Drained

Been a while. Not much new. 

I'm waiting for my ID to come in the mail
before I can get a new bank card.

I lost my card and the bank would not give me a new card
because my ID expired so I had to renew it.

The bank gave me enough money to renew it.
I gave them enough info to verify it was me to give me $40, 
but they wouldn't give me a new card!

So now I have to wait... Until the ID gets here
before I can go to the bank. 
Which sucks, but the money is there, waiting. 

My rent is automatically paid so I don't have to worry about that.
Just tired of scrounging like I have been. It sucks. 

I need to borrow money, but I hate asking to. 
And when people know my situation but they just say: "That sucks."
Instead of like "Hey, is there anything I can do to help you?"

But, yes, that would be me wishfully thinking. 
And wanting something from others that they don't have in them to do. 

I often want the things I do to make an impact, 
but the times I've been there for others,
that they would be there for me, too. 

But there are times I think little things I do
make somewhat of a difference. 

Like waving at a stranger. They wave back. 
Then they think about that moment
they had with you... 
And maybe they always will. 
We don't know for sure. Do we?

It's a moment in time you connect.
Even if it's just a wave to each other. 
You don't know their name, they don't know yours.
They just wave back at you. 

Or smile back at you... 

Anyway, mostly been very tired. Exhausted. 
I don't know why. Even when I am inactive.
I just feel mostly drained. I can't explain it.