MONEY DOESN't GROW ON TREES!!!!!!!

Things are getting a bit better, but I still do not see the end to my financial disposition. It's frustrating to say the least, but everyone has their ups and downs. I just hope that one day things are going in the right direction and all of this stress and urgency will subside to be a thing of the past.

Having said that, my rent might bounce again this month because the student loans people are pulling a fast one and trying to take the monthly payments without authorization. I didn't think they could do that, but it seems as though the government can do whatever the heck they want!!! They suck the crap off a dead donkey's ass. I called them today and they were able to give me some good news:

1) March payment has been put on hold
2) A grant was applied to my loans so now I owe less than I had initially owed

So maybe they aren't ALL crap suckers.

Still not dating. I am frustrated. I know I could go out and get laid because a lot of guys don't care who they sleep with, but I'd rather hold off for something meaningful.

I got my security guard licence today! That means I am officially able to work for the company that has hired me. I actually work tomorrow. I had to verify that because I was supposed to be working at the same place all week, but they cancelled three days of work and gave me two days of ten hour shifts.

I don't mind my uniform. The only thing I really hate about it is the collar on the shirt shafs my neck and at the end of the day, I just can't wait to get the thing off. Don't think I'm dirty, I just can't stand it rubbing my neck raw. Especially since it gets worse as the day progresses.

I'm finally starting to take care of some things, but as they are... Many uncertainties wait for some solution of any kind. I had a few chances to make some money, but I'd rather not stoop that low. Sometimes I wonder if I have it in me to actually do that to myself, to put myself through that. Every time I think about it, I realize it would be so easy, but the risks are too high and my reputation would suffer astonishingly so I'd better try my best to do what I can rather than what I should not do.