All this time on my hands and haven't been sure what to do with it. I've been uneasy about going back to work because I don't have very much confidence in myself. I'd like to have a steady job to go to, earn money, just like everyone else. Chances are hard to come by. Not a lot of people out there willing to give people a chance.
Anyway, I was reading my emails one night and I got one from poetry.com about this fundraising site called: PleaseFund.com. As much as I'd like to get funds for getting my book published, I didn't want to raise money for myself. So I thought about one of the most important things anyone can do in their life: SAY THANK-YOU. Who do I most admire and have the most appreciation for? My Grandmother.
I decided that if I wanted to raise money, it shouldn't be for myself. Even if I'm in debt (which I am). I guess I'm paying a different debt in a way (one I could never really pay in full) because I owe my life to her. If it weren't for my Grandmother, I wouldn't be here. That is one of the reasons I'm thankful for her.
I knew that my control freak of an Aunt was going to have issues with this. When I told my Grandmother that I wanted to take her to Niagara Falls to see her sisters, my Aunt got mad and decided that the only one who should take my Grandmother to Niagara Falls would be her. Just because she couldn't accept me wanting to do something for her. Now she's having a hard time with this.
All I want is for my Grandmother to be happy, to be loved, to feel that she matters. That's all I could ever want. Sure, I'd like to do things for myself one day, but it's not about doing things for myself right now. A lot of my family left Ottawa and don't come to visit her very often or at all. Saying that they are 'too busy' or whatever. Couldn't they at least give her a call to tell her what they're up to? My cousin Dan just got married last month and he never wrote or sent pictures of his wedding, or anything. It hurts her when her family ignores her. They just don't see that.
She's an amazing lady. She's got so much love in her heart and I love her. I just wish that others would, too. She's 87 years old. I know she won't be around forever. Her spirit will, but as people age, so do their bodies. If they just took they time to get to know her, I know they'd see her the way I see her. I know that there are a lot of people who are just so selfish that they can't make time for their own families, (like most of my family is). They are so selfish that they can't accept that I want to do something good in my life.
Anyway, I'm on this site: Please Fund because I want to raise money for a garden at my Grandmother's retirement home. I know they sort of have one, but I'd like to get more benches, some flowers (particularly yellow roses because they are my Grandmother's favorite). I've already raised over 30 dollars! My page has been shared on facebook close to 30 times!
One of the reasons I wanted to do something for my Grandmother at the retirement home is that I used to go to that retirement home when I was a kid to do some volunteering during the March breaks I stayed with my Grandparents. We all volunteered there together. I have pictures of my Grandfather dressed in a bunny suit for some sort of Easter event they had there. I remember helping out with the birthday teas. Where I'd serve cake and tea to the residents and it made me feel good to be of service to others.
That's why I was thinking about Volunteering for the Make-A-Wish Foundation before. Only when I went to apply, there were posts on their website about how they didn't have any more volunteer positions left in the Ottawa area. I know I'll find the right place to be of some use, and I hope that I do soon.
I don't want people to think that I'm doing the fundraiser for recognition for myself. Even though the fundraiser and visits from my son are the only things really putting a smile on my face these days... It's because I feel the need to be useful, to do something, and the need to show my gratitude in a way I never was able to do so before. So why should my family be mad at me for doing this? Why can't families support each other? Aren't they supposed to?
Anyway, I was reading my emails one night and I got one from poetry.com about this fundraising site called: PleaseFund.com. As much as I'd like to get funds for getting my book published, I didn't want to raise money for myself. So I thought about one of the most important things anyone can do in their life: SAY THANK-YOU. Who do I most admire and have the most appreciation for? My Grandmother.
I decided that if I wanted to raise money, it shouldn't be for myself. Even if I'm in debt (which I am). I guess I'm paying a different debt in a way (one I could never really pay in full) because I owe my life to her. If it weren't for my Grandmother, I wouldn't be here. That is one of the reasons I'm thankful for her.
I knew that my control freak of an Aunt was going to have issues with this. When I told my Grandmother that I wanted to take her to Niagara Falls to see her sisters, my Aunt got mad and decided that the only one who should take my Grandmother to Niagara Falls would be her. Just because she couldn't accept me wanting to do something for her. Now she's having a hard time with this.
All I want is for my Grandmother to be happy, to be loved, to feel that she matters. That's all I could ever want. Sure, I'd like to do things for myself one day, but it's not about doing things for myself right now. A lot of my family left Ottawa and don't come to visit her very often or at all. Saying that they are 'too busy' or whatever. Couldn't they at least give her a call to tell her what they're up to? My cousin Dan just got married last month and he never wrote or sent pictures of his wedding, or anything. It hurts her when her family ignores her. They just don't see that.
She's an amazing lady. She's got so much love in her heart and I love her. I just wish that others would, too. She's 87 years old. I know she won't be around forever. Her spirit will, but as people age, so do their bodies. If they just took they time to get to know her, I know they'd see her the way I see her. I know that there are a lot of people who are just so selfish that they can't make time for their own families, (like most of my family is). They are so selfish that they can't accept that I want to do something good in my life.
Anyway, I'm on this site: Please Fund because I want to raise money for a garden at my Grandmother's retirement home. I know they sort of have one, but I'd like to get more benches, some flowers (particularly yellow roses because they are my Grandmother's favorite). I've already raised over 30 dollars! My page has been shared on facebook close to 30 times!
One of the reasons I wanted to do something for my Grandmother at the retirement home is that I used to go to that retirement home when I was a kid to do some volunteering during the March breaks I stayed with my Grandparents. We all volunteered there together. I have pictures of my Grandfather dressed in a bunny suit for some sort of Easter event they had there. I remember helping out with the birthday teas. Where I'd serve cake and tea to the residents and it made me feel good to be of service to others.
That's why I was thinking about Volunteering for the Make-A-Wish Foundation before. Only when I went to apply, there were posts on their website about how they didn't have any more volunteer positions left in the Ottawa area. I know I'll find the right place to be of some use, and I hope that I do soon.
I don't want people to think that I'm doing the fundraiser for recognition for myself. Even though the fundraiser and visits from my son are the only things really putting a smile on my face these days... It's because I feel the need to be useful, to do something, and the need to show my gratitude in a way I never was able to do so before. So why should my family be mad at me for doing this? Why can't families support each other? Aren't they supposed to?
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