I Met Sam

I went for a walk tonight and I met a dog named Sam.
Been trying to get out more before the snow comes.
It's good to get some fresh air. I go my usual route. 
Don't know why I only found it in 2017.
Been living here since 2004.

Anyway, not been up to much. 
Started knitting again. 

Have a few calls to make tomorrow.
I should be in bed. 

Been having strange dreams lately. 

One was about I was travelling with my brothers.
My brothers were younger in my dream than they are now. 
We came across a strange part of town.
It was like a fire tore through a whole neighborhood. 
It was kind of like a ghost town. 

Then I saw people crying everywhere,
and I didn't know what was going on.
Someone told me that some famous person died. 
They were having a moment of silence for him. 
I didn't know they were having a moment of silence.
I broke it by thanking the girl who told me what was going on. 

Around the time I woke up, 
I was thinking or dreaming about a code I used to use
to write in my diary when I was around 13.

I haven't kept a diary for years.
I guess this has become something like a journal.

Just nothing to note these days. 

Been keeping to myself more and more.
Trying not to be as affected by other people, 
and trying to just level myself off. 
As best as I can. 

I guess the mood medication has been helping to some degree. 
And the night walks, and the occasional ice cream. 

Been just trying my best to pull through
and trying to just get my feet back on the ground. 
A lot has been draining me and I have to let it go. 
Also, I have to stop letting things drain me. 
It's just hard, been hard.
Not to let things affect me as much as they have been. 
Or had been. 

It feels better just to be on my own. 
I can't explain why. 

Been lighting candles again. 

Not really got much on my mind. 
Other than these commissions I want to make.
And I have to start hiring pretty soon. 

I guess it's about time for bed. 
The medication hits me pretty hard. 
Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. 
At least it does what it is supposed to do.