My first post of 2014... What can I talk about? Well, the days are numbered because I am about to turn 30. I can hardly believe it because it doesn't seem real. People have been telling me that it doesn't hit you for a while, like you start realizing it by the time you are going to turn 31.
Someone else said something about a midlife crisis when you're around 35. I can see that happening. I can see myself wondering where my life went and wondering why I haven't accomplished as much as I wanted to... Etc, etc.
I know I need to start taking better care of myself though. I have known for a long time, but the habits that have lead me down this path are the ones that are going to die hard and with a vengeance. I've been busy trying to plan a small birthday party for myself. Since all I wanted was for someone to throw me a party and make it a special 30th for me. I know I have to do things myself and for myself. I know it won't be perfect. Not how I wish it would turn out, but everything is all last minute stuff because I have never really had a party in a long time.
Anyway, I'm going to make 3 kinds of dip and deviled eggs.
I invited some guys 4 guys I know. They have never met each other.
One of them asked me why I only invited guys... Well, it seems I don't get along with girls. I rarely see or even talk to the girls I know. They won't even take 5 minutes out of their day to say hello to me. I might hear from them a few times a year and none of them remember my birthday anyway. Besides, I see their pictures of their other 'friends' on facebook all the time. They clearly have other people they want to hang out with. So why invite someone who would only go if they felt bad about saying no?
One of them asked me if she could throw my 30th birthday, but doesn't remember when it is.
I kinda knew it wasn't going to happen. I think she offered to be nice. I don't know.
Yes, it would be nice to have someone care so much about my happiness to have thrown me a party for my 30th birthday. Because that is all I wanted. A real party.
A lot of people might be surprised that I'm having a party and that they weren't invited. Maybe they should call me or write me a message once in a while. Two people I've known for over 10 years. One of those people I've known for over 20 years. Yes, I wish I could have had a big party and invited everyone I know. I know how it feels to be left out. But all of this is last minute stuff. Besides, a lot of people I know wouldn't have come anyway. They are way too busy.
Someone else said something about a midlife crisis when you're around 35. I can see that happening. I can see myself wondering where my life went and wondering why I haven't accomplished as much as I wanted to... Etc, etc.
I know I need to start taking better care of myself though. I have known for a long time, but the habits that have lead me down this path are the ones that are going to die hard and with a vengeance. I've been busy trying to plan a small birthday party for myself. Since all I wanted was for someone to throw me a party and make it a special 30th for me. I know I have to do things myself and for myself. I know it won't be perfect. Not how I wish it would turn out, but everything is all last minute stuff because I have never really had a party in a long time.
Anyway, I'm going to make 3 kinds of dip and deviled eggs.
I invited some guys 4 guys I know. They have never met each other.
One of them asked me why I only invited guys... Well, it seems I don't get along with girls. I rarely see or even talk to the girls I know. They won't even take 5 minutes out of their day to say hello to me. I might hear from them a few times a year and none of them remember my birthday anyway. Besides, I see their pictures of their other 'friends' on facebook all the time. They clearly have other people they want to hang out with. So why invite someone who would only go if they felt bad about saying no?
One of them asked me if she could throw my 30th birthday, but doesn't remember when it is.
I kinda knew it wasn't going to happen. I think she offered to be nice. I don't know.
Yes, it would be nice to have someone care so much about my happiness to have thrown me a party for my 30th birthday. Because that is all I wanted. A real party.
A lot of people might be surprised that I'm having a party and that they weren't invited. Maybe they should call me or write me a message once in a while. Two people I've known for over 10 years. One of those people I've known for over 20 years. Yes, I wish I could have had a big party and invited everyone I know. I know how it feels to be left out. But all of this is last minute stuff. Besides, a lot of people I know wouldn't have come anyway. They are way too busy.
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