Cycles Are Hard To Break

I'm frustrated at times. When I try to explain things. I try to explain them in certain ways. The way I think they should be explained. Only I have to keep explaining and explaining which makes me frustrated. Then I'm being told that I'm not answering the questions being asked of me. Accept my explanations as answers, and stop expecting certain answers the way you think they should be. It seems that my explanations don't work for everyone. That's not my problem. The solution is to stop talking about it to people who get mad at me for their inability to accept my explanations, who end up asking for even more explanations. 

What I'm doing is complexed. So I don't expect everyone to understand. It's not my fault nor problem for their lack of patience and/or understanding with/of me or what I am doing. 

So what I'll do is just keep focusing on this and not think about the arguments of if I am or am not answering specific questions with specific answers. The questions are for me to ask of/for myself, and the answers are for myself. Not for anyone else. Therefore, I am going to continue with my goals and not think about the distractions. Frustration is a distraction. Obstacles are distractions... Too many distractions. 

What does it matter what my explanation implies? Isn't it for me to figure out for myself? 

Anyway, I feel like I'm making progress. I know I have a long way to go because I'm starting with so many basics that it is becoming complexed. But maybe this is how I analyze things. Maybe this is how my mind works. I'm setting the stage to build myself a solid foundation. I need encouragement and support, not someone being annoyed at me and projecting their frustrations onto me. That has been happening a lot lately. Every time I talk to anyone about my concepts, my ideas, my plans, my goals... It doesn't seem to make much sense to them. What matters is that it makes sense to me. 

What matters is how I feel when I get to a certain point along the line of progress. This is MY life, My choices to make, my changes to me. Everyone else can either decide to make their own choices or changes, or not. Up to them. I have the chance NOW so I am DOING something. I'm gathering as much information as I can from different sources and will be compiling it all. 

Phase one:

Gather information, compile information

Phase two: 

Formulation of plans regarding the information for the application of said information. 

Phase three: 

Allowing the applications to form new patterns and programs in order to make better choices. 

Which results is various benefits in the overall 'grand picture' of life itself. 

With the goal to make these patterns and programs develop into good habits. 

Making these good habits become automatic. 

It's really not that hard to understand. Maybe instead of getting annoyed and frustrated with me, they should really listen to the whole explanation instead of questioning everything and demanding specific answers.  

I cannot help it that I word things differently than others may choose to or expect them to be worded. 

They all must understand that I see things differently than they do. I'm looking at everything differently. Differently than I used to, because I'm in a different frame of mind now. Also because I can choose to see things differently than I used to. And because I MUST look at thing differently than I used to. I am changing into someone I haven't been before. Which of course is a process. The process is even different for everyone. Because the perception comes wayyyy before the process. The process comes wayyyy before the progress. 

Perception ----> Process ------> Progress. 

As far as I know, processes were working from practical applications. 

Some people are interested in Apps for their phones.... 

I am interested in Apps for my life. 

The choice is.... "Do I want to grow? Or do I want to remain stagnant?" 

As far as I know, misery comes from stagnation. 

Happiness can be achieved through personal development and personal growth. 

Which is why I am doing what I am doing. I want, and deserve a better life for myself. I want to and deserve to use as my of my potential as I can to optimize myself as much as I can. When I am optimal, my life will reflect my optimization. It's just that simple. By being the best me I can be, I can have the benefits from all the hard work (because this is hard to achieve), then I can possibly have someone in my life who actually 'gets me' and appreciates me for all that I am and have to offer, for once in my life, who I can also share the benefits with. Because one of these benefits will be happiness.