So I've been thinking about my project a lot. And there are little realizations I start to make along the way.
The group I went to tonight opened my eyes to things. We are on Chapter 3 now about perception. My perceptions have been changing.
This part we talked about tonight was about going beyond perception. It talks a lot about the ego, also.
Like the ego is the "I" or self of any person. The thinking, feeling, and willingness that distinguishes itself from the others and from the objects of its thoughts.
It is the part that experiences and reacts to the outside world and mediates between primal drives of the 'Id' and society's demands.
Conceit and self importance is egotism. The ego is responsible for self-esteem or self-image. Ego is the enduring and conscious part that knows experience. It comprising of both body and soul.
I've been thinking. A lot and each time I am talking about myself, it's like my ego is talking about me. It says stuff in this book about how the ego is the one that we use for our perceptions.
We can't really perceive ourselves correctly. We have no image to be perceived. The image is only created by the ego and images are just symbols for something else. We are not our egos. Thank my lucky stars for that.
I guess where I was going with this was that while I was thinking... Been feeling better lately. Because my perceptions improved? But... It could be because my ego is appeased.
It's like I give it what it wants and it stops attacking me. When it feels threatened, it will defend itself. A private war inside your own mind, with emotional turmoil, confusion, frustration, depression.
And as I said before about depression being connected to the sense of deprivation. It is the ego that perceives needs, lacking, emptiness. It tricks you into thinking and feeling like you really need something that you don't actually need. Because all of us are so much more than we realize. Our abilities are actually a shadow of our real strength.
The strength to move beyond perception. Perception distorts knowledge. Knowledge is the stability that the ego does not have. The ego is that fragile part of us, that allow us to take offense, to defend, to do, act, behave. Think, feel.
It is possible to rise above the ego. I think. I heard something like this before. I'm trying to do two things at once right now. Trying to write about what the text says and write what I think is happening.
I've been thinking that I've wanted to change my image for a long time. Why would I want to do this if I don't actually have an image to change? I only perceive that I have one, I don't actually have one.
The last part was a lot about Perception VS Knowledge. Knowledge is the true meaning of everything. Which is not open to interpretation. You can only 'interpret' meaning by perceiving the meaning. When we interpret things instead of really know them fundamental confusion occurs. Like an identity crisis. It is a crisis because it's a battle between your perception of yourself and truly knowing yourself.
Which so many people do. I do. With doing this research and finding things. I keep thinking that my ego keeps telling me want it wants me to do. Gather info like there's no tomorrow. Compile it. Working on the strategies for fulfilling my needs? Well isn't my ego responsible for telling me I have needs in the first place that need to be fulfilled, then giving me directions to find ways to fill these needs I may actually not even have?
Why is my ego trying to get me to appease it? This is the question that comes to my mind.
Like all that confidence and self esteem stuff... Self- confidence, Self-esteem, Self-approval, Self-Acceptance. It's pretty much all ego related. Do I want to feed my ego by fulfilling potentially fake needs or do I actually want to transcend my self to be who and what I am truly meant to be?
So this self stuff might be important to research so that I can try to 'interpret' the info I've been gathering. Pretty much all I can do. Our minds have become ingenious. When method and content become separated, it is used to try to escape that which cannot be escaped. Knowledge, reality.
Because we are thinking that ingenuity has so much connection to knowledge, right? Like that person knows so much that they are a genius. You know what they are not connected? Because Knowledge does not require ingenuity. If the requirement was there, they would easily be connected.
We have to try to let it go. Let go of ingenious thinking. Because it's not true. None of it is knowledge and cannot set us free. When we are willing to let it go, we will be free of the need to engage in it.
Perception is the evaluation of experience. The ego evaluation. It has selectivity at every level. It's a process of accepting, rejecting, organizing, reorganizing. Shifts and changes.
Where I am in my life right now. Exactly where I`m at. I'm trying to get organized, doing things that are promoting self growth, but I guess I've only been appeasing my ego by allowing it to tell me that I need to be a secure individual, willing to step out of her comfort zone, accept, forgive, become in tune with my self. Like self-actualization stuff. But why am I at this stage?
Does this start this way? Being aware of the ego... Ego analysis is in interesting topic to do some research on. See how it resolves internal conflicts, and builds capacity for rational thought and actions. I guess that sounds pretty good, eh? Rationality. And a new word I learned today...
Equanimity:
It's when the individual ego does not operate anymore. When we let go of our limited identity, we reveal our true nature. Our true nature is called 'Brahman' in Hinduism. When we are aware of who and what we truly are, then the ego stops. Then Equanimity is achieved. Full awareness. No attachment to the world. We identify with the body and the mind due to lack of clarity. Which makes us finite and limited. Pure awareness is unchanging reality. No need for the things that the ego does.
A persons's whole sense of themselves derives from the ego. It's forgetting who you think you are, forever. Because you don't need to think of who you are. You won't feel the need to attach yourself to an image, or care how other people perceived you. Misperceptions would just be something so foolish. Perception itself would be an interpretation of the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Which is knowledge. The infinite knowledge that has always been there, waiting to be discovered. Waiting to be accepted. Received, recognized. Recognition implies that we all knew before! Before we started becoming ourselves when we were children. We were all born knowing. But the ego gets in the way, prevents us accessing the unlimited potential to be all things, know all things.
