Slingshot

Today was an okay day. 
Had a meeting with the bank. 
I guess the issue was that they had put restrictions on my accounts. 
Because they needed a document that I gave them 2 years ago. 

Anyway, on my way home... I stopped to have something to eat. 
Then I was walking back, along the river. 
I walked through M** Lake, and walked by the beach. 

I met a guy who was on his break. 
We sat and talked about turtles. 

It was nice, to sit in the sun and talk small talk. 

Anyway, after going to the bank...
I was walking to a marketplace area
and I saw a guy in a vehicle called a slingshot. 

Then, after that, I was on a random street
and I look at license plates all the time... 
I saw one that was slngshot. 

I took that to mean
that if I let go of the things that are holding me back, 
I might be propelled forward. 

I mean, how often do I see a vehicle like that?
AND THEN I saw that license plate?
Not a coincidence. 

And I've had time to think some things over. 

Such as the need to release the past. 
Even the good memories kind of get me sad. 

But I have to shift my energy in another direction. 
"Why are you so focused on the past?"

Was talking to someone today about 
that part about letting go. 

When I was in the shower, 
having shower thoughts...

I thought: "If *I* am the one holding myself back...
Then do *I* let go of *I*?

Then he asked what is the *I* you're letting go of, 
and what is the thing that is doing the letting go. 

The soul is the thing that is doing the letting go.
What I know of my soul is that it is tired. 

There's the mind, the heart, and the soul...
They all walk into the bar...

The mind says, "I thought this"
The heart says, "I felt this"
The soul says, "Between the both of you, I am tired!"

If you can change your mind, 
and have a change of heart, 
does the soul facilitate these changes?

Or does the mind think they are being made?
My heart's not been doing well. 
Been passing out again. 
I fainted in the bathroom
and I woke up, I was laying across the edge of the tub. 

Obviously, I knew I passed out when I woke up. 
And I had to lay on the floor until I got my strength back. 

But what am I to let go of?
What is holding me back?

Insecurities? Fears? Feelings? Memories?
Past sh*t? That I'm having a hard time with?

Why am I having a hard time with it?
It starts with acceptance. 
Those things are as they are. 

But they don't need to control me. 

"Can't do anything if you're all tied up, can you?"

What have I been tied to?
What do I keep tying myself to?
Why do I feel like I should be tied to that?
How do I untie myself?

How can I untie myself if I can't see what I'm tied to?
This is why I need to see what I'm tied to....

Sometimes things happen to try to force us to deal with our emotions. 

There was something that came to me...
The relationship I am seeking is with the Universe. 
To be in this relationship, I have to understand the laws
and use them to improve my life. 

Then perhaps teach others how to use them.
To use them, we have to understand
what they are and how they are to be used. 

The only thing is that people don't want to be taught. 
If they learn on their own, or think that they are learning on their own...
They feel better about learning. 
They have to feel like they reached their own conclusion. 
Even when the conclusion they need to get to
is the conclusion they need to get to.