.