Attachment creates our 'doership' our acting selves. Sometimes we do things that we don't know why we do them. That is ego driven. Awareness is what detaches us from the world. Awareness is what transcends the consciousness. The ego is the consciousness. Beyond the consciousness there is unlimited potential. The proper use of our mind, our body, true meaning of life itself. Everything that is, was, will be. All energy.
I keep thinking that unconsciousness is the opposite of consciousness. The undoing of consciousness? Does someone have to be unconscious to become aware? Truly aware? Like meditation.... Do people lose consciousness and end up transcending into awareness? Is that how it works? Is the real goal to life to achieve balance between egotism and altruism? To achieve balance in all polarities? Or is the concept of balance a perception? It does get confusing when you don't know for sure. Knowing is so different from thinking and feeling. Knowing is so different from perceiving. They are pretty much opposites.
Perception only becomes impossible when judgement is taken away. When there is no judgement. Only then can there be perfect equality. No needs, no desires, no judgements, no perceptions of any kind. No late nights thinking wayyyyy too much, pondering, reading, thinking some more, considering, reconsidering. Then thinking some more. All night every night. Thinking would not even be needed. Thinking wouldn't even be thought of. Free of thoughts, free of feelings.
How many times have I been upset thinking the wrong thoughts? Or feeling the wrong way? I felt like crap for YEARS because of HOW I thought. I was doing the thinking, because I was doing the perceiving. "I", my ego.
Divinity, unity. Awareness is when all this STOPS, ENDS. ALL the programs that were all just perceptions and nothing more, nothing less. All the lies your ego ever told you. It does nothing but lie. It tells you to go shopping, that you 'deserve' 'rewards' for your 'behaviour' that is controlled by your ego to begin with. It lies to you and tells you that you need the newest 'thing'. Things are only made from a sense of need and lacking.
Like I look around my apartment. I think to myself that I do not 'need' all these 'things', they are in my life because my ego lied to me and told me that I did need them or desire them at some point in my life, and my ego lied to me and told me that I 'need' to 'keep' and to 'have' these 'things'.
We believe what our egos tell us. Society is ego driven. Billions of egos fighting to exist with other egos. I guess they are called 'people' when they are ego driven and called 'beings' when the ego has been conquered.
Everything is so much more than what we think it is, so much more than what or how we feel about it, so much more than we perceive it as. We will only ever know what everything really means when we detach from thoughts, feelings, perceptions. Transcend the ego.
The group I went to tonight opened my eyes to things. We are on Chapter 3 now about perception. My perceptions have been changing.
This part we talked about tonight was about going beyond perception. It talks a lot about the ego, also.
Like the ego is the "I" or self of any person. The thinking, feeling, and willingness that distinguishes itself from the others and from the objects of its thoughts.
It is the part that experiences and reacts to the outside world and mediates between primal drives of the 'Id' and society's demands.
Conceit and self importance is egotism. The ego is responsible for self-esteem or self-image. Ego is the enduring and conscious part that knows experience. It comprising of both body and soul.
I've been thinking. A lot and each time I am talking about myself, it's like my ego is talking about me. It says stuff in this book about how the ego is the one that we use for our perceptions.
We can't really perceive ourselves correctly. We have no image to be perceived. The image is only created by the ego and images are just symbols for something else. We are not our egos. Thank my lucky stars for that.
I guess where I was going with this was that while I was thinking... Been feeling better lately. Because my perceptions improved? But... It could be because my ego is appeased.
It's like I give it what it wants and it stops attacking me. When it feels threatened, it will defend itself. A private war inside your own mind, with emotional turmoil, confusion, frustration, depression.
And as I said before about depression being connected to the sense of deprivation. It is the ego that perceives needs, lacking, emptiness. It tricks you into thinking and feeling like you really need something that you don't actually need. Because all of us are so much more than we realize. Our abilities are actually a shadow of our real strength.
The strength to move beyond perception. Perception distorts knowledge. Knowledge is the stability that the ego does not have. The ego is that fragile part of us, that allow us to take offense, to defend, to do, act, behave. Think, feel.
It is possible to rise above the ego. I think. I heard something like this before. I'm trying to do two things at once right now. Trying to write about what the text says and write what I think is happening.
I've been thinking that I've wanted to change my image for a long time. Why would I want to do this if I don't actually have an image to change? I only perceive that I have one, I don't actually have one.
The last part was a lot about Perception VS Knowledge. Knowledge is the true meaning of everything. Which is not open to interpretation. You can only 'interpret' meaning by perceiving the meaning. When we interpret things instead of really know them fundamental confusion occurs. Like an identity crisis. It is a crisis because it's a battle between your perception of yourself and truly knowing yourself.
Which so many people do. I do. With doing this research and finding things. I keep thinking that my ego keeps telling me want it wants me to do. Gather info like there's no tomorrow. Compile it. Working on the strategies for fulfilling my needs? Well isn't my ego responsible for telling me I have needs in the first place that need to be fulfilled, then giving me directions to find ways to fill these needs I may actually not even have?
