With all this weird, erratic energy.... I've been thinking. About it.
About why I resist some of it and why some of it is easier to accept.
At the beginning of the year, I read a book called Ego, Attachment, and Liberation.
It was a book about a 5 day meditation course.
It opened my eyes about attachment. Let's just say that.
I've realized that I've been attached to the way that energy feels
and how it seems to flow or not flow.
It has a lot to do with resistance, too.
If it feels 'bad' or doesn't feel 'good,' I want to resist and detach.
I get the urge to resist and detach and I never questioned why.
It has to do with how it feels. Of course we attach to what feels 'good.'
And we want more of that and less of what feels 'bad.'
An interesting thing about this is that I was also attached
to my ideas and concepts of what constituted 'good' and 'bad.'
Like 'pride' feels good and 'shame' feels bad.
I wasn't asking myself how often I allowed myself to feel proud of myself
over how often I was allowing myself to feel shame, guilt, etc.
How often was I allowing myself to feel good?
How often was I allowing myself TO allow myself to feel good?
And feeling good doesn't mean stroking your ego.
It just means allowing yourself to accept a different energy
on a different frequency. A different vibration. That's all it is.
When we feel 'bad' or 'low,' we're accepting that energy.
By not allowing ourselves to accept the other spectrum of energy.
I didn't know this. I just thought I felt 'bad' or 'low'
because of certain external factors that were seemingly beyond my control.
Yes, there are a lot of factors that are beyond our control,
but there are a lot of factors that are actually within our control.
External factors aren't. Internal factors are.
We spend most of our lives wanting to have control over external factors.
Our attention goes towards trying to have control over those
And not towards trying to have control over our internal factors.
So anyway, I was thinking, that when the flow feels better,
it's easier to accept.
I resist it when it doesn't feel good.
Without even questioning why it feels good or doesn't feel good.
And it's a mix of energy. If the energy conflicts, it feels bad.
If the energy is in harmony, in balance, congruent, it feels good.
When it isn't, it feels bad.
When I can't determine what kind it is, it just feels weird.
When it feels good, I feel good. When it feels bad, I feel bad.
When it feels weird, I feel weird.
When it feels weird, I don't know whether or not to accept it.
So I often just wait for it to pass.
We have the power to determine what energy it is, though.
Because we are the ones who create the meaning through our interpretations.
PIE. Have a slice of PIE.
Positively Interpret Experiences.
This kind of PIE can come in any flavor you want it to.
When the flow feels better, I feel better.
I'm still learning how to channel the energy
to make it flow better so that I can feel better.
About why I resist some of it and why some of it is easier to accept.
At the beginning of the year, I read a book called Ego, Attachment, and Liberation.
It was a book about a 5 day meditation course.
It opened my eyes about attachment. Let's just say that.
I've realized that I've been attached to the way that energy feels
and how it seems to flow or not flow.
It has a lot to do with resistance, too.
If it feels 'bad' or doesn't feel 'good,' I want to resist and detach.
I get the urge to resist and detach and I never questioned why.
It has to do with how it feels. Of course we attach to what feels 'good.'
And we want more of that and less of what feels 'bad.'
An interesting thing about this is that I was also attached
to my ideas and concepts of what constituted 'good' and 'bad.'
Like 'pride' feels good and 'shame' feels bad.
I wasn't asking myself how often I allowed myself to feel proud of myself
over how often I was allowing myself to feel shame, guilt, etc.
How often was I allowing myself to feel good?
How often was I allowing myself TO allow myself to feel good?
And feeling good doesn't mean stroking your ego.
It just means allowing yourself to accept a different energy
on a different frequency. A different vibration. That's all it is.
When we feel 'bad' or 'low,' we're accepting that energy.
By not allowing ourselves to accept the other spectrum of energy.
I didn't know this. I just thought I felt 'bad' or 'low'
because of certain external factors that were seemingly beyond my control.
Yes, there are a lot of factors that are beyond our control,
but there are a lot of factors that are actually within our control.
External factors aren't. Internal factors are.
We spend most of our lives wanting to have control over external factors.
Our attention goes towards trying to have control over those
And not towards trying to have control over our internal factors.
So anyway, I was thinking, that when the flow feels better,
it's easier to accept.
I resist it when it doesn't feel good.
Without even questioning why it feels good or doesn't feel good.
And it's a mix of energy. If the energy conflicts, it feels bad.
If the energy is in harmony, in balance, congruent, it feels good.
When it isn't, it feels bad.
When I can't determine what kind it is, it just feels weird.
When it feels good, I feel good. When it feels bad, I feel bad.
When it feels weird, I feel weird.
When it feels weird, I don't know whether or not to accept it.
So I often just wait for it to pass.
We have the power to determine what energy it is, though.
Because we are the ones who create the meaning through our interpretations.
PIE. Have a slice of PIE.
Positively Interpret Experiences.
This kind of PIE can come in any flavor you want it to.
When the flow feels better, I feel better.
I'm still learning how to channel the energy
to make it flow better so that I can feel better.
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