So they had me on the grill again today. Doing eggs this time.
Each box of eggs has 15 dozen in it. It was easier than the French Toast.
Just spray the grill with oil, crack open the egg, cook it on both sides...
I told a few people why I was upset yesterday.
I was just mad at myself for my inability to keep up.
And embarrassed as f*ck. Even though I didn't need to or have to be.
R*** said: "You've only been on the grill for 2 days,
if you've been on it for like 4 years, then you can be embarrased."
It's been so much better weatherwise, too. Warmer,
and the snow is melting. Wet as f*ck, but not as cold.
Sun is shining, it just feels nice.
I keep thinking about going out for a coffee,
but I'm trying to hold onto my money as best I can this month.
I dug myself pretty deep last month. Deeper than usual.
Not because of coffee, because of my trip. It was worth it,
but now I'm in deeper is all...
Been taking my "flip book" with me.
A couple things came up today...
Attachment and Faith...
I've written about attachment before
and I don't have a lot of experience in detachment.
But it didn't occur to me until this morning
that these effects... Are from attachment.
I've been getting too attached to things and people
who I have no business getting attached to.
Might go back and re-read that book on that Meditation Course.
It's a short book. I wrote about it around this time last year.
"Ego, Attachment & Liberation."
I've been feeling more free today, and more hopeful.
Can't explain it other than "I'm feeling better."
Without sounding too esoteric and nutty. Whatever.
Came home and had a long nap. Felt nice, too.
I heard someone from a video say something
about practicing vibes before sleeping.
It helps me get to sleep faster, actually,
and helps me wake up in a better state, too.
Just feeling more at ease today than I have for a while.
A reprieve from my mind and fromm matters of the heart
that I was taking to heart... Relief!
And it will feel so nice when winter is over, too.
And when I start an aprenticeship, getting my finances sorted,
getting out from under these debts...
But not letting my circumstances be exuses to feel like crap.
Getting out from under that, too...
And my ideas that somehow I know better than the Universe. I do not.
Each box of eggs has 15 dozen in it. It was easier than the French Toast.
Just spray the grill with oil, crack open the egg, cook it on both sides...
I told a few people why I was upset yesterday.
I was just mad at myself for my inability to keep up.
And embarrassed as f*ck. Even though I didn't need to or have to be.
R*** said: "You've only been on the grill for 2 days,
if you've been on it for like 4 years, then you can be embarrased."
It's been so much better weatherwise, too. Warmer,
and the snow is melting. Wet as f*ck, but not as cold.
Sun is shining, it just feels nice.
I keep thinking about going out for a coffee,
but I'm trying to hold onto my money as best I can this month.
I dug myself pretty deep last month. Deeper than usual.
Not because of coffee, because of my trip. It was worth it,
but now I'm in deeper is all...
Been taking my "flip book" with me.
A couple things came up today...
Attachment and Faith...
I've written about attachment before
and I don't have a lot of experience in detachment.
But it didn't occur to me until this morning
that these effects... Are from attachment.
I've been getting too attached to things and people
who I have no business getting attached to.
Might go back and re-read that book on that Meditation Course.
It's a short book. I wrote about it around this time last year.
"Ego, Attachment & Liberation."
I've been feeling more free today, and more hopeful.
Can't explain it other than "I'm feeling better."
Without sounding too esoteric and nutty. Whatever.
Came home and had a long nap. Felt nice, too.
I heard someone from a video say something
about practicing vibes before sleeping.
It helps me get to sleep faster, actually,
and helps me wake up in a better state, too.
Just feeling more at ease today than I have for a while.
A reprieve from my mind and fromm matters of the heart
that I was taking to heart... Relief!
And it will feel so nice when winter is over, too.
And when I start an aprenticeship, getting my finances sorted,
getting out from under these debts...
But not letting my circumstances be exuses to feel like crap.
Getting out from under that, too...
And my ideas that somehow I know better than the Universe. I do not.
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