Why is my ego trying to get me to appease it? This is the question that comes to my mind.
Like all that confidence and self esteem stuff... Self- confidence, Self-esteem, Self-approval, Self-Acceptance. It's pretty much all ego related. Do I want to feed my ego by fulfilling potentially fake needs or do I actually want to transcend my self to be who and what I am truly meant to be?
So this self stuff might be important to research so that I can try to 'interpret' the info I've been gathering. Pretty much all I can do. Our minds have become ingenious. When method and content become separated, it is used to try to escape that which cannot be escaped. Knowledge, reality.
Because we are thinking that ingenuity has so much connection to knowledge, right? Like that person knows so much that they are a genius. You know what they are not connected? Because Knowledge does not require ingenuity. If the requirement was there, they would easily be connected.
We have to try to let it go. Let go of ingenious thinking. Because it's not true. None of it is knowledge and cannot set us free. When we are willing to let it go, we will be free of the need to engage in it.
Perception is the evaluation of experience. The ego evaluation. It has selectivity at every level. It's a process of accepting, rejecting, organizing, reorganizing. Shifts and changes.
Where I am in my life right now. Exactly where I`m at. I'm trying to get organized, doing things that are promoting self growth, but I guess I've only been appeasing my ego by allowing it to tell me that I need to be a secure individual, willing to step out of her comfort zone, accept, forgive, become in tune with my self. Like self-actualization stuff. But why am I at this stage?
Does this start this way? Being aware of the ego... Ego analysis is in interesting topic to do some research on. See how it resolves internal conflicts, and builds capacity for rational thought and actions. I guess that sounds pretty good, eh? Rationality. And a new word I learned today...
Equanimity:
It's when the individual ego does not operate anymore. When we let go of our limited identity, we reveal our true nature. Our true nature is called 'Brahman' in Hinduism. When we are aware of who and what we truly are, then the ego stops. Then Equanimity is achieved. Full awareness. No attachment to the world. We identify with the body and the mind due to lack of clarity. Which makes us finite and limited. Pure awareness is unchanging reality. No need for the things that the ego does.
A persons's whole sense of themselves derives from the ego. It's forgetting who you think you are, forever. Because you don't need to think of who you are. You won't feel the need to attach yourself to an image, or care how other people perceived you. Misperceptions would just be something so foolish. Perception itself would be an interpretation of the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Which is knowledge. The infinite knowledge that has always been there, waiting to be discovered. Waiting to be accepted. Received, recognized. Recognition implies that we all knew before! Before we started becoming ourselves when we were children. We were all born knowing. But the ego gets in the way, prevents us accessing the unlimited potential to be all things, know all things.
Attachment creates our 'doership' our acting selves. Sometimes we do things that we don't know why we do them. That is ego driven. Awareness is what detaches us from the world. Awareness is what transcends the consciousness. The ego is the consciousness. Beyond the consciousness there is unlimited potential. The proper use of our mind, our body, true meaning of life itself. Everything that is, was, will be. All energy.
I keep thinking that unconsciousness is the opposite of consciousness. The undoing of consciousness? Does someone have to be unconscious to become aware? Truly aware? Like meditation.... Do people lose consciousness and end up transcending into awareness? Is that how it works? Is the real goal to life to achieve balance between egotism and altruism? To achieve balance in all polarities? Or is the concept of balance a perception? It does get confusing when you don't know for sure. Knowing is so different from thinking and feeling. Knowing is so different from perceiving. They are pretty much opposites.
Perception only becomes impossible when judgement is taken away. When there is no judgement. Only then can there be perfect equality. No needs, no desires, no judgements, no perceptions of any kind. No late nights thinking wayyyyy too much, pondering, reading, thinking some more, considering, reconsidering. Then thinking some more. All night every night. Thinking would not even be needed. Thinking wouldn't even be thought of. Free of thoughts, free of feelings.
How many times have I been upset thinking the wrong thoughts? Or feeling the wrong way? I felt like crap for YEARS because of HOW I thought. I was doing the thinking, because I was doing the perceiving. "I", my ego.
Divinity, unity. Awareness is when all this STOPS, ENDS. ALL the programs that were all just perceptions and nothing more, nothing less. All the lies your ego ever told you. It does nothing but lie. It tells you to go shopping, that you 'deserve' 'rewards' for your 'behaviour' that is controlled by your ego to begin with. It lies to you and tells you that you need the newest 'thing'. Things are only made from a sense of need and lacking.
Like I look around my apartment. I think to myself that I do not 'need' all these 'things', they are in my life because my ego lied to me and told me that I did need them or desire them at some point in my life, and my ego lied to me and told me that I 'need' to 'keep' and to 'have' these 'things'.
We believe what our egos tell us. Society is ego driven. Billions of egos fighting to exist with other egos. I guess they are called 'people' when they are ego driven and called 'beings' when the ego has been conquered.
Everything is so much more than what we think it is, so much more than what or how we feel about it, so much more than we perceive it as. We will only ever know what everything really means when we detach from thoughts, feelings, perceptions. Transcend the ego.
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