Hope is a Stength

Here I am, and somewhere in the great beyond is that somebody, that guy, whoever and wherever he is. Whatever he is thinking about or doing. Maybe dreaming. I wish I was dreaming, too. Working nights is messed up, but it is ok for now. I might be getting another job, not that there is anything wrong with this one. Just some people assume I'm an idiot and they go to great lengths to explain stuff to me, which I think is kind of funny, but insulting at the same time. They are the idiots. You have to laugh at the idiots.

When I think about the future and I get down about not having a man in my life, I have to have hope. I have to keep thinking: You can't hurry love... Yeah, that song. I just have to wait. I hate waiting, it is a pain in the ass. Everyone hates waiting. Waiting sucks. Why do we spend so much time waiting anyway? I guess it is to develop patience. Something that I don't have a lot of. Sometimes I feel like I'm running out of time. Like one day I will be in my thirties and still single. Who knows? I can't tell you what will happen tomorrow. All I know is what I still have to do today. I just have to live my life and whatever happens will happen. I still can't help but to wonder what my destiny is, what about fate? Is something supposed to happen soon? Something good, I hope!