Lots Of Thoughts

Last night I went to visit a friend of mine. 
We talked at great lengths about spirituality. 
We're both souls having a human experience. 

We did a few energy exercises. 
When you can feel someone's aura, 
the energy field of their body... 
and when you send them energy
and they're sending yours right back to you...

That happens in arguments all the time. 
Both sending each other negative energy. 

I've had a lot of that, in my life. 
And one, it is draining. 
Two, it's a constant chain reaction. 
I'm reacting to their reaction, 
and they are reacting to my reaction. 
Then I react to their reaction to my reaction to their reaction
to my reaction, down the line.
But it's happening emotionally. 
And energetically. 

Deep, heavy feelings... 
Residual energy from past events are still there. 
It's built into the frame. 
The frame of mind, the frame of view....

So... The other night, I was just laying awake. 
Thoughts kept coming into my mind. 

One was about being "weak willed."
Today I connected it with the thought
that we can use our will at our will, 
even against our will. 

And how, where, when, why, do we use our will?
In what ways?
In what capacity?
To what capacity?

There was something I was either reading
or listening to recently. 

Where someone was saying that 
usual questions are how, what, when, why, how, where...

Been mostly interested in what. 
Why and how don't matter as much, for some things. 

Someone was saying how, as an example, 
if we take the bus from point A to point B,
our primary concern is getting from point A to point B.
Our primary concern isn't in all the minutia. 
Every aspect of it. 
Every aspect of every aspect of it... 

That's where my brain goes, sometimes. 
I keep thinking: 
If you look at the aspects of it....
You may be able to look at some things, 
look past other things...

Was thinking today:
"My line of view depends on my line of sight."
"Sightline."

Also, since I've been looking at what's been holding me back...
A thought crossed my mind
about being attached to the attachment attached to....
I'm not attached to that "person, place, thing,"
I'm attached to the attachment to it. 

Since my friend asked me what the *I* is....
My mind is trying to tell me that it's a construct. 

Today my mind told me that the *I* is the "eye."
I don't know how close I've been to anything with my guesses. 

I was thinking on how a lot of people tend to
make assumptions and do things off assumptions. 

We can even believe our assumptions are facts. 
Even when they are only assumptions!

But people don't catch themselves making assumptions. 
Or for judging, or forming an opinion. 

I did an experiment where I caught myself judging
and whenever I did, I'd release the judgement
by saying "no judgement."
I could work on how many judgmental thoughts
crossed my mind in a day... 

What is the part of me
that is attached to the attachment?
Why have I been attached?

Someone I used to talk to would say things like
"The only way to let go is to let go."
Release your grasp on something.

"Get a grasp of something, 
and having a grasp on it... "

When I was thinking about some other things....
Mental transitioning. 

Was thinking about how we get the sense of something. 
Even the sense of a sense of something.