A few weeks or so ago, I was leaving my apartment and I met someone
by the elevators who was also leaving. I thought he lived here,
but it turned out that he was visiting a friend of his.
Anyway, we were both heading to the bus station so we chatted a bit.
Then I went to go to a place (employment place) today
and something told me to turn around and there he was.
So I said hi and he remembered me and asked me for my number.
Also, he suggested that we go for a coffee together.
And he told me that he thinks I'm 'cute.'
Three things that very rarely, if ever, happen to me. Ever.
I gave him my number and told him that I'd go have a coffee with him sometime.
I'm definitely not looking for a relationship.
I haven't really been thinking about dating or any of that.
Maybe I was supposed to meet him,
but dating is like the furthest thing from my mind.
I haven't told him that, but I definitely don't want to lead him on either.
I know how it feels to be lead on, rejected, etc.
Getting to know someone can't hurt
and getting a coffee can't hurt.
I'm just at a place in my life where I'm making changes in my life.
I don't want to focus on one thing (like a relationship)
and stop focusing on the work that I want to do on an inner level.
Also, if I ever even THINK about dating again, I have to REALLY know the guy.
Like REALLY know them. I don't want to just jump into anything.
But that would come when I'm READY and I'm not ready.
Last time, I knew I wasn't, but I tried anyway. Not that I regret it.
There were a lot of good times we had together,
but I wasn't growing as a person in that relationship, either.
I put a lot of my work aside and wasn't working on myself.
Which wasn't his fault. I just wasn't ready.
It's okay not to be ready. Sometimes we have to do things
regardless of when we are ready to do them or not.
But this time, I know I am not ready and it is okay not to be ready.
I'm getting ready for other things in my life.
Other stuff will fall into place when they are ready and when I'm ready.
Until that time, I have my stuff that I am doing.
Healing, growing, changing, transforming, etc.
Working with the energy, working on allowing it to flow better.
All kinds of this sort of thing.
Which I know will help me in the long run.
Even this morning ritual stuff is helping already.
Which is great. I love feeling better and just feeling good in general.
It feels good to feel good and that's the only reason I need.
by the elevators who was also leaving. I thought he lived here,
but it turned out that he was visiting a friend of his.
Anyway, we were both heading to the bus station so we chatted a bit.
Then I went to go to a place (employment place) today
and something told me to turn around and there he was.
So I said hi and he remembered me and asked me for my number.
Also, he suggested that we go for a coffee together.
And he told me that he thinks I'm 'cute.'
Three things that very rarely, if ever, happen to me. Ever.
I gave him my number and told him that I'd go have a coffee with him sometime.
I'm definitely not looking for a relationship.
I haven't really been thinking about dating or any of that.
Maybe I was supposed to meet him,
but dating is like the furthest thing from my mind.
I haven't told him that, but I definitely don't want to lead him on either.
I know how it feels to be lead on, rejected, etc.
Getting to know someone can't hurt
and getting a coffee can't hurt.
I'm just at a place in my life where I'm making changes in my life.
I don't want to focus on one thing (like a relationship)
and stop focusing on the work that I want to do on an inner level.
Also, if I ever even THINK about dating again, I have to REALLY know the guy.
Like REALLY know them. I don't want to just jump into anything.
But that would come when I'm READY and I'm not ready.
Last time, I knew I wasn't, but I tried anyway. Not that I regret it.
There were a lot of good times we had together,
but I wasn't growing as a person in that relationship, either.
I put a lot of my work aside and wasn't working on myself.
Which wasn't his fault. I just wasn't ready.
It's okay not to be ready. Sometimes we have to do things
regardless of when we are ready to do them or not.
But this time, I know I am not ready and it is okay not to be ready.
I'm getting ready for other things in my life.
Other stuff will fall into place when they are ready and when I'm ready.
Until that time, I have my stuff that I am doing.
Healing, growing, changing, transforming, etc.
Working with the energy, working on allowing it to flow better.
All kinds of this sort of thing.
Which I know will help me in the long run.
Even this morning ritual stuff is helping already.
Which is great. I love feeling better and just feeling good in general.
It feels good to feel good and that's the only reason I need.
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