Temporary Trouble

Things suck, that's life. It's always going to throw sh*t into the wind and I just have to live with it. Just like everyone else. This cleaning job is not for me. That doesn't mean that I'm not going to move on and get something better. I work hard. I know that. I am worth more than I'm getting paid. I know that. It's messed up starting from the bottom and trying to get near the top, but the higher you get, the further you have to fall. Not too many people realize that, but it due time they will learn that lesson on their own.

I thought my boss was a good guy, I gave him the benefit of the doubt because I look at it this way: "Give everyone respect, until they give you a reason not to respect them." Even if you don't respect them doesn't mean you have to walk on them and treat them like sh*t. I do believe in Karma. That old: "What goes around, comes around". You get what you put in. Not right away, but one day. If you don't put anything in, you don't get anything back. If you don't treat people with respect, they won't respect you. If you don't respect yourself, they won't respect you. I think about these things. I think that the reason I hate living in Ottawa sometimes is because of the darn politics. It seems like nobody does anything for anyone else unless there are reasons behind it. Not everyone is like that. I know that. It just seems like a lot of people are. More people are than there are those who are not. I don't know anymore. I won't give examples of that because I don't want to generalize. But Ottawa can be a nice place. It's like a huge park with houses and buildings.

My friends keep telling me that things will get better, they might. I don't know what will happen from one day from the next. I just keep getting out of bed each day because I have things to do. Everyone else does the same. Not too many people get all excited that they are ready to face another day. Honestly, it's like: "What the hecks going to happen today?" You just brace yourself for whatever. Nobody ever really knows what will happen when they leave the house for the day.