Who Am I?

There's a thing about having a personality disorder
where people don't even know who they are... 
Who am I without my attachments?
Is love the only reason I'm attached to people?
Needing to love them and needing love from them?

Who am I without the people in my life?
The people who I still love, 
but don't love me anymore... 
Or maybe never did... 

It's hard to say if they did or not.
I want to think they meant it when they said it.
I meant it when I said it. 

Yes I question it all. 
And so do a lot of other people. 
They question me. If I ever cared... At all, ever. 
And honestly, yes. I do care.

And yes, I wish I could show it
in ways to help people see that I do. 
Instead of them thinking I don't and never did... 
You know how frustrating it is?

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